/lounge/ - sushi social

>>11995
it is also the only swedish word I know apart from helvete
not swedish I just started saying it, don't know why, I also say shite all the time despite not being scottish

Tired. Over the past few days I've felt like there is a black cloud over me. Probably because of a mix of things - namely having to start school in two days, finding out about Trevor Moore's death, and getting really pissed off about an ordeal with a former roommate that shouldn't have lasted as long as it did.

It's been a good day, it's amazing just how much life would drastically improve once you cut off suckers from your life.

I've finally gotten a few real days off after a while and now I'm just realizing the extent of my isolation since I quit the NEET business. Suddenly I'm a couple years older than I remember being and everything and everyone is falling apart but I can't remember what it feels like to care about stuff. Maybe I never really did. I don't really know how to be unhappy either, so I wonder if the feelings I thought I felt back then were just pantomime to go with the crowd, and if this is the way I naturally am. It's a bit funny that the result of reentering society is a more total solitude. Makes me think of Higashi no Eden.
But in general it's been a pretty good day! Caught up on sleep, played bass a little and watched some anime. It's been a bit chilly this week so maybe I'll hit that bottle of Knob Creek rye I've been saving.

I went to a modern art museum with my family today. I can't say that I really understood anything there. The information plaques weren't very helpful. I ended up staring at the four suprematist paintings they had for about twenty minutes and then waited outside. I'm not sure I understand suprematism either, but I like the paintings that have a lot of interesting colours and geometric shapes. They had a Malevich painting, but unfortunately it was one of those that was just a square and nothing else.

Enjoy yourself!!

>>11597
Holy shit I love this image so much. Thank you sushi roll, for real.

LIFE IS LIKE A SUSHIBOAT
everything is fine here

>>11615
It's such a lovely picture. I cherish it with my heart.

Hi I'm new here too!
Started lurking here today and this place seems pretty cool.

>>12213
Ooooh watermelon! i've never tried growing blueberries. I go on little trips to hunt wild ones. There's plenty growing everywhere. Raspberries too!

>>12219
Gourd! i meant gourd. Just woke up. =w= '''

>>12219
Thanks!
The semi-wild ones around our swamps is why I tried to grow mine. They're tough to get going though if you're not already on swampy places. Worried they're too high maintenance.

>>12226
Lovely flowers, sushi.

>>12219
>>12220
>blueberries
>i meant gourd
wwwww cute tired roll

Anyone else feel like diaries just make you focus in too hard on negative aspects of yourself, and therefore rumination? Overthinking? I've kept diaries on and off for near 20 years now, they always contained primarily troubled thoughts, which then continue to live in my head and nag at me even louder despite the conclusions and deeper look into these notions and patterns that keeping a journal offers me. I have done formats where I list, without any emotion, events that have happened. But then it only seems necessary to follow up on what's happening in my mind, and the cycle continues. For example, pointing out and writing about how my lack of confidence is causing me problems and error, causes the issue to live in my head more after dissecting it as opposed to solving it, thus continuing the problem of 0 confidence on a larger scale.

Then I'll quit the journal, and feel saner. If I have a serious problem, tackling it in a conversation with someone close to me yields much better results than being on a negative loop in the diary. Then I'll get a wild hair to start keeping it again and the same pattern continues, and my head seems to be darker than usual.

Don't get me wrong, writing is a good exercise and I do write other projects, but it is frustrating that diaries in particular seem to always blow up in my face (or brain)

>>12230
I've got the opposite experience, I'm very neurotic so letting past events ruminate in my head is more distressing than presenting it as text. It's cathartic to put ambiguous feelings into hard words.

>tackling it in a conversation with someone close to me yields much better results than being on a negative loop in the diary
Talking to people about your problems is great, especially when they can offer alternative ways of thinking. Stewing alone in the same emotions, the same reactions, the same reasoning, is what I find incredibly harmful.

How do you feel when you read previous entries? Are there instances where you're able to retrospectively laugh at yourself and your past reasoning?

>>12230
> Anyone else feel like diaries just make you focus in too hard on negative aspects of yourself, and therefore rumination?
I tend to do that anyway when I'm not writing. Thoughts stay in my head and spin around, degrading and becoming darker with time until I find something to distract myself. With a diary, I can actually express those thoughts and arrange them in a less negative way, so its been helpful for me.

