God morgen mine sushi. I ended up only getting about two hours sleep last night due to anxiety again so I stayed up all night. I'm going to try really hard to stay up all day this time so that I'll be tired enough to sleep through the anxiety. I've spent the night and early morning (it's 9:03am at the time of my typing this out) practicing on memrise and duolingo, so I haven't been entirely wasteful with this time. I've also played a bit of COD 2, I just can't get into games like I used to be able to when I was a teenager though.>>7668
I genuinely have no idea what I want to do with my life. I'll be starting a bachelor degree in IT in July this year since IT seems like a good career choice and I'm at least somewhat competent with computers. The benefit of this particular degree is that interim awards so if I meet all the requirements I can drop out of the degree but still get either a diploma or associate degree out of it rather than it being a waste. Part of the problem with my anxiety I think is the fact that I've wasted a decade of my life doing nothing but being a NEET that was unproductive even by NEET standards. Assuming I do end up going through with the full degree, I'll be 30 by the time I achieve my bachelor degree and I feel like that's really late, especially since it's not like I've had real life work experience in between high school and now like most mature age uni students do.
I also don't have anyone to vent to about things in real life and it's kind of hard to do with people online since they don't fully understand my situation like mum did.