It's kinda sad how human beings have this ability to create so many scenarios of things, and how they could have ended up.
I still have fantasies about how i could meet her again, but they're so impossible I may as well write a novel instead.
I hope whatever grief you're going thru dies soon. I know mine will be difficult because, well, I am a complicated man, but I can only hope that whatever goes on with you goes fairly well.
We all love you and wish the best for you sushi