/hell/ - internet death cult

>>5020
same!

I'm doing quite good. Now I just need to figure out how the whole hitting on people and do a relationship thingy works

I'm doing alright I guess

Is this board still alive?

I'm actually normal, this test is just incorrect.

They'll never see it coming…

*panned laughter*

>>5258
You got no idea who you're dealing with.

well… this is unfortunate… *aims u down youkai*

most foolish youkai prepare for rebirth

>>5170
I appreciate that you are trying to help, but I need to say that you have no idea what you are talking about. "Taking a loan is a grave mistake" as opposed to what? Being evicted? Starving? When you have no money, borrowing is preferable to homelessness. I have studied Dave Ramsey's course, and he's a jackass who thinks that investment now still works the same way as it did in the 1980s. He puts all the blame on people who borrow money because he wasted his credit on fancy cars and homes, as if people don't have real legitimate things that they spend money on out of desperation. I work in a kitchen, we don't have unions, we don't have pay raises, and there are no other jobs in my area. I've applied to 60 fucking jobs and had over 20 interviews, and there's nothing. I'm working 7 days a week, I don't have weekends. And I still can't break even because of how dogshit living expenses are right now.

Again, I really appreciate that you're trying to help, but you don't know what you're talking about. And neither does Dave Ramsay for that matter.

>>5171
My advice is perfectly valid, it is only your situation that is so utterly hopeless. Can't vouch for Dave Ramsay, I have no good idea what he exactly preaches.

>>5172
god i fucking hate this character.

my doctor said I might be dying. I still have to do more tests. tests after tests after tests. it feels never ending and I just want an answer.
I keep thinking about how if I am, dying, when I die it's not going to make much of a difference to anyone. my whole life feels like it's just been empty and meaningless. I've spent so long trying to change things, hoping that something would happen. that the pieces would click in place, and my plans would work out, and things would be different.
but it never has,
and I guess maybe it never will.

if anything, everything has just gotten worse.
year after year after year, each one a little worse than the last.
it feels like everything I loved has disappeared in these last few years.
now this.

I don't even know why I'm posting this here, I'm just sad and scared and I don't know what to do.

>>5247
wait what..?! sushi…

I hate presents.

When I give them, I've had a lot of stress before and in the end I always give cheap weird crap, because I don't want to waste a lot of money on something that isn't even appreciated. Even worse a bad present might impose unwanted responsibilities onto the receiver, like an unintentional white elephant.

When I get them, I have to display joy and gratitude, which I always have to force, since these emotions only come much later for me. Even further I noticed people often expect presents in return, which beats the whole concept of a present, basically turning it into a trade.

Present meta is completely busted.

>>5218
It's supposed to be a fun gift exchange. But yeah if it's to people you don't care that much about and/or know that well it's not going to be great.

I hate the internet
I hate personal computers (mainframes and supercomputers are ok)
I hate how everything you can imagine is documented and one net search away
I hate the hollow imitation of life experience that (non-fictional) media gives us
I hate being told what to do
I hate that everything takes money
I hate law
I hate suburbs

>>No.5215

same

I hate every ape I see
From chimpan-a to chimpanzee
No you'll never make a monkey out of me

>>5242
wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

>>5242
lost

i go on a walk to clear head

Counting. It's really hard to think of anything else when you're counting. See how high you can count, slowly, rhythmically, one number every second.

>>5238
but i cant count in the middle of a conversation sushi :(

>>5239
Sure you can! Just tap your finger on something. Maybe you can't count very high with that, but keeping a simple 1-2-3-4 rhythm does the same.

>>5240
i had a very Not Fun attack because of something someone said but next time ill do this <3 thank you for the idea i hadnt thought of this myself ily

i think you are dramatizing. blacking out unbothered is blissful for a drunk

How do you know it wasn't a homicide? You interrupted the guy while he was moving the body. You could have at least given him a hand.

>>5230
give him one more hand? he's trying to get rid of two already!

Maybe they want to die.

Maybe it was you who is dead and they are alive? So you just seem like a ghost and the guy got scared and told you to go away.

What if she has a Feederism temple

>>5192
I keep wondering that too..

I had a burn on my leg from an electric heating pad. Apparently they sometimes can have bad hot spots in some very small areas. I also had a warming pad meant for cats which I used to calm my sick cat to make her feel better which sometimes but my mom would plug it in sometimes without me knowing and id find it got dangerously hot after enough hours passed when I measured the temperature (unless the laser meter read wrong) even though it isn't supposed to be capable of getting that hot. I would instead suggest something not electric to warm your cat or dog like a thermal reflective pad or something you microwave then cover ed properly so it can cool off instead of getting hotter and hotter.

I don't like the thought of having kids when I don't have a romantic relationship even. One step at a time.

>>5034
No, and to the second question, quite frankly, no as well.

As for my personal feelings on the matter, it only goes as far as I do feel genuinely bad about not giving my parents the peace of mind that their legacy gets preserved with me. So in a way, I do want to have kids at some point.

If I ever get to that stage however, I'll just roll with whatever the dice gives me and not think too hard about it. I feel like thinking too much about it beforehand is too much.

It's selfish to have kids if you want them and selfless to have them if you don't. This is assuming no negligent knocked up shenanigans.

>>5219
What's selfish about wanting to have kids? It's how we keep society and our species going. There are plenty of non-selfish reasons to want kids.

>Do you have kids, sushi?
no
>Do you want them?
i dont but that might change
i am a weirdo though, like i often hear people wanting to get married and have kids ever since childhood. myself? i didnt want to have any sort of relationship since childhood, humans kinda freak me out. sometimes i meet a person i could tolerate but they are still freaky, i am still freaky
>Shaping the life of another human being sounds incredibly difficult, yet most people seem to just go with the flow
i think a good way to look at this is just kinda let it go
as long as you dont abuse them somehow, they will turn out okay. probably. even if they dont its good to think that you did your best
tho ultimately i think kids are both a luxury and are kinda out of tune with the environment in the modern world. there is no economic incentive to make kids - or rather, there might be but so far down the line the regular person like you and me probably wont bother - and there isnt enough societal support regarding providing for kids and their upbringing. the modern urban landscape is just horrible for kids
>What if the kid is born sick?
imo sick kids should be euthanized/aborted no mercy
this reality is difficult as it is, one makes it more difficult for oneself by deciding to raise a cripple and for the kid as well because they will just to have to deal with the handicap in a competitive environment and it will reduce their possibilities in life, which i find unethical to say the least
that said, if their condition is treatable to the point of no handicap or some insignificant handicap, they should get treated and just raised as a normal kid
>What if I don't love it?
you still can raise it or at least provide for it fair and square, consider the job done
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