/hell/ - internet death cult

>>1840
>>1865

Advice from someone who's been through it: Get an outpatient appointment ASAP with a psychiatrist. They won't hospitalize you unless you are seriously symptomatic or a danger. Don't hide symptoms, but it may be wise not to mention thoughts of self-harm, harming others, or suicidal thoughts. Ex. If you're hearing voices say so, but don't say they're telling you to hurt yourself, and when they ask if you're going to act on what they say, always say you know better.

It can take months to get an outpatient appointment (do emphasize you need one as soon as possible), so if you're having serious psychotic symptoms or are experiencing a loss of control of your mind, bite the bullet and go to the hospital. You'll have more rights as a patient who came there voluntarily as opposed to someone who was committed. It will suck, but stay there until you get a medicine that brings you 90% of the way back to normal. Again, do not hide symptoms. The right medicine WILL let you stop fighting for control of your mind, WILL make you stop hearing voices, WILL get rid of 90% of your hallucinations, etc etc. A lot of people get discharged early on wrong/ineffective medicine, and that's a huge mistake. Cooperate with your doctor, but do let them know if a medicine disagrees with you or isn't helping. Don't be afraid to push back. One doctor diagnosed me with an anxiety disorder, when I had no history of anxiety - my anxiety turned out to be 100% a side effect of the medicine.

And remember, no matter what's going on in your head, you are 100% responsible for your actions and WILL have to deal with the aftermath. Don't do anything stupid.

>>1848
this and

Read

http://slatestarcodex.com/2018/09/20/treat-the-prodrome/
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2632294/
http://slatestarcodex.com/2017/09/05/book-review-surfing-uncertainty/
https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/euJm4RwkAptZnP89i/bayes-for-schizophrenics-reasoning-in-delusional-disorders

hope everthink goes well, fellowsushiroll

*offers hugs*

OP, it's been a month, how are you doing?

>>1865
Also interested. I feel like I don't have a great grip on reality at the moment, and when I go out in public, I feel like everyone is watching me (could just be my really bad social anxiety). I've been feeling this way especially after a bad acid trip. I'm not sure how to figure out if I'm not just an hypochondriac.

schizophrenia can be pretty fun when you learn to tell the voices to fuck right off. it can even be useful.

>>592
i want boytenryuu to fuck me so bad

>>592
Damn he's so hot. You got more?

>>596
y'can look up mikoyan on e-hentai
his girltenryuu is as good, he is bisexual heaven
god I wish more artists drew guys like this, completely girlish traps are boring

>>597
Hmhm, I don't like the "draw a girl and say she got a penis" style. Manly or slightly manly traps are the best indeed. And thanks, will look him up

>>3691
Tell her how you feel before your friend tells her.

Playing violent video-games helps me when I'm in a mood…

>>3693
The more violent, the better!

>>3694
Have blood splatter everywhere!

>>3695
Sometimes you just wanna break stuff

>>1854
>>1855
You're not even talking with each other, you're talking at each other.
Just stop already.

can we just punt this thread over to superhell already

>>1856
Oh fuck off.

>>1857
Unsure if that is needed. Can't push a thread to superhell every time this guy finds something left or centrist leaning hidden between each paragraph.

>>1849
In all honesty, I doubt this meme makes people think twice about themselves.
To the people being called npcs, it's just another right-wing buzzword that will be ignored. As for the people saying the meme, they also won't reflect on their own views. If you view your opponents as mindless cattle, you're not going to take their views seriously and challenge your own views.
You could say that the people being called npcs maybe should reflect on their views, but the people calling them npcs aren't saying it because they want to change their mind. They say it because they aren't worth talking to in the first place, which is why they're called npcs. It's used as a politcal insult, and people will take it as a political insult instead of criticism.
Ultimately I don't think the term really does any harm. It's just a reflection of the current political climate. Nothing new or insightful is being said. It's just a more effective way to say the same thing.

Moved to >>>/superhell/240.

take this as a gift. you'll need it sooner or later.

Serves you right, underage.

>>1770

>got banned from 4chan
>one more reason to pull the trigger

You need to stop using the internet.

Imagine being 18 and behaving like that.

They did you a favor friend. The glory days of 4chan have been gone for about a decade now, this site got too big for it's own good.

>>1768
OOOH SO YOUR 16 ARE YA?

I always knew the hanna barbera characters where the spawn of hell.

>But it's too late to change now.
with that attitude it definitely is.

kinda pointless giving work advice without knowing your situation better except to say that you have friends, colleagues, and family who know your story better and might be able to help you out.

>>1637
I resonate with this. I try to vent online but turn it into an artform. I think there is something beautiful about the freedom to arrange letters to show what i want.

But I do feel there is a great work of destruction to be accomplished. Novelty is lacking, reality is crumbling, broken, I grasp at the centipede of logic, thrashing, fucking itself, eating itself alive.

morality is an injection of chocolate into your veins.

>>1640
>>1637
sometimes venting can help in the sense that you are not alone in your angst and struggles

being shot down for having feelings or being sad sometimes can be equally harmful as negative thought loop hug boxes imo

>>1634
It's easier to change careers from programmer to park ranger than the other way around.

If you try a new line of work and don't like it, or lose that new job at some point, you will still have that valuable programming experience on your CV.

>>1704
Morality has determined charity and pity, two balls of fat that have grown like elephants, like planets, and are called good. There is nothing good about them. Goodness is lucid, clear and decided, pitiless toward compromise and politics. Morality is an injection of chocolate into the veins of all men.

We want novelty. We are human, we are amusement, impulsiveness, and vibrant attempt to crucify boredom.

At the crossroads of the lights, alert, attentively awaiting the years.

I have no right to drag others into my river, I oblige no one to follow me and everybody practices in his own way. But the door remains open to the possibility of wallowing in cushions and good things to eat.

Notes From The Wired (Redlight Manifesto)

everything in the universe has a frequency, a resonance.
everyone in the universe has a private trap, that only they can see
I will wish you luck but first I will say 3 things:
1. I hate phrases and people who spout phrases. But mostly people who spout phrases.
2. I hate small talk and people who constantly small talk. But mostly people who constantly small talk.
3. I love justice, truth, and true comradeship, and all of humanity on an equal footing.

I know, greater than those who would consider themselves cultivated and decent, what is sublime and beautiful!

I live, or love to fall into the common routine, that which is life.
I despise, or hate with terror any form of eccentricity in myself.
I am more highly developed because I love to be the most cowardly and slave-like.
Not only do I fancy this, but I am in fact the most coward and slave-like.
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