/hell/ - internet death cult

>>5152
It's to emotionally disconnect myself. I was holding onto some people too strongly. I need to be distant, it's very important for my self-preservation, otherwise they could hurt me and stuff.
I think I'm getting better already, I feel like I'm distant enough now that I wouldn't be too hurt if they died or left me, even my lover.

>>5148
I did that a week ago, haven't really thought of them since.

Same, for the twentieth time.

I blocked 90% of the internet, all social medias, reddit, 4chan and porn sited 3d and 2d. Now I can finally feel calm and no more anxiety.
I only post in less well known imageboards and use youtube, peace and tranquility.

>>5317
Mods better spoiler this post. Its uncomfy religious imagery.

>>5239
Sure you can! Just tap your finger on something. Maybe you can't count very high with that, but keeping a simple 1-2-3-4 rhythm does the same.

>>5240
i had a very Not Fun attack because of something someone said but next time ill do this <3 thank you for the idea i hadnt thought of this myself ily

Very poorly.

masturbation

I have the opposite problem. I rarely think, but I still feel worn away by the pains of living.

>>5347
My aunt believes in psychic aliens. I don't need to interact with her tho. Also, I believe AI development poses an existential threat, but I think that is warranted since AI experts also believe it now.

Relatedly, AI optimizing for engagement is stoking bad vibes…
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=rE3j_RHkqJc
https://slatestarcodex.com/2014/12/17/the-toxoplasma-of-rage/

It's probably going to get worse. I don't know what to do about it, but start guarding your focus more diligently is a good idea. Keep a focus journal and write about the kinds of ideas you want to engage with and spend time on, and if you notice you are spending significant time focused on other things, it might be an issue. Maybe tell your mom you are worried she is spending an unhealthy amount of time focusing on things she hates in a really unproductive way.

>>5348
thanks for sharing that blog post sushi, i really enjoyed reading it. i've seen that cgp grey video before and it's also very good at explaining why i dislike social media so much (or rather, what it does to warp people's thinking).

also worth mentioning, i played mgs2 earlier this year and i was absolutely horrified by how relevant the famous "AI speech" at the end was.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C31XYgr8gp0
>Everyone withdraws into their own small gated community, afraid of a larger forum. They stay inside their little ponds, leaking whatever "truth" suits them into the growing cesspool of society at large.
>The different cardinal truths neither clash nor mesh. No one is invalidated, but nobody is right.
insane shit for a game that came out in 2001.

i don't really know what to do about this problem either, especially when platforms like youtube and now twitter actually offer financial incentives for rage-baiting and engagement farming. a big part of why i like imageboards so much is that they don't facilitate any of this crap – no usernames or profiles, no likes/dislikes or upvotes/downvotes, no algorithm boosting certain posts at the expense of others based on your history/data, etc. i feel like imageboards have an inherent authenticity to them that social media could never replicate, and this one (sushichan) in particular is like an oasis in a desert of shit. i've been lurking here for a few years and i love how kind and empathetic everyone is here, there's very little trolling or "dunking".

personally, i've been distancing myself from a lot of this crap for a few years now, and i'm happier as a result. i follow very few political content creators online now, mostly out of exhaustion. i still read the news every day, but through rss feeds, and i read the whole article – i don't rely on someone else on social media to interpet and sum up the article, doing my thinking for me. you can fit a lot more nuance and information in a news/magazine article than you ever could in a tweet. i also generally try to not spend too much time worrying about the politics of other countries, unless it personally affects me in some way (i work in tech, so unfortunately i hPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

I saw a discussion on some other site that said racism should be allowed because it isn't really the same as hurting another person. After all, these are just words and you know sticks and stones right? Liberals have a "no harm" principal but their idea of harm is very narrow. They only see non-consensual damaging of property as harmful, of course the body is someone's property according to Locke and therefore sucker punching a guy is really nothing more than unlawful property damage. When you yell the n word on the street, nobody's property rights are being enfringed on. After all, nobody owns the sidewalk right? Heh (this is actually not true). Hence, as distasteful and offensive yelling insults at blacks or trans or bald people is, its not actually harmful unless it falls under libel or you're doing it inside a classroom or a private place where its not allowed. But this contradicts the experiences of everyday people. At somepoint in our lives, we've all felt hurt by something somebody has said to us e.g. being told your brother was killed by a Tesla car, getting rejected, getting fired, being called a subhuman etc.

Because we don't see words as harmful we end up throwing it on the injured person. Its not anyone's fault if you're offended, you just need to toughen up and know words can't hurt you. The consequences of this narrow idea of harm are open to see. Western civilization is the only place in human history were randomly insulting others is seen as a good thing and pushing someone to suicide is perfectly legal. In Edo Japan, insulting someone could result in loosing your head, getting into a massive fight or being whipped by the county magistrate for being a dick. The internet just took this permissive Western attitude and accelerated it. Most websites have this "no harm principal" ideology where mocking someone isn't considered harm and if you let humans be cruel and make it a virtue they will crank it up to the max. Its no wonder that ZOMG where are teh ruelz 4chan became the hellscape it is.

