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I miss the good days that haven't started yet. I know the world is capable of changing for the better, I just don't know how and when we'll get there. But its out of my control, but I have feeling that despite how worse things get, eventually they'll get better

>>19627
I never liked that show but I remember that episode. I remember the chatroom for Dawson from the premier onward.

Ive never been a fan of nostalgia but something changed lately. It hasn't made me look back differently but I have decided on something I'm sad about. Im sad about the reality of 'the direction that shouldn't happen in the future back then' feeling more concrete than an abstract fear, in my present. I am not excited for the future, as people are realizing it is a lot easier to ignore the horrors of the world and focus on the parts of life that enable them to look forward to the next week. I don't like to imagine what the 2030s are going to be like, for… well anyone, in regards to basic human needs like housing and agriculture.
I'm trying to choose life. It's not always easy to die. So adapt and decide to move on. Some of the things that I have loved, have gained their own sadness. But the joy is still there, so it's not all lost. Maybe that's age. I still have so much I want to do, between things that I've either held off or just never decided to try, to brand new things I come scross. I hope adding new things will bring something more into my life, it usually works that way. I find it interesting how the popular nostalgia lens can give growth to communities, rather than disintegration. There's a lot to still enjoy out of today and look forward to. Remakes and updates to certain trends of the past can gain improvements while still being the things they were. For example I've had a renewed interest in making a '90s website for a personal blog. Some people never stopped, but it seems like a thing again since 2020.

I just want to have something in my life, or belong to something, that feels like it will be able to improve going forward. That's difficult currently. It's difficult to believe in something. But I don't want to dwell on the remembrance of things past. I want to be able to fondly remember my future.

And I miss you, bright old days…

>>12982
not really :)

my life truly feels like a journey that takes twists and turns but i feel like as i have gotten older life has only gotten better. I had a horrible time growing up with my family but now i'm 27, living with my friends, travelling constantly, have a pretty good job doing something I never thought I could do as a real job.

I'm always doing what I want and pushing myself to try new things even if it makes me scared and nervous, and sometimes that does backfire, but I think the times it does work is what makes my life feel so fulfilling.

>>12982
Yes, because my friends and family were all still here but they have moved on doing things for themselves. Which is fine, but sometimes it feels less like life is changing for the better and more that the tides of change are sweeping us in a meaningless direction of adult drudgery.

>>22781
>According to this calculation, Chinese civilization has a history of nearly 5,000 years since the time of the Yellow Emperor. (Source: Wikipedia article on 中华文明五千年)
It's kinda a Qing Dynasty (~1700s) meme.
>>22780
I'm trying to be helpful here even if I suck at it. There's a lot of passages on how to decenter yourself from your thoughts. It's natural to feel bad at times. It's also not a religion, I'm not trying to recruit anyone into a religion, I want to be very clear here. The religious parallel is Shenism but that's a whole different thing you can just ignore.

>>22783
is that you Jesse?

>- im not fit for work from too much anxiety/negative feelings
Search for a job, where you can perform with little or no triggers for your anxiety.
>- on bad days doing anything feels very forced to me
Try to get flexible hours. Then do more on good days, so you have a buffer for bad days or work shorter days altogether. As long as you can pay your bills, you are doing good.
>- cant shake off this very deep fear and disgust for people. strangers. hate. I can barely hide it
This one is tough. Find out what you hate about people and try to not just diminish them to these traits. Everyone has a shadow, but if the hate doesn't serve you, why focus on it?
>- dont see a point in even trying because above
When you are in a ditch, every way is a steep climb at first, but I learned that sometimes even minor changes can improve your position and outlook on life, like overhauling your living conditions, replacing a bad habit with a less bad one or doing something that is in contrast to your usual routine.

>- super anxious and panicky around bad behaviour
What is bad behaviour? I hate it when people get angry, even if it's justified. Gladly my colleagues are all chill.
>- often analysis paralysis and fear paralysis that renders me immobile - - strong feeling that im just supposed to die
When this happens, start doing something with your hands, like cleaning.
>- 30 and jobless for the nth time failed so many times already
Took me longer than this, but now I have a nice workplace. After a couple of experiences I now know what to watch out for + I got lucky.
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>>22784
I didn't know what you meant at first because I was high when I made that post and forgot that I did but yeah.

