/lounge/ - sushi social

I've already set up precautions in case of spooks, I should survive the night.

>>17031
Yep.

Now I'm just vibin
and doing the monster mash

i love halloween, sadly wasn't able to participate this year due to studies and night classes. but i definitely was there in spirit

Thrillerrrrrr

>>21089
Thank you!

i talked to a nice person today. i put time into my hobby. i am getting lonely but also a bit happy that i can still experience being carefree. but my roommate got sick recently and i also learned how great it feels to be someone people can trust and depend on. i might be a little confused. thats what happens when i am left to my thoughts for too long

>>21170
i hope things get better for you and your roommate, sushi. also its nice that you put time into your hobbies. i hope you get better at them

Yes. Today I was planning on visiting my grandpa but wasn't able to due to some idiot on the train rails. Now I know what you're thinking, but I did look forward to meeting my grandpa. The positive thing that turned it around was when I entered a toy store in the free time I had after I abandoned the trip. The people working in the store were kind, even with me, an adult asking for the aisle with fidget toys and squishies… Yhe old man and woman working there worked together to help me find something I would like. My first reaction was to awkwardly move away and look down, feeling embarrassed that they weren't assuming I was buying something for a child. The woman recommended me this firm kind of ball squishy but I didn't like it. In the end, I didn't buy anything since I needed to make it in time for the train back. I made sure to thank them as I left the store.
This interaction left a warm feeling in me, and I'm looking forward to the day I go back and buy the toy I want.
Did any other sushis have a day that turned around to the better recently?

>>21188
Did you end up getting a toy yet sushi?
pics?

Work is just fear. Pure fear.

>>21507
Haven't worked in mental healthcare and don't know what kind of role or place you're thinking about, but wanted to add some perspective and tidbits as someone who spent a month in a psych ward.

You could really tell that some folk actually wanted to help, and some just saw you as a problem. People in there can be very fragile and you need a fair bit of patience. I was having trouble taking the meds early on. One of the staff tried to solve it by being menacing, another told me I could have another chance to take them only if I went to a different room for no other reason I can think of than to learn to obey, training me like a dog.

Also quite important to speak very plainly when interacting with people in an episode. Lots of small things said by staff that wouldn't have been bad for my condition if only they spoke plainly rather than by implications.

>>21434
I've only ever had one job and was fired after a couple months. I've been too afraid to find work ever again or even go outside. Fear of failure hangs over me like the sword of damocles.

All the time. Mostly because of myself.

At any time, I'm scared I will lose my job, and be without the income I'm used to having.

>>21462
Does not sound like comfy times at your job sushi.
Hate to recommend it but can you carry a gun to your workplace?

It's also quite easy to smear poop on doors.
That doesn't mean it's a sane or reasonable response to differing views on etiquette to a group.

gomen gomen ~

>>17067
wtf, why is this so good?

Cutie Honey opening (1973)

Everything about this video is beautiful.

>>21479
Absolutely this. Some of the best readers I've known were mostly self-taught, and I'm self-taught as well. There are some people who get some kind of mentoring along the process, but by and large this isn't the kind of thing where apprenticeship is common. And I'd be skeptical of anybody who takes drugs like DMT and do divination because they tend to have very off-the-wall interpretations in my experience.

Anyhow, I'm good to do readings for anybody who wants them as well. Ask whatever questions you like.

I'd like a reading. I'm a few years into a career, and it isn't leading to a life I want, but means I will never be poor and will remain comfortable. As I've grown older I've tried to become a more well rounded person, as a result I've been pursuing art, which I never did as a teenager. This has resulted in longing to leave my current life behind and pursue something more satisfying. This will lead to an impoverished life and discomfort.

My question for you, taromancer-sama, is what will result if I leave my current life behind to pursue a more unconventional life?

Numbers: 7, 26, 41

>>21490
Situation - Eight of cups (Reverse)
Action - Seven of Pentacles
Outcome - Queen of Wands (Reverse)

The eight of cups reverse is exactly your predicament. You're in a difficult spot; you don't like what you're doing, but the devil you know is more comfortable than the devil you don't. Too anxious to move on but too worn out to stay, you're left stagnant without a purpose or reason for being in your position. What you should do in this senseless predicament is move forward cautiously and clearly, but you should begin making some kind of moves instead of being stuck in this situation where you can't decide if you will or won't. Your current life is breeding a lot of strong emotions and you should be very aware of how those are affecting your judgement. Look for outside support when possible and try to examine things without your emotions involved. Looking at your options, it's clear that you're not living any kind of life worth living right now, so the question of whether or not to move on from your current career should really only be one of if you can enjoy or survive in your next. You should let go of your current job gradually and as it becomes materially sound to do so, and you shouldn't hesitate to change course if you find that striving to have a career in art is too unrealistic or not for you after all. Additionally, be prepared to take on extra work pursuing a new career instead of just jumping into it headfirst. This will be difficult. It will probably be tiresome at times, and specifically you should be weary of trying to be obsessively in control of things whether you ultimately decide to change careers or not. You shouldn't be afraid to let others take up some of your responsibilities or to stop taking care of others' for them.

