/lounge/ - sushi social

I have another wish, but I'm going to make it happen. I've tried multiple times and failed but I'm going to to it again and again until I succeed. I wish for less negativity in my life. And I'm going to start with the Internet. I got a head start because I prefer history videos and other things that allow me to learn about something rather than stupid rant videos and other two minute hate videos that people love to put out plus I've been getting bored of them. And to add to that, I only post on here and some subreddits now.

I'm going to reduce contact with negative people who just whine and friendly lady all the time too. I'm done with having negative thoughts that stay in my head all day and make my mood bad and my blood boil. I'm going to have to make another journal for this though, whatever, I'll make this wish and others come true.

>>3707
Oh wow it's been a while. Things worked out! have a really solid group of friends, the best human relationships I've ever formed in my life. Like, we care about each other and are more than just friends because we're in the same situation. The past few months have been so bloody hectic and new, it's hard to properly take it in. Super thankful to be in this position. Seasonal affective disorder has got me a little down, but my spirits are up!

Also would like a bf, but that might actually be in the works :)

I hope things similarly go well for all of you sushirolls!

>>4672
Another sushi got their wish granted! I think that's the fourth one so far. Good job sushi.

I'll be away from the Internet for a month so I've gotta make this one count. I wish for another Ice Age to occur. This will see the world's arable land brought to a minimum for the next 12,000 years or so
and that will mean a nice, slow-burning period of mass starvation compounded with exposure.

A drastic climate change like this will obviously run concurrently with yet another global extinction event that I'm thinking will dwarf even the one we're experiencing right now in the Anthropocene. It is my hope that the surviving gene pool will be so small that only the hysterically inbred shall inheirit the Earth by the time of the thaw, and as such even after millenia of desperate struggle against the harshness of our new reality, all life on our fickle planet will have been doomed from the start anyways. uwu also I wish I won't be single on Christmas for once.

Just a GF, was quite a while back I had a relationship because of my very sparse social life. Anything else I could wish for is possible with just a bit of motivation and putting up a challenge to my lethargy.

I long ago gave up on wanting shit like relationships and friends, so I'd just wish for the ability to live in isolation for the rest of my life. I'd love nothing better than to lock myself away in a dark room and never have to leave until I waste away.

>>4583

I have gone through this before, but it was usually about not having a gathering for Christmas. Eventually, I just accepted this as part of my world. I started to let go of these types of holidays, and I live without them now. If only it wasn't for the constant advertisements, I would be able to live peacefully.

However, I didn't just relinquish good times. I learned that these types of traditions are really excuses to feel good together with people you know and sometimes meet people you don't know. As you get older, most of the onus to create the environment is on you, and it becomes another thing you do to build friendships or other relationships. In other words, like most things, you don't have parents or school to do these things for you anymore. You have to do them yourself. Sometimes it isn't worth it. Sometimes you realize why your dad might have been mad when you and your siblings decide to skip a meal or open presents at the wrong time.

Related, I guess
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O0TtDeDiHcE

Not at all. Actually, I have asked "What's wrong with 'em?''

>>4619
I was literally just about to post the same thing. Damn mind reading sushi rolls they're everywhere!

>>4559
I think what's wrong with you is that you want to be a child, as you said so yourself.

>>3661
Do you happen to know the song, sushi?

Semyon Mart - aurora borealis 03.18.2015

I just want to sleep.

>>480
>tfw this very post introduced me to Satie's work
thank you very much sushi

>>3992
Any idea what the song is?

Do any of you have one of these air humidifiers? I always wondered if these things changed anything.

dont know if it's just me but moist dirt smells fucking amazing. I just wannna fucking smash my head into some and get a big fucking whiff

>>4639
Fresh beetroots smells very much of moist soil.

On that note (huehue), one of my favourite smells are the green star thing of a good tomato right after it's been torn off. Almost intoxicating to sit and sniff one.

are there candles out there that smell like fresh laundry?

>>4640
>the green star thing of a good tomato right after it's been torn off
Ooh, I have to try that!

I just remembered another favorite: the smell of freshly sliced lemon can literally give me goosebumps.

>>4214
I still don't understand this. Am I just ignorant of some genius prose?

Am I getting dumber, stupified, idioted, having my IQ lowered, losing sentience by the posting, the lost neurons, the dumbing me down, destroyed intellect, and Internet?

>>4253
Ye

>>4253
You have been fooled,pranked,bested,clowned,defeated,humilliated,shame,jokes,comedy,lost,dumbed,exposed and upset by geniuses,clowns,intelligence,rock stars,artisans,savants,comedians,kings,holy men,minstrels and celing fans.

me too, sushi
the last time i watched it i was too young and dumb to understand any of it. gonna rewatch it soon though

>>4168
That fan looks cool.

Worst girl

Liru is suffering from back problems.

Further details:

They asked me some random questions and kind of put me on the spot, which made me feel awkward. They like to shout indoors, not in an aggressive way, but they were very energetic and loud among one another. But I don't like shouting because of my abusive family that never got along with one another.

They asked if I don't swear for religious reasons even though I've literally never heard of that idea before, I just don't swear or talk much around people I don't know. Then they asked if I'm Catholic, and I said no. Didn't feel like explaining that my entire family is atheist and I'm thinking of joining a church but I don't know which one to join. Then they said maybe I'm buddhist, which was weird. I said nothing to indicate that I'm buddhist. Religion doesn't seem like a good topic to bring up as soon as you meet someone.

