/lounge/ - sushi social

I'm just feeling really tired
I know i'm supossed to work
But i feel so distracted

Life feels very empty. It feels as if I can never have what I want.

I'm about to make a big life change, moving across the country for a new job, and so I am a bit anxious about it and if I will be able to perform well. Hope that everything will go well…

>>22836
sounds exciting, good luck!

>>20300
Did I write this? I don't know a single other person who would call art a "baka hobby" and also root for the Capitals other than myself.
Anyway, I agree with everything I said here.

Somehow I have had 3 separate office jobs that all gave me essentially nothing to do including my current one. I have no idea how it keeps happening, it's not like I seek out this kind of job and if anything the interviews for 2 of them made them sound like I'd be pretty busy. Somehow they've all seemed pretty happy with me despite me doing nothing 90% of the time, and when I have actively asked for more to do I've mostly been shrugged off.
It's great on days when I can work from home but very boring when I'm in the office with nothing to do all day. It's also made job interviews frustrating as I have much less actual experience and knowledge than someone with my years of work should have so I need to lie and exaggerate a lot.

I'd read, learn chinese, or make things with my hands. I also stared at the female coworkers like a creep.

I remember one job would just have us all push a broom around when there was nothing to do. It was like we were the Hole Digging Club - Hole Filling Club irl. I would just listen to my ipod.

>>22825
This sounds like the dream…

I work at a small business and due to the way we place orders for parts and materials (generally only when we're low on stock or get a large order), I sometimes end up very busy and other times can go several weeks just waiting around with nothing to do. But since it's a small shop and the owner is usually around, I feel like I have to look busy even when I'm just wasting time.

But my first job was filing paperwork after hours and since it was before I got a smartphone, I brought my old gameboy and hid in the small file room playing games. Sometimes I'd stay still for so long the motion-activated lights would turn off.

>>22586
always loved Garak's cultural exchange moments

You haven't lived until you tried real creme soda

I got to try a pear cardamom artisan soda from France recently, I liked it quite a bit. A mild and complex taste, great for sipping on its own, with no need to mix it. It came in a 1l bottle with a rubber stopper, something I wish all artisan sodas would do.

My dad and I are Monster addicts but otherwise I really just prefer making my own tea or just water.

Moved to >>>/kitchen/1198.

I miss the good days that haven't started yet. I know the world is capable of changing for the better, I just don't know how and when we'll get there. But its out of my control, but I have feeling that despite how worse things get, eventually they'll get better

>>19627
I never liked that show but I remember that episode. I remember the chatroom for Dawson from the premier onward.

Ive never been a fan of nostalgia but something changed lately. It hasn't made me look back differently but I have decided on something I'm sad about. Im sad about the reality of 'the direction that shouldn't happen in the future back then' feeling more concrete than an abstract fear, in my present. I am not excited for the future, as people are realizing it is a lot easier to ignore the horrors of the world and focus on the parts of life that enable them to look forward to the next week. I don't like to imagine what the 2030s are going to be like, for… well anyone, in regards to basic human needs like housing and agriculture.
I'm trying to choose life. It's not always easy to die. So adapt and decide to move on. Some of the things that I have loved, have gained their own sadness. But the joy is still there, so it's not all lost. Maybe that's age. I still have so much I want to do, between things that I've either held off or just never decided to try, to brand new things I come scross. I hope adding new things will bring something more into my life, it usually works that way. I find it interesting how the popular nostalgia lens can give growth to communities, rather than disintegration. There's a lot to still enjoy out of today and look forward to. Remakes and updates to certain trends of the past can gain improvements while still being the things they were. For example I've had a renewed interest in making a '90s website for a personal blog. Some people never stopped, but it seems like a thing again since 2020.

I just want to have something in my life, or belong to something, that feels like it will be able to improve going forward. That's difficult currently. It's difficult to believe in something. But I don't want to dwell on the remembrance of things past. I want to be able to fondly remember my future.

And I miss you, bright old days…

>>12982
not really :)

my life truly feels like a journey that takes twists and turns but i feel like as i have gotten older life has only gotten better. I had a horrible time growing up with my family but now i'm 27, living with my friends, travelling constantly, have a pretty good job doing something I never thought I could do as a real job.

I'm always doing what I want and pushing myself to try new things even if it makes me scared and nervous, and sometimes that does backfire, but I think the times it does work is what makes my life feel so fulfilling.

>>12982
Yes, because my friends and family were all still here but they have moved on doing things for themselves. Which is fine, but sometimes it feels less like life is changing for the better and more that the tides of change are sweeping us in a meaningless direction of adult drudgery.

>>22781
>According to this calculation, Chinese civilization has a history of nearly 5,000 years since the time of the Yellow Emperor. (Source: Wikipedia article on 中华文明五千年)
It's kinda a Qing Dynasty (~1700s) meme.
>>22780
I'm trying to be helpful here even if I suck at it. There's a lot of passages on how to decenter yourself from your thoughts. It's natural to feel bad at times. It's also not a religion, I'm not trying to recruit anyone into a religion, I want to be very clear here. The religious parallel is Shenism but that's a whole different thing you can just ignore.

>>22783
is that you Jesse?

>- im not fit for work from too much anxiety/negative feelings
Search for a job, where you can perform with little or no triggers for your anxiety.
>- on bad days doing anything feels very forced to me
Try to get flexible hours. Then do more on good days, so you have a buffer for bad days or work shorter days altogether. As long as you can pay your bills, you are doing good.
>- cant shake off this very deep fear and disgust for people. strangers. hate. I can barely hide it
This one is tough. Find out what you hate about people and try to not just diminish them to these traits. Everyone has a shadow, but if the hate doesn't serve you, why focus on it?
>- dont see a point in even trying because above
When you are in a ditch, every way is a steep climb at first, but I learned that sometimes even minor changes can improve your position and outlook on life, like overhauling your living conditions, replacing a bad habit with a less bad one or doing something that is in contrast to your usual routine.

>- super anxious and panicky around bad behaviour
What is bad behaviour? I hate it when people get angry, even if it's justified. Gladly my colleagues are all chill.
>- often analysis paralysis and fear paralysis that renders me immobile - - strong feeling that im just supposed to die
When this happens, start doing something with your hands, like cleaning.
>- 30 and jobless for the nth time failed so many times already
Took me longer than this, but now I have a nice workplace. After a couple of experiences I now know what to watch out for + I got lucky.
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>>22784
I didn't know what you meant at first because I was high when I made that post and forgot that I did but yeah.

>>22786
I cant tell if this is lolcow milking shitposting or meta shitposting

>>22713
it's a frog actually
but he is my bud

GrOSS YUKKY BUGGOS

butterflies are the nicest buggos

>>21937
m00t is a slutty friendly lady boi though

Uuuuuuuu

>>21945
Forgor.t


Rembem…

who is moot?
who is itamae?

>>20804
aka vore (i wanna be eaten :3)

run

This website has no purpose. It is a blank canvas, an unfolded paper plane. It is whatever we make it, provided you follow the rules.

>>22532
AND THE LAWS

DONT FORGET THE LAWS

SUSHI

>>22610
Stop using games to distract yourself from anxiety about starting more productive hobbies, finding work, establishing social networks, etc. It leaves you at the end of the day thinking of all the things you had time to do but didn't.
(if only I could follow my own advice…)

I DONT NOW WHY BUT I STRONGLY FEEL THIS IS AN UBOACHAN CROS POST

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