>>22786
I cant tell if this is lolcow milking shitposting or meta shitposting

>>22713
it's a frog actually
but he is my bud

GrOSS YUKKY BUGGOS

butterflies are the nicest buggos

Keep busy and never give up.

>>14158
~A woman will leave, always.
~Love exists only for the Goddess, so its manifestation in the form of a waifu will never leave you, sushi roll.
_~A fool is he who believes in love between a man and a woman, believing in fairy tales from cultural lore. A man is looking for sex and stability, peace. A woman is looking for someone who will pay the bills and her clothes and other desires, so she will always be in search of a better option and compost the brain of someone who does not meet her standards. Initially, marriage, family - a failed and deadly dangerous quest. It was invented by Masons, managers of society, essentially a pirate idyll. Because families are endless consumers of any shit and enslaved NPCs.

>>15335
that's a serious medical condition…

>>21937
m00t is a slutty friendly lady boi though

Uuuuuuuu

>>21945
Forgor.t


Rembem…

who is moot?
who is itamae?

>>20804
aka vore (i wanna be eaten :3)

run

This website has no purpose. It is a blank canvas, an unfolded paper plane. It is whatever we make it, provided you follow the rules.

>>22532
AND THE LAWS

DONT FORGET THE LAWS

SUSHI

>>22610
Stop using games to distract yourself from anxiety about starting more productive hobbies, finding work, establishing social networks, etc. It leaves you at the end of the day thinking of all the things you had time to do but didn't.
(if only I could follow my own advice…)

I DONT NOW WHY BUT I STRONGLY FEEL THIS IS AN UBOACHAN CROS POST

I CAN FEEL IT, ITS IN THE PHRASING , THE PREDICTIVE ALGORITHMTIC MUSICALITY OF THE POST THAT IVE SEEN FROM THE SAME PRSON , THE WEIRD SUGGESTIVE PICTURE, THE THING NEAR HER HEAD, T

>>22480
>>22368
I have made strides in my work. Internet consumption is not down though and I've only memorized two poems. So promising, but not there yet. My language skills have improved a lot though. I'm getting a lot better, but I'm struggling with how much I have to manage.

>This thread was abandoned not long after all these commitments were made
I'm guessing NEETs struggle with scheduling stuff and managing time effectively. I understand the programming problem. I've been there too. Its such a huge field and its hard to make sense of it and stick to it.

disconnect entirely from an obsession that s become compulsive for as long as possible and eat better

Should probably make an effort to sort my room out (and keep the chaos at bay more than a week for once after having done so), get rid of more stuff.
Bought a carpet years ago and I still haven't been able to put it out because I have a bunch of boxes full of miscellaneous thingies and other stuff in the way. No room to use my reading chair either, cause I have to keep the foot rest on top of the chair with the lack of space.

Should also start lifting weights again, have my own cause I invested in a set before prices shot sky high for real iron. Which is also dependent on the room chaos being cleared away, can't get my lift on because with all the stuff in the way. Can't do my exercises properly without a large enough free spot.

>>22480
I didn't mean to abandon the thread. It just took a bit of a different direction than I had originally intended and I didn't want to rain on everyone's parade and say you're all doing it wrong or something. I had meant to prioritize completing difficult tasks that one doubts they can do or even KNOW they cannot presently do, the goal being not to achieve those tasks so much as strengthen the mind through facing hardship. My challenges so far were relatively small, but they both fit that criteria - though I haven't had the time lately to do more, being bogged down in work stuff and studying.

I will come back to this soon.

I decided to become a better programming.
To do that I have to stop relying on books and focusing on practice.
I expect to stop reading programming books altogether for a while. It should free up my reading space for more interesting stuff like history.

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>>20980
NO(USER WAS BANNED FOR THIS POST)

Arashi please calm down

>>22572
Augh


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