/lounge/ - sushi social

>>19577
> Confiscating degenerate pokemon r34 from the 14 year old was pretty hilarious too, mans had no shame.
What a tyranny.

2024 ~ the year of when the game changed

>>19577
>Awake overnight or asleep overnight Direct Service Professional
wow I finally have a name for the job I did in the army

Despite good intentions I absolutely fucked up this year and now I'm stuck in a shitty situtation that I practically put myself into. I've noticed the following flaws that are the cause of this.

1. Inability to make decisions, probably stemming from deep anxiety, fear of loss, fear of failure, and low self-esteem.
2. Avoidant behavior i.e. avoiding or delaying things like talking to people or paperwork because its psychologically stressful and depressing.
3. Chip on the shoulder. Resenting other people and myself for past greviences, or perceived greviences.
4. Poor time management, bad spatial awarenss, and shitty attention span meaning I get taken advantage of or mess basic things up because I didn't read things properly. I've tried reading stuff over multiple times but this still doesn't fix severe attentiond defecit.

How do I fix this garbage? I've got notebooks so I can write info down and map out my day. I'm thinking of grabbing a digital watch so I can keep track of time without getting sucked into the smartphone. I still have the attention span of a baby chimp on cocaine but hopefully with discipline things will get better. But I have no idea what to do for 1. and 2. I struggle to email people or even talk on the phone. I clam up and sutter easily. And if I have to send messages or do paper work or go outside I put it off for as long as possible. This has led me to massively fuck up my life and down the path of wasted opportunities and letting myself rot all year.

>>20007
>I struggle to email people or even talk on the phone.
Practice! I had this problem too, so I used to rehearse every call I had to make. After some time I didn't even feel anxiety when unknown numbers called me up. I used to reply with messages to avoid talking, silly.

If you struggle with e-mails, use AI assistance. You can ask it how they would interpret your message and it will also tell what you can do better. I use it a lot when discussing things on the webz - maybe even for this reply? Heheh.

>digital watch
Hell yeah, it can really help. If you can, turn off your smartphone too. I do that, and also put it in a place where I am too lazy to pick it up from. That goes for everything that distracts me. Regarding sounds I put rain on speakers, it masks irregular noises that make me lose focus. Unfortunately I do not have a strong will, so I have all kinds of dumb tricks to force me to be productive.

Basically I limit access to everything that is more interesting than my work - LeechBlock is a great extension for that, if you struggle with web surfing.

I think that is all I can offer help with, sorry!

Bella…

>>19456
appendix

>>19458
Ixora

>>19583
applause

>>19590
xerox

>>11475
>>11846
Time for my lunch

>>5818
Not all of us survived, unfortunately. After a suicide attempt(s?) and a brief stint of homelessness among five great and terrible years I ended up back living with other relatives before finally my parents once more.
Well, I survived at least (not to imply it's so fantastic to be alive all the time still, but sometimes good things happen, enough to warrant another day I suppose).

>>5819
Yeah just consider there's more responsibilities to owning any animal, even a cat, than you may have considered by yourself. At the moment I'm just sticking to patting other people's cats on the way home from work (my record is three in one walk).

Also, moving to a new place where no body knows you is great! Ideally I would every couple of years, that's when things start feeling too settled. Even in this city of 50,000 I can't wander around the streets drunk and high on the weekend without a co-worker spotting me in the act.

Exercise under the moon if necessary

>>16444
Physical activity is never a bad thing…

WIN at life. Do it!

For some reason, I always tend to dream about being in corridors inside big houses, mansions, hotels, corporate buildings and such. They feel a bit "liminal" at times, especially if it's about old places. Sometimes I dream about recurrent places that only exist there, and everytime I dream about them they remain the same, the only thing that changes is the context of the dream.

I feel those dreams are a reflection of how my subconscious perceives my life, as if most of the charm and bright it had is not there anymore… I used to have very colorful and epic dreams before, dreams that used to make me feel hopeful and inspired, now if I happen to have one of those big dreams they tend to be about catastrophes, chaos or lovecraft-like phenomenons…

Sometimes I feel they just reflect how narrowed my worldview has become, as it's also a feeling I have towards the internet, where everything feels just too sterile, artificial and banal. What happened? When did everything turned so empty?

