No.14892
The knowledge that I can be better.
I look back five years, and I see how much more awful of a person I was. I look back ten years, and far worse. Then I look at who I am now, and… I'm still not the person I want to be. But I have changed for the better. In those ten years, life has not gotten any better, and in fact it has become a thousand times worse. But even under the pressure of life, I got closer to the person I want to be.
Life isn't going to get better. The world isn't going to get better, my health isn't going to get better, my job isn't going to get better, and nothing will change. But if I stay conscious and keep striving to be the best me that I can be, then I will improve. It will be slow, and it will take a long time, probably my entire life. But every day lived as a better person is a day worth living in my opinion.
I could care less about what happens around me or to me. If I'm the person I want to be, then I'm alright.
No.14909
>>14885Picrel keeps me going everyday
Someday I will find my own fauna who will love me for who I am
No.17790
>>14909Fauna the v-tuber?
Can she sing well?
No.17801
>>14892Mood.
I've come a long way from where I was, and I have much more room to grow and become. I don't worry about what I can't control, and I do what I can with me. I know that the ability to learn, grow, and transform into a better me are evergreen, so I have a lot of hope that someday somehow things will work out, and in the meantime I make what choices I can to keep growing and keep transforming. I think where I differ is that I know things will change, because nothing in life is fixed. So I keep hoping on changes, I keep seeking transformation, and becoming whatever then-me will be.
Hope is powerful sushi, keep growing!
No.17875
>>14877too lazy and scared to do a suicide
No.17931
far less philosophical than the rest of the thread, but for me rn it's being done with my job training, i've only been doing it for half a year now but the time rly flew. i get in touch with a lot of cool stuff since the job is at a research institute (i'm there to do IT not science) and the scientists are always happy to talk abt the stuff they do, they are all surprised someone asks about the stuff cause they're not used to it from the tech ppl
also luckily i brought a bunch of prior knowledge, so the training is restructured to let me do some projects and help the researchers directly which is rly rly cool :3
but yea, actually working the job in the end is what motivates me a lot rn, working an office job still scares me a lil but i'm doing shit i love, seeing the most interesting stuff and helping the research, supporting the progress, all day, the money when i rly start also motivates me bit since i never had much, knowing i'm not gonna have to worry already puts my mind at ease
sry for the word jumble if it is one, i gotta catch my bus and can't proofread ^^
No.17934
>>17931That's so cool! I wish I had a job like that. How did you get a research lab job anyways?
No.17938
>>17934sheer luck ^^ been wageslaving for a while and when i was looking for vocational trainings it just showed up and i was immediately in awe about this place :3 also i was lucky to have a friend who helped me be motivated enough to write my cover letter to them as that would be the only letter i ended up writing
i'd suggest u to just look up your countries institutes and see if they offer something like this, it's rly common where i live but if it isn't where you are i still wish u luck, these institues are way more open than one might expect ^-^
No.18195
Nothing. I keep on moving for some reason. I just hope I get some motivation soon to lift me from my depressive sadness so I can actually move on with my damn life.
No.18227
>>18195I relate to where you're at, I have something like that. I keep hoping because I know things will get better even if somedays I don't feel very hopeful.
You have to make time, make motivation, and keep moving because eventually things will work out for you. Difficult times are the shadows of passing clouds. So keep doing what you can to keep growing, eventually you'll transform like a butterfly. Nothing in life is fixed. Believe in yourself sushi! You're like the seeds in my garden, ready to sprout. You've come this far in life, so I know you'll get farther even if you don't feel that way right now.
No.18285
>>18277>>18275It is true that when we chase after happiness it always seems to get farther and farther. Happiness comes, be brave enough to hope! Loneliness like all feelings is ephemeral. You will find people you enjoy being around and who enjoy being around you, so keep looking. Often it will be when you find someone who shares a passion, like at a convention. Othertimes it will be a discovery when you choose to talk with a stranger. Strangers after all are just friends you haven't met yet. All this comes with growth and change, all good things in life do. So be content with yourself and being with yourself ("alone"), be hopeful and excited for life's possibilities, and =KEEP IT CONFY=
No.18423
Even if times are going to get worse, I should stick around for as long as possible to try to make other people's lives better. Also, I'm sure my siblings have grown too attached to me. I can't give up now and turn into dust.