/lounge/ - sushi social

>>14738
>>14755
adding to my comment, my loneliness stems from the fact that I am not attractive. people tend to bully / react negatively to people with unattractive features.

i don't really want to mention the following as it gets me showered with insults or aggressive comments. Anyway, i am gonna take the risk :

for me personally, i found solace in religion (particularly islam).
At the end, the Lord will judge us according to our deeds and not our genes.

wish you good luck, ronery sushi.

>>14749
I don't wanna dwell on bad thoughts, because if you feed them you eventually end up extending these thoughts in the long run
But, I just have no clue whatsoever. Sometimes I find myself yearning for a gf but then I ask to myself, would I be better if that was the case?
Chances are yes but there is also a lot of other things going on. Being desperate for company has lead me to be with really nefarious people and to have realizations I wish I never had happen upon me. I was used through most of my life by others and trying to please people I just ended up hating myself more because of it. As if I didn't mean anything to anyone
I can't really provide anything really besides maybe company. It is a bit shitty, I just got no clue how these things like relationships or treating with people work. And after all the things that have happened I don't think I can trust anyone ever again.

>>14790
I don't get it

>>14682
very true! i guess i'm just impatient, i experienced a lot in 2022 when it came to love and intimacy and i know it takes time to find someone who loves me for who i am… even if that's corny to say..
guy i wasn't serious with, turns out i overthink us a lot… i hope we work out, i really like him

>>14757
i understand how it feels sushi, i'm not conventionally attractive and have only had one irl relationship cause of it, i'm 5 years younger so maybe it doesn't mean as much, but i genuinely understand. the way i grew up and the one relationship i had so far fucked me up, the damage feels irreparable. biggest factor is not relationship-based trauma, but what i've dealt with pretty much molded how i view romance and sex.
i hope you know you're not alone, i wish i could tell you it'd get better but it's such an empty promise half the time. but like >>14750 said, i empathize a lot and relate to your pain
plus it's not bad to take solace in religion, it's better than what most people do to deal with this feeling

2022.06.22

623 day

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2022.06.30

Wakeup to 2023.01.02

Merry Xmas 2022, ye all.

>>14767
Rest ye feet

Not killing myself

>>14818
What a coincidence, I'm also planning on not killing you

>>14821
Heh, we could spend the night together dressed up as little girls and pretending everything is great.
Suicidal shit aside, not for the holidays but for next year I plan to completely reinvent myself. I noticed that being s sad sushi has lead to me choosing really bad decisions, and after facing the music, I no longer want to be this person that just gets stepped on.
I'll find my way 🎵
Myy own wayyy 🎶🎶🎶

I'm in a similar situation. Anxiety is affecting my success in college and work. I know it doesn't make your situation any better, but just know that you're not alone with this kind of stuff.

All I know is the less I go out, the more anxious I get. When I used to have more of a social life, socialization was easier for me. The less you do it, the less familiar it is, and the harder it gets. It's like working out: you get bigger muscles when you lift more often. But if you take a long break where you don't go to the gym at all, you get in worse shape again. It's like that, but for mental health too.

I am currently looking into some sliding scale and medicaid places. There are free or sliding scale clinics that can help people who don't have a lot of money. Of course, your mileage may vary.

But don't give up. Try different methods of help, try to find supportive groups, try to reach out to resources that might be able to help you. Google local places related to counseling, mental health, sliding scale, medicaid, job help, etc. There are resources out there.

>>4503
>All I know is the less I go out, the more anxious I get. When I used to have more of a social life, socialization was easier for me. The less you do it, the less familiar it is, and the harder it gets. It's like working out: you get bigger muscles when you lift more often. But if you take a long break where you don't go to the gym at all, you get in worse shape again. It's like that, but for mental health too.
This resonates with me. If I feel someone's presence is augmenting my social anxiety I just start a conversation with any excuse. If I'm in a class I take my time and talk with everyone. I don't even care, I do it so my anxiety level is lower.
>I am currently looking into some sliding scale and medicaid places.
I'll see If I have something like that in my country.
Don't support groups just turn into an echo chamber of misery ?

>>4502
Do you like the Mission: Impossible theme?

>>11622
Yes

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l2pzcy2rQv0
Try following the carnivore diet (meat, organs and salt) for some days to see if it helps. As Saladino shows a lot of times diet plays a huge role in mental illness, and eating just meat is the best form of elimination diet to check it.
I noticed how much diet was a part of my depression when I ate pizza after following it for some weeks. I had nightmares, social anxiety, stuttering and generally felt like a zombie.

>>10666
Ah, here you are

>>10667
AI is terrifying

A giant enemy crab?

>>10666
The Thing (2011)
Meh, I prefered the John Carpenter's 1982 version. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Thing_(1982_film)

crabs in a bucket

>>11190
holy shit im good at this

Kept on seeing this thread and thoguht I might as well finally post something. I'm honestly very happy I decided to take the time to learn to touch type , it's so much faster and much more satisfying thatn having to constantly look at the keys. I do wonder if the I should switch to one of those other fancy keyboards like dvorak or something that's supposedly much more efficient. Seems like to much of a hastle for me honestly.
woah I did so much better than I thought I would, I kept on changing my thoughts and rewriting what I said, so I thought it would be super bad

make my wish ome true
all i want for xmas is youuuuuu

I think I might be ab;e to do this, but I also have reallly shaky hands, so they go off of homerow pretty often. Not to mention that I have to stretch really far because of tiny hands…

this is way too easy sushi, i can type like that whole day
but i am gonna restrain my powerlevel, you never know who's lurking

Hearing things as 'to loud' when they pretty silent is an actual neurological condition. I'd bring it up to a doctor.
You wont get drugs for it, but could get your inscerence to cover the therapy. You could diy it yourself though, exposure therapy and playing stack in the background 30 mins a day is the main treatment.