Back in the 70s, gays had this retarded permissive culture of mass orgies and having tons of sex with random strangers in bathhouses, like 30 a night. Then AIDS hit and they screamed and refused to close down the whore houses or change their behavior. It got dozens of them (and other people) killed. Today they accept virtually no responsibility, it was all Reagan's fault or bisexuals did it or blame the Africans for shooting chimps in the Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>5350
>Western civilization is the only place in human history were randomly insulting others is seen as a good thing and pushing someone to suicide is perfectly legal.
I got some bad news for you if you truly believe that. Not saying its not a problem, but its a worldwide problem not limited to just the west. In Japan, people are often bullied harshly, especially kids, to the point of suicide and in some case outright murder. The teachers will either not care or cover it up to protect the school's reputation. This isn't a problem that stops only at school either, jobs in Japan are notorious for shaming people outright, underhandedly mocking or subverting people, or if they don't want to fire them (due to workplace culture) but want them gone they will put you in rooms with the most menial labour possible until you quit. It's a far cry from Edo-era Japan that we are taught about. In the middle east and Africa there are humiliation rituals done on people. And Asia has plenty of horror stories of people just being outright twats (mainland china is particularly aggressively hostile to commoners and foreigners alike).
Where the west differs, however, is that there is a weird sense of morality attached to being a dickhead. "Don't care, didn't ask, plus you're white", "I don't like foreigners invading my country", "Trans people are ruining the country", "Black fatigue" etc etc
The west seems to know that this sort of behavior is shunned but justifies it with moralistic values to get away with it. You see this on twitter on the time. It's not just because they don't like the person, its because their views are "corny" or they are an external characteristic that they can't control and that external characteristic has "history" to the abuser. It's almost like the west has a toddler-like mentality of trying to abuse others but explain to their mother that it was okay they did it. Nobody truly accepts their own accountability but lops the accountability on famous people, ecelebs, political figureheads, etc for a culture that the average person had a part in making.

https://youtu.be/FOGSUSW98eI
https://youtu.be/Azms2-VTASk
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>>5351
Well yeah, America has spread its values to the world. Pretty much every country on earth is influenced by liberal principals that go back to Locke and are baked into the legal system and capitalist property regime. Japanese can be pretty bad but they aren’t as overt and aggressive as Americans.

>It's a far cry from Edo-era Japan that we are taught about. In the middle east and Africa there are humiliation rituals done on people.
Humiliation rituals were passed as a legal punishment for crimes and misdeeds, not on the innocent. They were designed to knock a person down a peg by hurting their pride and reputation. Generally, in Asia there were strong cultures of honor so slight insults can and did cause serious fights and feuding. Insulting a person was a criminal offense in many places. In Islamic law, you can be whipped for calling a woman a slut or insulting a Jew and one Chinese emperor had a magistrate executed for hate speech against Huis. Non-European cultures tended not to separate signs from meanings, they often attributed power to symbols (good example: talismans) and literally believed words could cause physical harm (hence taboos on witchcraft, songs to cure sickness or demanding prayers as a civic duty) whereas we think words are just air.

>Where the west differs, however, is that there is a weird sense of morality attached to being a dickhead.
A popular character archetype in Western pop culture is a guy who’s a blunt asshole and gives no fucks, the bad ass. But it’s always reasoned away that his opponents deserved it so he’s a tough good asshole who’s beating up the right people. e.g. Kiefer Sutherland in 24 has no redeemable qualities. All he does is torture people but he’s torturing the right people (bad guys) so he’s a good torturer. This brings up another disturbing side to Western culture, the way they paint certain groups as irredeemably evil subhumans and so anything, no matter how sickening, can be done to punish them for their sins. You see this in online mobs where these people claim to be avenging some injustice, but then stoop to the same lows as the people they attack.

i am sorry

give it up now or the hostage gets it

>>5285
UNO Reverse

This is the kind of thread I've been missing in my life. Thanks sushis.

Hi

I love your spine.

>>5302
do you want to get tangled in it?

>>5303
That'd hurt your spine, I would never.

>>5276
mind is mutable, peepee is not

I have studied the holy scriptures and I don’t see anything inherently sinful with transitioning. The only obstacle is technological. The technology isn’t there yet. It’s imperfect.

>>3020
is that famous finnish game developer arsi "hakita" patala topping on the left picrel

if i do it now (18) will i make it? i'm 5'9" </3

to make things worse, i have very curly hair, so i can't even nbcope. i look like a small, rotund jewish child that has been vigorously stretched upwards. my shoulders aren't awful and apparently midshits have good odds before 25 of avoiding the bonepill. still sucks though.

>>5283
There might be nothing wrong with transitioning but many aspects of trans culture are sinful anyway. Chief among them coveting worldly possessions and engaging in idolatry.

i agree! all girls should have a nice landship so she and her friends can go to tea parties and stuff.

Sword of the stranger: two different animation studios collide

>>5288
I would like to see the studio that animated these two doing anime about that, as well as a big classic Sengoku Jidai anarchy anime about many different clans.

For the first one, imagine some girls find a big old tank and just make their own separate world in it. A slice of life. Funny. But the tank still has ammo

>>5247
Good luck Sushi. I hope you're doing okay.

I’ll never be loved. I’ll never love someone else.

I'm terrified of what happens next in my life. i want to be out of school finally but im scared of what a full time job entails and how i will handle it. ive been struggling balancing work, school, and my internship. my internship seems the most steady but my money is running out and for my job i only work on the weekends (since im in school/the internship the rest of the week). school has also been hard keeping up with the schoolwork. what should i do?

>>5273
keep at it. work hard, study. it oays off (in stem)

My friend is dead. Memento mori.

Is this board still alive?

I'm actually normal, this test is just incorrect.

>>5264
nice try mate but you didn't even connect 4. you're a bloody weirdo you is

She probably lied about me being a good kisser but at least she said it.

a strange feeling to consider how normie ive gotten these days…like i've been in mental hospital times enough times that i'm not your average normie but i guess i'm like … trying to go to college and stuff … i don't like living with my parents …

>>5242
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>>5242
lost