/lounge/ - sushi social

>>9557
Have some Concrete Road

>>9563
Danke

>>9640
When Sptember ends…

Anime OP

Gawr Gura sings "Bad Habits"

>>12939
Egg-cellent

Some thoughts… people do have worldviews, and those worldviews can be categorized, can be more or less correct than other worldviews. This categorization might be called politics. Or identity politics, though that may include things that are even harder to change then worldview.
Having a correct worldview is important, but telling people their worldview is wrong and yours is correct, or otherwise worldview rallying for worldview combat is uncomfy.
I feel like at this sushi stand the focus should be on understanding other worldviews, more than pushing ones own. Or better then that, talking about mundane everyday life.
And sorry to contradict my own advice so promptly, but I gotta defend centrism. "Active dude" comes to me and says 'Hey "some guy" has been doing [unforgivable act] you gotta help us punish them! We can't have people doing [unforgivable act]!' And I am filled with uncertainty about whether [unforgivable act] is really unforgivable, which I cannot voice due to fear of being attacked. I am filled with anger at "some guy" in so far as I think [unforgivable act] really is unforgivable. I am filled with fear of being used as a pawn, maybe "some guy" hasn't done anything unforgivable at all, I only have "active dude"s word, after all, and its it's probably second or even third hand… it's definitely an unpleasant position to be in. Wanting to take action but not sure what action to take. Both sides shout "obviously just do the right thing: what we say to do."
Centrism is admitting you don't know and are too enslaved by your job to be able to spend enough time to find out. Its defeatist, but if you're defeated it's better not to live in a fiction where you are not, I don't see a better path to victory doing that.
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Now to try and follow my advice a little. I like these eggs rolls have been posting. I tried making boiled eggs for my lunch last week and the shells stuck to the egg, does anyone have good tips to prevent that? I think I'll try ice bath after boiling this week.

>>12939
You want some cawfee?

>>13001
The fact that their mouths are so well animated when they say it cracks me up

Heroin & hentai
But no really coffee-cocoa makes my evenings really soft and fluffy, at my comfy-station. You take one packet of instant hot chocolate, and one packet of instant cappucino, then you take a double size as usual cup and mix then, then pour on hot water.
It's super delish and satisfying, and gives your evening a bit of an extra twinkle as you do the last stuff of the day before sleep.

I normally just bottle myself up until I have a vacation to release it all.

>>12433
this actually sounds quite comfy. I will start trying this once the weather cools down.

Washing the dishes calms my mind, especially when I do it late in the evening and try to not make too much noise.

>>7434
Pressurised Water Washing

Remembering it better now, think I can explain actually.
It was like it took me along for a dream that came from it, not me. Kinda like the difference between how you feel when you play a game yourself, or if you watch somebody else play it. Like that, but for dreams.

Sadly my dream retention is shit, so I don't remember much detail, mostly just the mood and that strange feeling of being shown things, being lead places to witness.

>>11884
Do you watch a lot of let's plays or streamers? What we see over the day influences our dreams a great deal. In the early days of television people often dreamed in greyscale [citation needed, read it in a book about dreaming i think].

>>11902
Not really no, and it was only that one time I've ever felt that way in a dream. And the entrance into dream was completely different, in that I've never been with it at the beginning of a dream before, otherwise the times I do experience dream recall I remember the last piece from what happened before I awoke, and then might be able to fish out more dream-memory by going backwards from there.

This one was the other way, remembered the beginning of the dream more easily, while it got more cloudy further in. I guess as in, the dream memory anchor was placed at the opposite end of what I otherwise always experience.

Bed is for sleep only; don't browse dumpor.com & nitter.domain.glass on your smartphone while in bed.

I've been hearing loud bangs and stuff lately as i try to fall asleep and also when I'm laying in bed after waking up. I've been having very broken sleep for a while now and this definitely doesn't help.

I encourage it, in a way. I don't call them on their bullshit, but I let them tell me their ridiculous stories and tell them I believe them. I try to make them say the most ridiculous shit possible because I know they will embarrass themselves real bad at some point. I don't need to be the one making it happen.

I've only met one true pathological liar, and it was a girl from school. We were kids, so nothing of importance was ever discussed. She would just make stories up constantly. I never had a problem with it, and I would listen to the bullshit she had to say, but I wouldn't ever consider being friends with someone like that.

>>5470
Put a lasso of truth on them.

>>5470
Be BRUTALLY HONEST

I've dealt with my mom lying like that for most of my life, and tbh, I never really learned how to deal with it. She constantly rewrites our family history and invents stories. I normally roll with it, but sometimes I wind up at a disadvantage when I'm talking to someone she met before me and I don't know what lies she's told them.

Autumn Fall means Winter is Coming

Autumn is here

>>12822
That's a nice one by Dmitry Prozorov;
https://www.artstation.com/tamplierpainter

>Do you like Autumn?

I used to, back when I lived in my hometown. I could go for strolls through the forest and look at the leaves changing color.

Since moving, autumn consists of gray, foggy days. I don't think I've seen the sun once in the last two week. It's depressing.

Where I live autumn is called winter

We got snow the other day
Sad to see my favorite season going away

I though about ways to interact with my contacts in a productive manner and came up with a project combining the interests of my friends and me with the goal of a short animated music video.

>>7705
Have you read "The Glass Bead Game"? The citation you posted reminded me instantly of the descriptions in this book.

Writing fight scenes like RA Salvatore.

Oh noes, another murder.

