Reviving this thread to sum up my accomplishements over previous year.
You know, I was this ugly fat kid that was bullied, no one teached me how to stand up for myself. People just told me "Be smarter than them, dont let them bother you" but that just made me passive to everything.
Everyone liked me, because I was Chandler Bing, funny type, but really there was nothing more to me, no personality.
With age I started to be more selfconscious and that led to anxiety from social interactions, because I didnt know how to behave, what to say and what to do in public area. No one was there to teach me this stuff. I was alright with just playing football and pc games.
Then puberty came and girls. I rejected them all because I was scared that sooner or later they would reject me. People would still pick on me until highschool.
Nothing really happened in two first year, my development was as nonexistent as ever, but in my senior year I had to deal with many stressful things.
It all began with school sending me to work in a factory for month. I had to not only talk but also cooperate with strangers. I learned a lot and it made me think about self development.
I started to watch channels on youtube and these taught me a lot basic stuff.
That time I talked to girl online and after few months I went to met her (using train first time). Kinda risky but it really paid off with great three days with her. Nothing sexual, just friendship.
After this I stopped buying garbage and started spending money on "experiences".
I did driving license, bought a car and use it everyday.
There were many parties during that year and I became way better in drinking, dancing and talking to girls. But still not so great!
And I got my first date and french kiss. I let that girl go, I shouldnt but I am so picky. Post too long. Click here to view the full text.