That said, I agree that talking those issues out is very good too. It's just that I don't have many opportunities to do that. I don't have very many people I can spill my heart out to. I've been experimenting with recording myself, and that helps as well. It's very fortunate that smartphones come with voice recording software.

>>12237
Yeah, there have been several times I dug up something old and had to laugh at my past self or want to go back in time to kick my own ass for being such a tard. It's even nostalgic or interesting, because in our early 20s is a huge time of flux and change. I don't have everything figured out now, but there's certainly more stability and consistency compared to then, noticeable thanks to diaries, but overall it causes a special type of overthinking on my end that I'm better off without these days. Mulling over it a bit, I used to approach writing the angst with humor, which I haven't done in a long time. Guess I got too boring and serious, lol.

>>12239
Different strokes for different folks. I think they did work the same for me during a point of isolation "arranging the negative in a less negative way" had it's value and did help find the source of said negativity, which in turn is needed to resolve some of it. Honestly imageboards can really be a good quick way to get something off your chest too, as I did in this thread trying to connect with you guys on this matter, cause nobody in my life really writes at all. So when it comes down to it, I guess you can still talk places like this, sushi roll! You will find people in life too.

Since my biggest demon right now is confidence, I've found that (over)analyzing it just causes the problem to exist at a larger scale and become a self-fulfilling prophecy. In my case it's better to just not even think I have this problem at all and fake it til I make it as I enter and learn a new career. Believe it or not it does work, it's really a clear your mind zen kind of thing. If diaries get you to that kind of headspace, power to you honestly, it's a great practice. And talking with you guys made me realize that maybe I've been too flat and serious in my diaries and that's contributing to this weird dilemma. So thank you!

>>12229
Ishii-san really looks like Mai-chan here.

I feel as if I've lost something precious, even though we've never met.
That's life.

I wish I had real people in my life so I could leave the internet. It's a problem that doesn't have a solution. I have to go outside to meet people, but I can't handle the loneliness and anxiety when I do.

>>12216
It might not have an instant ramen solution, but it does have solutions. You just gotta want to enough that you're actually prepared to work on yourself.
Take it in small steps, you wouldnt lift a barbell with all the weights loaded on overhead without any prior training. Find the smolest improvement over the current mode and do that a bunch of times, then when that feels easy repeat that process ad infinitum.
I don't know what your life looks like, but just as example, take a walk every n days, maybe try not to change your route if somebody comes walking the other way so you dont have to cross paths, have a try at breathing calmly intentionally when walking past.

>>12216
The people I have met and kept in my life we’re around when I was doing something permanent like a job, or living somewhere. None of them were people I just happened to meet while walking or whatever.
I can’t even imagine trying to get to know someone after simply meeting them happenstance, and trying to make that work- asking for their # on first meet. I have done it before, but it never works out. They have no incentive to see you again. There is nothing keeping them there with you. Such is life.

>>12223
I didn't imply that lmao, your post is so weird.

>>7109
Good job! Please consider posting it in the personal website thread

Watching "Les Chevaliers du Ciel" (2005) aka SKY FIGHTERS ; basically France's version of Top Gun when a pilot and his wingman stop a terrorist in a super Mirage jet trying to blow up Paris during Bastille Day.

Apparently there's a tv series called Les Chevaliers Du Ciel (1967) about Franch fighter pilots too.

Despite being delta-wing configuration as well, I prefer Dassault Rafale over Eurofighter Typhoon.

Saturday night for me now
But I went out target shooting all day, and now I'm drinking some mead and watching YouTube videos with my afternoon. Pretty comfy.

Playing Magic: The Gathering at my local game shop. I'm rocking my angel deck.

>>12166
Be my angels

I wanted to watch this. This worked as a reminder, thank you OP.

>>6079
>That is what happens when swagger around as if you are invincible. He had no reason to be away from his gang for so long neither to take so many risky actions.
Yeah but he was cool.

>To me her motiviations where never elaborated enough. It felt like more background information was necessary on why she was so adamant on pursuing Michiko and why she decided to help her in the end.
I think them never giving a direct explanation as to why she hates Michiko was intentional, as for helping her she obviously did it because she still has a soft spot for her.