>>7705
Be creative in fashion

Right now now I have a few concepts I'm writing in scrivener. Longest is currently 11,000 words, still so unfinished it makes zero sense, and the smallest is 400 words. Since they're all short stories I have no big plot to describe, but the main plot through out the stories is people describing changes to their body and mind, usually caused by sci-fi body mods or lovecraft horror. The main theme is how they relate to the world with a different body, how when their mind is being transformed their writing style and thought processes changes before they notice, and how repressed emotional problems are expressed through body horror. I have no lines to post since they're all rough drafts and some of them are more therapeutic than good, mostly the ones that deal the very last theme. Most of the works I write about are also related to my academic interest, body studies, so another big theme is how people view bodies.

>That being said, I'm currently brainstorming some sort of novella based around humans who have ascended to the level of cosmic gods (kinda inspired by The Microcosmic God), and what it would be like to be dehumanised by such awesome power.
I've wanted to do something somewhat similar were the character is an alien who's planet is invaded by humans who are competitively over powered compared to them. the story will either be about innate difference, less gravity allowing humans to leap more, humans having thumbs, humans being taller than the aliens, or the humans being genetically modified or in space suits with the 'they were human all along' twist being at the end.

Literally or figuratively?

It's all the night rave parties

>>9254
are you sure it's not just tinnitus?

I should get a hearing test along with my eye check-up.

Hearing things as 'to loud' when they pretty silent is an actual neurological condition. I'd bring it up to a doctor.
You wont get drugs for it, but could get your inscerence to cover the therapy. You could diy it yourself though, exposure therapy and playing stack in the background 30 mins a day is the main treatment.

>>12278
it wasn't always this way

>>12304
Deviantart is such a strange website. Its one of the few old internet sites still around, albeit its changed a lot. You can still find drawings that were posted in 2003 and earlier. It feels like desecrating a grave.

>>12258
What do you mean? DA is still active…

>>12309
when I was in university (about a decade ago now), there was this girl I liked. one night after some deep conversation she confided in me that she liked to draw but she kept it a secret because she expressed all of her deeper, more hidden emotions in her drawings and she didn't want people she knew superficially to see them. Right before I left for a study abroad program she shared her deviantart username with me so I could see her work. She had been very secretive about it until that point but she was academically very talented so naturally I was very curious to see what she was capable of.


What I found was some depressingly bland pictures of sad looking gothic lolitas. The art wasn't terrible, but it wasn't good either, just kind of in an uncanny valley middle where the facial anatomy and coloring and everything was just slightly off to be uncomfortable. Especially the faces, there was just something offputting about the faces, like they were just too chunky and generic.
I never asked about her art again.I wonder if she knew it was bad and that's why she never told anyone about it.

It's all still there in plain sight on deviantart though. I think her last update was in 2014.

>>12891
Some people just like to draw for the sake of drawing. There's something to be said for art that isn't "good" but you really pour your heart and soul into. I probably wouldn't tell anyone either, though.

Its probably a mix of anxiety and depression friend. I know exactly what youre talking about. I can't offer you a solution because I feel this way often myself. My best suggestion is just keep pushing as hard as you can to be productive. You need to condition yourself to be able to work even when you feel this way.

Best of luck.

>>10778
without knowing your physical condition, you might be depressed. sometimes exercise out in the sunshine helps me feel better. beyond that, I would say see a doctor. cheers.

Just do it - Nike, Roman Goddess of Victory

I'm going through something very close and I think you have executive function disorder and underlying depression/anxiety expressed, or in this case masked, by alexithymia. The executive function disorder is obvious as being unable to perform tasks which one see's as easy due to an unknown mental block or bad planning is a key stone trait. An underlying case of depression or task anxiety also creates/worsens executive problems.
My main interest is your feeling of inexplainable uncomfortableness before a task and generally being uncomfortable existing as a sign of alexithymia. Alexithymia is a trait were people feel the reactions emotions bring, but they can't interpret them which often leads to them confusing emotional sensations for physical ones. The best example I can think of off the top of my head is from the book emotionally dumb; Paul is driving to a party with his gf. His heart is racing, but he can't tell what it means. Is it because he's anxious to be with his girlfriend? Is he mad he was cut off? Is it because he forgot his heart medication? This ties into you because your uncomfortableness sounds like an alexithymic interpretation of a negative emotion. Instead of having easily identifiable emotions and their causes, I don't feel good because I'm bad at X, you have vague problems and even vaguer emotions you confuse for physical discomfort, when I can't do something I feel tingly. You're obviously not happy right now, so your general depressive mood could be interpreted as your always running discomfort. Most people don't feel good before starting a task, especially people with executive problems, so your discomfort before tasks is an alexymic reaction to emotions.
What I recommend is you buy, preferably pirate, a book on skills to combat ADHD and/or executive function. Along side that you should read a CBT/DBT therapy book on anxiety and/or depression, which ever one you relate to most. Alexithymia is the more niche condition, so it has no books. The best you can do is make an emotion diary were you try to connect your body sensations to an emotion based on the context they appeared, My face feels red + I was just insulted = Angry? Embarrassed?. An emotional wheel could help.
If this doesn't work move to therapy, if you're to poor try online of sliding scale, and if that still doesn't work do drugs, most likely start with ADHD drugs as those are the cheapest.

My experience is that before a tasks I would get a vague emotiPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

I think I feel something similar, like a permanent sense of disquietude and anxiety that makes doing anything, or nothing at all, seem awkward and unnatural.