>>12031

I'll bite. I'm curious if person M will approach me in the near future or alternatively if I should initiate contact and how it will go. # 7 12 33

>>21525
Past - Judgement
Present - Ten of Pentacles (Reverse)
Future - Six of Swords (Reverse)

In the past, there has been a good deal of conflict in your relationship with this person. The source of this conflict may have been, as the card's name implies, excessive judgement. Judgement as a card is also one that symbolizes karmic recompense. Expect to your intentions and actions to come back accordingly. This situation has led to a present feeling of instability and alienation in regards to this person. The future seems to only hold troubles down this road as well. You can expect to find more instability, stagnation, and relationship troubles.

Here's a bit of non-magical advice for you, sushi. I'm not sure what your relationship is/was with this person, but there are 2 suggestions here:
A. You shouldn't rely on other people acting for you. If you want something, such as to rekindle a relationship, you should be the one to take the first step towards that.
B. Don't be afraid to let go of things, especially if you're not good for each other. The cards seem to be suggesting this is the superior option if I am being honest.

Fitness advice? Don't skip leg day.

>>20694
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>>20696
Let me clarify. First I'm not OP just in case any of you mistakenly thought that. Next I was saying my legs look oddly fat almost but I am not sure it really is fat or flabby large muscle or fluid retention or if it's just I have long calve muscles too which would be unfortunate for me since I just like leaner looking legs. It firms up when I flex so it definitely isnt all fat. I do seemingly have underdeveloped glutes though so it makes me think maybe my legs have the muscles developed out of balance as part of it. I have a BMI in the mid range and my ribs partially show so I am not sure if i somehow have too much fat in some areas and not others or what. I tried to use compression socks and elevation to make sure it's not just fluid retention which didnt do a whole lot. So I was wondering to myself if muscles can become more lean but more toned instead of just getting stronger, firmer, or larger. Not that is only part I can work on just it is one thing that bothers me more.

>>20697
I haven't heard of the term ORP, I do not know what that stands for. I see it called 1RM I think. Reps of what though? Just in general you mean?

>>20715
Oh, sorry, i typed ORP instead of ORM and yeah, 1RM = ORM. It is a repetition of whichever exercise you're doing for that exercise, so if you can squat 100kg only once then that's your current 1RM for squatting but it doesn't mean your 1RM is 100kg for curls (unless you have insane bicep and forearm strength).

As for your legs, seems complicated but you won't know until you experiment, you can work out without trying hard to tone the muscle, you can do a lot of cardio and diet to lose fat and see what happens, you can do calisthenics since it sucks for legs.

Do resistance training ie. lift weights

I've cut out a meal and do some daily exercise but haven't found a gym yet. Still I seem more bloated and fatter than ever. I'm clearly doing something wrong. Thinking of joining a sports club so I have someone to show me what to do.

ERB's singing keeps me going…

Experiences of catharsis by provoking sad emotions through music, visual novels, certain games (nier for example), and a few other things

>>14877
The only thing that makes me live is illustration, i don't know what could be of my life without drawing.

my spirit has been crushed and im utterly tired of the world. for every good person in my life, there's a ton more who are of a questionable influence that the other good people tolerate, myself included (even though I wouldn't call myself a good person). I'm utterly tired, of the twofacedness of people and being twofaced myself at times. i can barely will myself to do what's necessary anymore. people suck and id rather just die.

Other than sudden cancellations allowing me to do something else that turned out interesting, no. I’d say there are more cases of good things turning bad. Generally, the longer I spend around a group of people the faster they realize I’m not right in the head and they begin gradually ostracizing me. I burn through friendships in about a week or two on average.

Oh wait, there was that time I was r*ped in high school because I can at least say I’m not a virgin and buy unwanted sympathy when I need to feign excuses or get something for free from frigid bureaucratic institutions. I hope it’s grounds for neetbux in the future.

Anything that allows me to go outside really, even if things don't work out I get to see pretty girls.

>>21373
Reading comprehension isn't your strength isn't it?

I turned up at a quiz for exchange students randomly. Turned out it was basically an ESOL class and I ended up with team of two Japanese girls. They were the weakest team on points. But since I'm dark skinned, I pretended to be ESOL and helped them win by a landslide and won them a box of chocolates which we shared out with everyone else. I didn't exercise my social skills or make new friends but I'd say it was still a happy result.

Update from OP:
So all of our announcements of the events didn’t even reach the exchange students, that’s why they didn’t show up. After contacting them directly, they actually did show up to our second event, all 9 of them! Surprisingly, all of them were girls, and thankfully they seemed to get along with each other really well. Not a lot of locals attended, but the exchange students seemed to have fun hanging out and going around town afterwards with the few of us.
I honestly wanted to cancel the event beforehand, since it looked like I’d have to run the whole thing myself. It made me nervous. We had a lovely time though, which again showed me not to run away from stuff just because it makes me nervous or uncomfortable. The girls were kind, some other locals showed up and we had a lovely time all in all.

>>21174
Sounds pretty cucked. I enjoy taking from society and giving nothing back. But yeah, we need wagecucks with "higher aspirations", because someone has to pay my bills.

>>21338
what do you do with all that free time

>>21338
I get that you have to rationalize it somehow, but contrary to certain modes of belief society tends to give back a lot more to those that give to it, rather than sit and leech.

You are very welcome though, I don't really mind some people living on charity several times removed. Hope you are making a good time of it.

>>21111
No need to break yourself and become someone. Be yourself.

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