Yeah, there have been several times I dug up something old and had to laugh at my past self or want to go back in time to kick my own ass for being such a tard. It's even nostalgic or interesting, because in our early 20s is a huge time of flux and change. I don't have everything figured out now, but there's certainly more stability and consistency compared to then, noticeable thanks to diaries, but overall it causes a special type of overthinking on my end that I'm better off without these days. Mulling over it a bit, I used to approach writing the angst with humor, which I haven't done in a long time. Guess I got too boring and serious, lol.>>12239
Different strokes for different folks. I think they did work the same for me during a point of isolation "arranging the negative in a less negative way" had it's value and did help find the source of said negativity, which in turn is needed to resolve some of it. Honestly imageboards can really be a good quick way to get something off your chest too, as I did in this thread trying to connect with you guys on this matter, cause nobody in my life really writes at all. So when it comes down to it, I guess you can still talk places like this, sushi roll! You will find people in life too.
Since my biggest demon right now is confidence, I've found that (over)analyzing it just causes the problem to exist at a larger scale and become a self-fulfilling prophecy. In my case it's better to just not even think I have this problem at all and fake it til I make it as I enter and learn a new career. Believe it or not it does work, it's really a clear your mind zen kind of thing. If diaries get you to that kind of headspace, power to you honestly, it's a great practice. And talking with you guys made me realize that maybe I've been too flat and serious in my diaries and that's contributing to this weird dilemma. So thank you!