>>6105
>I think them never giving a direct explanation as to why she hates Michiko was intentional, as for helping her she obviously did it because she still has a soft spot for her.
I agree with everything but i still don't like the way they executed it. I think she should've been more cool -as cool as her appearence and manerism-, instead of someone who always loses

>>6109
>I think she should've been more cool -as cool as her appearence and manerism-, instead of someone who always loses

I like it just the way it is. It'd be lame is he was one of those chacters that always wins vecause they look cool, it's just trying too hard then.

>>5946
Cos you're an emotional human?

Speaking of mma any sushis into fighting or had a period of fighting a lot?

>>9800
Wasn't breakdancing literally invented by and mostly practised by very poor people? If you've had lessons you'd probably be at a big advantage if you started practising again, just find some ground and copy stuff off the internet.

>>9804
Yeah. Practice makes perfect as they say, I don't really have an excuse to not pick it up again, you're right.

> any sushis into fighting
I love it. I'm confined to practicing techniques for topical reasons, but I hope to join a gym someday or find some willing victims sparring buddies and test my mettle.

>>9804
My friends and I used to beat each other with sticks when we were kids. Good, clean fun.

>>9802
Sounds like a complicated setting just to have maids do bicycle-archery.

Street Fighting?

I recently splurged a bit on some things I've been thinking about a good while.

My main computer broke down recently, not economically stable enough to replace it. But figured, the budget lite-switch models arent that expensive. Actually great to refresh the associations, keep the computer for productive stuff and gentle chill-netting. Feels more like how games felt before when I was younger when you change device/setting. Bought Dark Souls along with it, finally time for me to git gud.

Also decided to finally go back to a flip-phone, the Nokia 2720. It's nice, actually look forward to call peeps again. Never got into apps or anything, but I still never could get used to the entire screen being the input device. I need that tactility to feel at ease.

Last but not least, picked up a pellet gun. Never had one before, only know they even exist cause my dad had an old nonfunctional one in the attic growing up. Got thinking about it again because all my other interests are all mind-stuff, except for lifting stuff, but you can only that so often. It's super relaxing for the mind to just sit there and aim.
Got a Crosman 1377, super neat that there's no Co2 cartridges or anything, just need the gun and the diabolos except for cleaning supplies since you just pump it up between rounds. Gonna try to fix up some kind of DIY target thing to keep here in my place.

Bought a few plush dolls for myself recently. Never would have thought of myself as the type to buy that kind of stuff, but having them around to hold has been plenty comforting.

>>12015
>Bought Dark Souls along with it, finally time for me to git gud.
Nice! Hope you enjoy it. If you're ever stuck you could try posting here with password matching for some co-op.
>Crosman 1377
Cool looking pellet gun! I enjoy target shooting so I hope you have fun with it.
>>12016
Stuffed animals are great, don't let anyone say otherwise. I have a bunch of Pokemon sitting around my room, I love them. Sadly not big enough to hug or anything though.

>>12021
>post passw-matching for co-op
That would be really fun actually, didnt even cross my mind that that is something you can do, been too busy just taking in the world exploring. Just gotta get more agile before I play multi, it really changes your pace in how you have to play games. Have to actually pay attention to what every enemy is doing, every time, but once you're in the zone you get this hyper-focus that is so rad to be in.

>enjoy target shooting
Yeah it's fun!
I'm not american so gun culture isn't really a thing here, and we're too peaceful to have the knife-culture of the british either, so we just have uhhh… I guess a bunch of depressed programmers instead?

But sidebit aside, it's nice with the pellet one, since you don't have to be too worried about messing up, even though you should still have proper gun etiquette still since you could fuck someones eyesight permanently if you make a mistake.
Considering trying to find a pellet-gun-club locally and make some shooty-friends, maybe get some helpful tips about stuff you can't really get a grip on by reading about it or watching vids, the more hands-on stuff.

I got myself a kalimba not long back. I have zero musical experience but its fun and relaxing to play it before I go to sleep.

>>11547
Are you OP? It certainly has been a while. I remember when this thread first began.

>>3089
I lift 10kg weights & walk a lot.

I ride the bicycle a lot.

>>3089
i try to get a lot of sunlight
i find i sleep better and feel more relaxed if I was able to spend time outside in the sun moving around

>>12008
ehehehe my dog used to do this when she was a puppy
She'd get tired/bored on long walks and just plop on the ground with no warning. I ended up carrying her up a big hill once.