No.3128
I'm kind of a semi-hermit, somehow still have friends. But my issue I wanted to ask about, been taking walks both to take care of my body and to get more used to seeing strangers again, get out of the cave, but I'm always at a loss what to do when passing people by. Don't feel comfortable looking at them, but everything else also becomes so contrived, purposefully looking away and so on. Feels like I'm too painfully aware that I can't act "natural", no idea what the natural is, and you can't really get the idea of what it is by others either because all your actions affect theirs, if you go around checking them out to see what they do of course they're gonna look back.
I guess TL;DR, how act human passing people by?
>>2238Just a tidbit maybe you knew, but dude in your pic wrote a book, pic related.
No.3137
>>3128I usually smile and wave at strangers, and they will smile back. It's dependent on your country's culture though. But where I am at, you can't go wrong with a closed mouth smile.
No.3140
Hey, its been 1 year and 5 days i made this thread on a really intense period of my life. I guess there's a lot of confusion on my part on some posts as i was still studying and discovering a lot about what was happening and what it all really is.
Its really fun seeing how the thread evolved and directions it took, also made me happy seeing it still alive,,
On the past months i overcome depression and apathy and felt it was the right moment to use the LSD i got, 150ug, it was really good to enjoy some friends and make they watch sewage bipolar as it was for psychonautism and get a better grasp of what this experience is. Then i smoked a lot of weed for a week while reflecting on the experience, until i just sat for some hours and draw a 16 page comic scrap to process and got into studying psychonautism again. Since then its been quite good reset, got my sleep fixed to 8-10 hours a day and im being productive.
The other notable experience was a zolpidem internal trip i had few days ago that felt like being reborn, snuffed tobacco(native), smoked weed and there were a lot of incense. From outside my friend related i started talking almost inaudible and then asked where i was, he answered joking "hogwards" , internally it was the trancendental feminine, Chaos, God, that answered i was with her representation and on that internal place and had to deal with a lot of issues and stuff to leave behind which she would help me. Then it was a whole different experience of conciousness dealing with it and coming back from this reset. It was quite different from a lucid dream, and a really deep emotional experience when i was recollecting.
I would love to hear more relates from sushi
No.3143
>>3102Thank you! I had nothing to add, but I enjoyed it.
>>3140We just are under the right time to try this stuff out, it seems.
I'm planning to drop 150 sometime in the future, the charts it starts being eye-opening at this point.
How did you overcome depression and apathy though?
No.3144
>>3143Hope you have a good trip, please relate sometime. LSD to me feels like it have a really good advantage of taking a lot of hours, so you can explore a lot of different directions or relax and take your time to enjoy the current one. Most people related bad alone trips on it because it took too much time, they didnt have much more to do and the trip went to a bad place, i feel it can be avoided easily proper preparation. Im more used to weed and zolpidem which i have to work in shorter frame of time.
Overcoming depression had to do with dealing with the bunch of negative thought patterns that stagnate around during it and finaly accepting i didnt actually want to become a doctor and moving cities to be alone at medschool was really miserable. So i had to gather a lot of strenght to get out of this hell even if i had to dissapoint everyone. I had to go back to parents house to study to enter software engineering and while i was there i worked on shifting the nihilist world view depression puts you in ( i didnt really have this world view before spending all day in bed at the most annoying parts of it).