In some way, that's why I'm here, with hopes of finding that charm once again.

I always dream when my sleep is interrupted. This time I had a long continuous dream full of different characters and events, but one thing stood out. A woman was wearing a beautiful dress of my mind's design. I don't think I can describe it anymore, but even in the dream I was taken aback by how stunning she looked. She asked me which earrings looked better as she exposed her breasts…

I had a dream where evil Superman was trying to kill me, and Wonder Woman tried to fight him and weaken him with kryptonite, but it didn't work because it was jade. Then, Superman strangled her while she was making noises that were like her lungs were filling with water and she was trying to cough it up. I ran away before I could see him kill her, and I was trying to go to this bridge that's over lava before he could get to me. I got to the bridge and he had caught up to me, and I decided I'd rather burn in the lava instead of being killed by him, and he almost caught me before I plunged into the lava. I could feel the burning as my flesh was being melted off. I had become a skeleton, and in that pool of lava, years passed. Then, I woke up.

I don't remember the other dreams, but they were quite normal, I remember.

>>19710
This means you are extremely afraid of men in power, and possibly been in a relationship where the premise of control was its entire purpose.

>>8722
I don't dream much anymore, but I usually dream about kissing hawt (2d) bishies or being chased by something terrifying

A few weeks ago I was talking to a cat outside and a neighbour I hadn't noticed gave me a look like I was crazy (he didn't see the cat).

I sing moonlight dentetsu

Embarassment is weakness.
Embrace the cringe, let it flow through your veins and oxidize into a strength where no one can tell you the rights or wrong of this world…
Become. Unstoppable.

The most embarrassing thing I've done is stayed in a relationship with a loser longer than I should have only to get dumped by them because I "demanded to much", flossing teeth daily & getting out of academic probation. It's embarrassing because I pretended it was happy in front of my friends, so I cringe when I think of telling them about all the disrespect I put up with.
On the flip side I finally wake up happy everyday because I know I don't have to deal with my Ex anymore ToT

>>19734
the trash takes itself out.

I appreciate you bringing this to my attention sushi roll.

>>18742
うわマジ分かるそれドラゴンボール凄いよね実はアタシそれも見たけど米国なので海外バージョンを見ましたよ字幕なしフランス語ｖｈｓけどそう言ったらいつもの奴らはアタシを責められるとか虐められるとか困るよ本当に実は日本語でこういう事言ったらあいつら何も分からないので日本語便利よねきっとそもそもフランス語あんまり上手くないけど信じる？ただ苦痛してたちょっと少し分かってきちゃったって中々展開を分かってきたよマジでなのに米国はドランゴンボールマニアはＺから始めました寂しい気分って感じそれにあっアタシこのキャラ知ってるよ悟空は幼い頃の冒険アニメもあるよ信じてよとか言って誰も信じませんでしたよマジ激おこ場合だったよ実はあんたのレスを読んだら既にドランゴンボールも見たい気分になっちゃうよそうしようとどう思う❓

>>18742
>誰も読まぬ未完全日本語は甲斐もない。上の存在の意見・訂正に参照しなければならぬ。要は読者は大事である。

思えば、上の発言は無礼の極りである。
なぜなら、ココに読者はある。本国人であらずものの読者は読者。
そしてその読者の意見・レスの答えは長らく遅れている。

>>14489
我より経験と使う機会が多いと思われる。
正直我より上手い様だ。
友人を大切にしよう。

>>14494
祈ってくれて感謝する。
今日の状況は改良にした。
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>>18775
えええぇどうしてダウンボるのよ読者に失礼じゃなくない？アタシ真剣にリプしたけどアンタは私ギャル候補者に名乗らたのよ信じらんない💢💢

>>18930
>アンタは私ギャル候補者に名乗らたのよ信じらんない
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>アンタは私ギャル候補者に名乗られたって信じらんない
めんご…

>ヲタ仙
いい響きだな今日からこれ名乗るわ

Forested hills. The area I live in has many rolling hills with caves and cliffs, and forests cover this whole area. Trees are maybe my favorite thing ever, so it's nice.

Mars gets all the attention but Venus is so much more interesting. It has a surface so hot it could melt lead shrouded by clouds of acid. Its so alien but so much like our Earth at the same time.