I could tell they were trying to get to know me because they asked me questions about myself, but I didn't really feel like opening up that quickly. I tried to engage people in conversation about themselves and their interests and stuff too, though I wasn't really good at it. They asked about movies and sports and other boring stuff which I can't relate to. I didn't feel like explaining how I spend my time programming and learning about reverse engineering, malware analysis, and information security.

They also just talked about a bunch of other random things.

They had two friendly dogs that I had fun petting. At least the dogs didn't ask me weird questions.

I wasn't used to this kind of family dynamic, where people were getting along and being talkative and stuff.

I also got the impression that they were used to everyone being really outgoing, and maybe I made people feel awkward by being quiet and not really knowing what to say. They said I'm introverted and quiet and my friend joked about me being a "silent killer" or something.
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>>4611

I've been in that situation before. It sounds like you are younger than me and haven't gotten out of that aloof, quiet-because-too-smart attitude. The "silent killer" and "reverse engineering, malware analysis, and information security" gives it away. Or maybe I'm projecting.

Since then, I've changed to be less awkward, but I occasionally drop immoral or taboo subjects on accident. If you take the time to pay attention, you can see everybody tense up when you say something bad. I'm still trying to figure out how to come back from those.

For example, I went to Thanksgiving dinner and talked about how a waiter charged me less money for something on the menu a few days ago. I thought I was lucky. Everybody around me thought it was immoral to accept a lower fee when obviously the waiter made a mistake.

As for the religion thing, I never answer those. I plainly refuse to answer them with "I don't really want to talk about my religious beliefs." and switch the topic immediately.

Another killer trick that I've had used on me is "Why do you think that?" Whenever somebody hits you with a "Are you X?" or "You're such a Y," just ask "Why do you think that?" Act like you care what they're saying and repeat their answers back to them.

>>4612
>Another killer trick that I've had used on me is "Why do you think that?" Whenever somebody hits you with a "Are you X?" or "You're such a Y," just ask "Why do you think that?" Act like you care what they're saying and repeat their answers back to them.
Sounds good. Something simple I do is say "what about you?" after answering a question about myself because I don't want the conversation to be all about me, but when you meet a new person they might ask a lot of questions about you.

>>4611
actually, it was alright, better than a normal day. feels good man

>>4611
>They asked if I don't swear for religious reasons even though I've literally never heard of that idea before
I've met people that do that, it's funny when they really want to curse but feel they can't.

>I said nothing to indicate that I'm buddhist.
They probably didn't think you were buddhist either, just said something awkward trying to keep the conversation going.

>how I spend my time programming and learning about reverse engineering, malware analysis, and information security.
Would reverse engeneering be a good topic for conversations?
A lot of different professions, hobbies, activities deal with it so i expect it to be more paupable than the other 3 options as they need a lot more specific explanation and myth deconstruction.

>But anyway, how was YOUR thanksgiving?
We don't have thanks giving here so i spent it studying.

im suprised this thread hasnt gotten more replies
anyway im more of a jpop guy but someone i used to talk to and look up to got me into clazziquai project (although they may not be considered pop)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yxq_QCqPXX8

>>4531
oh god i didnt embed it properly
do i put the whole embed thing in or just the share url. sorry

>>4532
You click on Embed and put the link there.

I only like IU.

I don't listen to very much but I like this one album by Apink specifically.

>>3831
>>3855
These two songs are some of my favourites too.

I'm in a similar situation. Anxiety is affecting my success in college and work. I know it doesn't make your situation any better, but just know that you're not alone with this kind of stuff.

All I know is the less I go out, the more anxious I get. When I used to have more of a social life, socialization was easier for me. The less you do it, the less familiar it is, and the harder it gets. It's like working out: you get bigger muscles when you lift more often. But if you take a long break where you don't go to the gym at all, you get in worse shape again. It's like that, but for mental health too.

I am currently looking into some sliding scale and medicaid places. There are free or sliding scale clinics that can help people who don't have a lot of money. Of course, your mileage may vary.

But don't give up. Try different methods of help, try to find supportive groups, try to reach out to resources that might be able to help you. Google local places related to counseling, mental health, sliding scale, medicaid, job help, etc. There are resources out there.

>>4503
>All I know is the less I go out, the more anxious I get. When I used to have more of a social life, socialization was easier for me. The less you do it, the less familiar it is, and the harder it gets. It's like working out: you get bigger muscles when you lift more often. But if you take a long break where you don't go to the gym at all, you get in worse shape again. It's like that, but for mental health too.
This resonates with me. If I feel someone's presence is augmenting my social anxiety I just start a conversation with any excuse. If I'm in a class I take my time and talk with everyone. I don't even care, I do it so my anxiety level is lower.
>I am currently looking into some sliding scale and medicaid places.
I'll see If I have something like that in my country.
Don't support groups just turn into an echo chamber of misery ?

I have recently started getting into board games. There are plenty that you can play solo and setting them up and figuring out the rules is very fun, really helps me to concentrate on something and avoid bad thoughts.

>>4573

How does it make you feel when you learn that this type of video is targeted at people like you, and that your sadness is a big part of modern life?

You feel alienated, but, at the same time, millions of other people feel alienated. Maybe somebody you know and talk to all the time feels the same way, but you don't know it. Now, your condition isn't unique, you can't just get over it, and, honestly, people don't really care.

That's what kills me. People don't want to get sucked into the negativity vortex, and, since I don't even know if it will help, I don't want them to either. So, I wrap it all up and try to fight it alone, because it's probably my battle to fight anyways.

>>4601
Is there a good reason to join someone in their negativity? I find saviors never work.

>>4602

People shouldn't join in somebody's negativity, but if you are too negative, people start ignoring you altogether. When that happens, at least a therapist will listen to you.

>>4473
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