/hell/ - internet death cult

>>2626
My mum says I look like a donkey, I like this a lot better though.

>>2627
Very blingee of you sushi roll.

You all are pretty brave
Also just pretty
I don't think I could post my ugly mug on here
>>2628
>Very blingee of you
Hah, you've reminded that I have a folder from way back when of all my school friends with stupid ironic blingee edits all over them

>>2629
I like ugly people, they're a lot more interesting to look at because they're rarely portrayed and they can vary so much. But if you're not comfortable posting a picture you could always trace over one like I did.

>>791
>>1091
Yea, except for the non-white ones that get no replies

>mfw I have no face
FUCK I'm hilarious and original.

I have a lot of dreams where people are trying to kill me. Most recently I was forced by violence to take a test I didn't understand with all sorts of weird questions on it, along with others. I got the feeling we would be hurt in form based off our answers to the test.

I tend to have pretty vivid dreams and always enjoy it. It's a nice break from the monotony of waking life.

Recently I had one that focused on this large structure seemingly built over a massive body of water, perhaps the ocean, though the water was shallow, only two or so feet deep. The structure was elevated several meters above the water; a large plane of marble, decorated with black and white checks like an old fashioned ballroom or something, supported by pillars that went down into the water. Think of a floor above the water held in place by the pillars. The pillars continued through the marble floor to the roof which was hundreds of feet overhead. There were no walls and one could see the water extend to the horizon on all sides. Every so often the floor would give way to these openings that led down into the water with stairs.

The structure was occupied by a small group of young children, between maybe 7 and 12 years old. For food they would send the oldest among them down the stairs to the water where they would fish. Though I never saw it in my dream, there was a suggestion of some force or being that would hunt these kids as they tried to fish at the water's surface, making it difficult for them to survive. The children spent their time trying to figure out what this thing was and how they could avoid it.

Nothing much happened in the dream. I just got a snapshot of this world and then woke up.

my dream world is a moonless place that blooms under a full moon and a sound that I can only hear at the back of my throat. the parade of my cultural learnedness is wrent quizzical in this contaminated virtually real rythmn hell's ladder. up the lower wrung I heave towards a heaven that hence has been had. I dream of how magical the flight of birds is.

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>>2553
omg i wanna coom in her uh uhu huhhh, … b=butt so bad hahah. lol :)

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>>2608
This sounds like a bad idea. The reason new years resolutions notoriously fail is because a special start date is only inspiration, not motivation. I've done this kind of thing and I always returned to old habits after a couple of days. Honestly it sounds more like an excuse to feel fine doing nothing. My advice is to act now rather than waiting for life to happen to you.

>>2592
Uni is hard! Use the time to study ahead for sure.

>>2610
All my successive summer plans had to be repeatedly cancelled due to the pandemic, everything's closed down again, and I'm stuck in my small town without cousins or friends since we're back on lockdown. I've literally got nothing but my computer right now.
The reason I'm waiting for September is because that's when I'm back in my (abroad) uni town, and I can't afford to miss my plane for that by getting stuck somewhere or catching the 'rona.

You're right, though, I should probably start at the lowest level I can right now – shifting my internet habits.

>>2603
I understand where you're coming from. I try to ask her about her day, what her plans are and other things to try and avoid a yes/no answer kind of situation. I don't actually initiate conversations to just talk about myself but rather try to get her to start talking to me and open up more. We've been fairly distant for quite a few years now and I've been trying to figure out what kinds of interests she has now compared to when she was younger since I also understand that she'll obviously not be into the same sort of things as when she was a kid. I used to do things like send youtube videos of songs I'm into to get an idea of her taste in music and ask her about her opinion on what I share with her and ask her to share some of her musical tastes back with me. Last time I talked to her was to show her a Moshi Monsters DS game that was being sold on Ebay while I was on there looking at DS games to buy myself, joking with her that I'll get that for her. I also do understand that I'm a really awkward person but I've tried getting across to her that I miss her and want to hang out with her without being too heavy handed and pathetic about it as well. At one point she was talking about us renting a house together to live in and while I was looking at houses for rent in our town and showing her all I'd get were messages back like "that's a nice house". One day I showed my grandma a couple houses that the two of us could rent just for my grandma to tell me that my sister had already gotten a house of her own to rent and stay in, something that had happened almost a fortnight earlier and I was never told about.
I don't know man, maybe what you said is right and I've fucked up, but I've tried with her and since making that post I am feeling better so I might keep trying with her. I really don't want to lose her.