>>9254
I just wanna holiday in peace & quiet …

>>9254
I haven't been out of the house since Summer of 2019. Then with the rise of more contactless deliveries, etc. I never saw a reason to go back outside. I can't drive and freak out over surveillance as well as being jumped by people out in public. I haven't had a social life since the late 2000s. Some people wonder how I haven't went completely insane yet. I do talk to myself every day and ended up creating a system where I have split my mind into pieces with their own personalities that we all ended up having conversations with each other in a mental type of chamber.

Too much is happening….

>>14628
>Some people wonder how I haven't went completely insane yet.
>I do talk to myself every day
you responded to your own question.

talking to one's self is one of the strategies the brain develops to not lose sanity.

it's when you stop talking at all for a very long time that you become insane.

>>14756
>- in the evening, go out and socialise even if you have no friends
that's a terrible advice.
all he'll manage to get out of this is getting robbed or beaten down.

>>14758
people do it all the time

>>14759
my own experience says otherwise.
As a loner, if you try to insert yourself into others' social circle, it's likely you will be taken advantage of because you'll come out as needy & desperate for companionship.

to be welcomed in a new social circle, you need to be already part of an existing social circle where one of your acquaintances would introduce you to this new group.

that's how normal people function.

>>14753
>do you want to talk about it? We are here for you, sushi.
Someone I thought was a friend used me to get to someone that I really cared about.
It makes me sick, I never thought people could be so cold and manipulative. He took advantage of my social retardation and. Oh my god.
Fuck
I'm sorry.

it upsets me that people would jump in front of a train and just pass their grief onto others so hurtfully and gruesomely. find a way to do it with as little hurt to others - there's enough grief in this world and you of all people know that. please exit this world as peacefully as you circumstances allow.

unless of course you just hate humanity and want to cause as much misery as you can. i have grievances with that approach too, but at least i understand it.

Isn't this kind of topic a bit screwed up to talk about?
I think anyone can be attracted to any part of anything as long as there is an emotional bond in the first place.
I used to think that this and that would be ok, but the most endearing part of someone might be their care towards you.

Por moi it's whether or not the waitress has a rabbit on her head.

But IRL a huge backpack lost-cow-snail-girl is the best of course. I was glad to see there was a world in which she didn't die. Mayoi-ghost finding her mother's home was a real tear-jerker storyline.

>>14722
I feel like a lot of people *are* socialized or predisposed to be attracted to certain things, and discussion of that isn’t inherently bad. If cute smiles make you really happy, it’s fine to talk about it. If you love how bangs look, that’s fine, too. All part of the human experience.

>>12076
But there’s a fine line, and the answer is that it feels like shit, especially when collections of physical characteristics become commodified within pop culture. For *decades*, probably centuries if you count depictions of women in, like, baroque painting and stuff lol, women’s body types themselves are what have cycled in and out of style and are what women are socialized to want to “achieve” if they want to feel pretty. In the early 2000’s, it was being super skinny with 0% fat. Then in the 2010’s, it was the BBL and curves and etc that were in vogue. Now fashion magazines are talking about how curves are out and underweight figures are back in. Girls in some East Asian countries have it even worse where plastic surgery is even more mainstream. I would absolutely hate to grow up in an environment where the way I looked when I was born was explicitly sold to me as not good enough, and I would have to live with the thought hanging over me that I should save up money to have it forcibly changed.
I think most of us are desensitized to most of these discussions, and now I don’t really feel anything when people talk about the “perfect ass” or “perfect boobs” or whatever. Unfortunate but that’s how it is.

For me, it’s when I get in a relationship with someone and truly get close with them that I start to get turned on by super specific physical characteristics. In my last relationship, her style and fashion and the way she parted her hair were the charm points for me back then. But with my current boyfriend I’m slightly obsessed with his muscles and smile lol. It all comes secondary to me to the person, so I often wonder what life is like for people that approach others and try to date them by motivation of physical characteristics alone. How do you know that you’re going to get along? It’s such a huge time and emotional investment. No hate meant just genuine curiosity.

Wide hips

I met a girl with nice eyelids. Reminds me of a plant I have.

/comfy/

Mami's extended theme. Can't find on youtube anymore in decent quality as it keeps on getting taken down due to copyright (although there is a crusty version still on YT).

Hunted down the original YT link and poking around on the wayback machine found that the Japanese guy who uploaded it originally also uploaded it to Nico Nico Douga and that version wasn't taken down at all -
https://www.nicovideo.jp/watch/sm16208179

Created a vp9/opus webm for it from the NND video as it's an awesome version of the theme and it should be preserved. Video quality suffers a bit to get it below 10MB but prioritized audio bitrate as that what matters and think the audio is pretty decent.

Thank you for reading my blog

>>10566
I love old marching songs like O du schoner Westerwald and Polyushka Polye, been watching through Girls Und Panzer and it's really reinforced my interest in them.

hope you're having a magical autumn

>>14551
Thank you, very cool!

Also, honk honk.

Winter is coming