I started on my Sanskrit learning journey not long ago. I am happy to say it's going fine, as far as fine can go with just a few days of study. I always wanted to learn Sanskrit, not out of a particular interest in Indian culture and literature (though I plan to read the Mahabharata), but because, generally, I am a sucker for ancient languages. When I'm done with the Sanskrit book, I'll probably read one for Ancient Greek.
I can't help but feel I'm perhaps putting too much on my plate, being primarily interested in chinese culture and being, for the last few years, learning Classical Chinese. The effort I've been putting on Sanskrit prompts me to put at least an equal amount of effort on CC, especially now that I've been reading yijing (aka I Ching) commentaries.
Oh, but it doesn't end there! I am also actively learning Russian these days. I also put some effort in learning Russian, but by now I'm stretching myself a bit too thin, especially with time, as I try to squeeze at least some time for Russian in my daily study.
All this comes with no small effort at acculturation with the respective cultures of these languages, which increases the amount of material to read. I've been trying to read history and fiction, mostly from China and Russia, and some meta about the Mahabharata (did I mention I plan to read it?), which taken all together amounts to quite a bit of overload on my brain.
Considering I have other stuff to do in my day, I don't want to neglect it by focusing too much on my language studies, nor to neglect one for the sake of the other. I am happy to be able to learn Sanskrit and Classical Chinese, I wouldn't want to put them aside, but I don't want to end up burning myself out.
Maybe I will just cut back a bit on the part of reading history and fiction, which is, as usually happens to me, a product of a bit of an overly eager intellectual ambition.

>>19607
What resources do you recommend for Classical Chinese? I really want to learn it. I love ancient and classical languages too but they soak up a lot of time and there pay off isn't obvious. There are too many great languages and books to learn and so little time.

>>19610
>What resources do you recommend for Classical Chinese?
My favourite book is Kai Vogelsang's 'Introduction to Classical Chinese', that, along with Paul Rouzer's 'A New Practical Primer' should be sufficient.
There are others, though, I also like Archie Barnes' 'Du's handbook of Classical Chinese Grammar' and 'Chinese Through Poetry'.
For a first look into it, Van der Norden's 'Classical Chinese for Everyone' is a very brief book giving a first taste for the language, you should start by reading that one.
Obviously ctext.org for classical texts and an on-line dictionary.
> I love ancient and classical languages too but they soak up a lot of time and there pay off isn't obvious.
They do. For me the pleasure lies in the process itself. However little additional understanding I can get from even a brief brush with a language makes the reading of ancient texts, even in translation, many times more enjoyable. There are usually very many terms involved which have no easy translation, and meeting the language halfway adds a lot to the experience.
I don't think I would ever reach the point of being able to 'just read' the Mahabharata in the original without any aid. I enjoy the challenge of making sense of the original even if I depend on the translation. There is, for example, Sargeant Withrop's Bhagavad-Gita, which comes with thorough glosses for each word, showing all the grammatical information (such as verb roots, conjugation, case, number, etc).
>There are too many great languages and books to learn and so little time.
Ikr, hence I am also learning Russian, so maybe I can read Tolstoi, Chekhov, Dostoievsky, Akhmatova, Lermontov, Pushkin…

>>19612
Btw for anyone interested in the New Testament, here is a site with the original Greek, with dictionary and all!
https://biblewebapp.com/reader/

>>19612
Thanks a bunch Sushi! I'm gonna start on Classical Chinese in a few months. Barnes Poetry book is great even if its a bit technical. I'm going to see if there are any Chinese culture/language clubs around my local area who can help me out too. I really want to dig into classical Chinese philosophy and religion with the original literature.

>I don't think I would ever reach the point of being able to 'just read' the Mahabharata in the original without any aid
I get the feeling that its easy to hit a plateau and burn out or never develop further because you have vastly fewer opportunities to speak in or use a 'dead' literary language.

This country is pretty good for a parody of the Slavic culture. The panorama is from Veliki Stol, pronounced [vɜlɪkə stəʊ].

>>19038
Fine. I hate phones. It won't even upload the right picture and uploads the same one twice instead.

Memoirs from China

>>19701
cute foxes

>>19701
Honestly I think I've seen too many bad things about china to considering an interesting place as a tourist