>>2616
It sounds like you actually put effort and care into talking to her, so I'm not sure what the actual problem is. I was reading your old post again and was thinking about how you were saying you, your sister, and your mother used to be a team, but after her death you grew apart? Maybe she finds it painful to talk to you because it brings up bad memories? Usually after tragic events like that people tend to either cling or distance themselves. Then again, I really have no idea and I may be putting words in her mouth. Honestly I think you should try asking her directly if you haven't already. Be like "hey, it feels like we've grown apart, can we have a serious talk about this? is there anything I can do to make things better?"

In the meantime don't be too hard on yourself. You're doing all you can

Anyone who follows these sort of subjects is the epitome of community toxic waste. I suggest you try to recover lost dignity and the love of your family by killing yourself.

>>2617
t. mary lee walsh

Nobody likes you. Your insistence in gossiping about a special needs case for years upon years betrays your cockroach nature. It isn't funny, it wasn't ever funny and it will never be funny. Your arrival to any community signals a turning point that requires little consideration to anyone who isn't a whore for empty activity nor wishes for a drawn-out self-destruction. You do not belong here. There's enough proof that you are nothing but dead weight. Purify your soul through suicide. It's the only way. Be an altruist for once in your pathetic unlife.

Stop it. I will eat both of you.

>>2619
t. wes iseli
the hedgehog boys are one of the most significant outsider art projects of modern times

Same, I feel nothing but void

I wonder if lizdmin is okay

>>2588
Which one?

>>2609
Both tbh.
All I want is the site back.
It was one of the few sites I visited often that was both very comfy and relatively cancer free.

>My question is, is this the kind of opinion that normal people feel comfortable voicing? It seems completely over the line to me and really headfucked me.

>>624

this thread is fucking dank.

>>666
beast.

>>618
who knows amiright which is worse,

1)people who turn everything into a huge pseudo-political rant / repressed-and-unrecognized-frustration-vent

2)people like you mention which i don't really know how to characterize

3)people that post sage off-topic stuff because the anti-christ told you not to use toothpaste.

4)people overly concerned with social conformity even at the expense of correctness, who also talk about 'normies,' as if being overly-normal wasn't also a psycho-emotional disorder.

>>2266
I'm gonna say #1

I feel the same way sushi. One of the reasons that I like the culture of Japan

A great thing about slow image boards is that sometimes you can make a thread, come across it again years later, and forget that you were the one who made it.

>>2590
>>2594

It's quite weird to think about all that, given that Kalyx always was a total glitterboy, who (if I remember correctly) used the server donation money to buy some equipment for himself.
Appleman's Lainchan had a rough start, then normalized, but it's still not the same place.

For the record, InstallGentoo has the whole story: https://wiki.installgentoo.com/index.php/Lainchan

Shame I didn't get to visit Arisuchan, I heard it was pretty good in spite of everything.

>>2599
>>2594
Eh. To be honest I think arisu was objectively inferior to lain hands down. That terrible css and huge font size made me feel like I was browsing the mobile version of that place on desktop. Like Medium, but worse. And lain always had more interesting and vivid conversations. That might have been a self fulfilling prophecy, but still…

>>2600
To be honest, I never had any issues with how Lainchan looked and worked, quite the opposite. Can't say for Arisu, but if the graphics weighed 30MB a page…

Last I've been to Lain, it wasn't *that* bad.

>>2601
Lainchan is a pretty good site but it's getting more and more /pol/ types posting on it unfortunately, and /cyb/, the comfiest board, is no more

Just a random rant…

I don't go back that far, I arrived in late 2009 / early 2010 and stuck to r9k the entire time. The culture on r9k at that time was fine, lots of nice people recommending me good movies and books to read, a lot of interesting threads from people around the world in different occupations and with unique interest. I heard about Wizards for the first time, not realising I would become one a few years later. It was really quite comfy back then for me, and I didn't mind the evolution of the board over time for the most part. If anything, my main problem was with tripfags who were always building cliques which would routinely disrupt normal threads by 2013 or so.

I've read a few threads from archives from earlier 4chan and it doesn't really appeal to me, though I guess I was never a weeaboo. I don't know, something about the way a lot of the threads were based around stories that were presented as if they were real, and plenty of people acted as if they were real, but were obviously fake - I can't stand that aspect, and that was present on r9k when I first got there. Things like 'The Tales of Fionn' just felt like a huge waste of time to me, though some people obviously got a lot out of it.

I just miss the sincere posting. Back in 2011-2013 I was struggling with a lot of depression, on my own without a job due to being bullied out of it, with social anxiety, etc - it was just really nice, it felt like some magical force had brought all these unique and genuine people together, and many of them were going through issues similar to my own, or even if they weren't similar - reading about other people's struggles helped give me perspective, and then there were still lots of fun, interesting threads and stories. It felt like I was getting to pry into all these hidden places, with sushi rolls claiming to work in interesting jobs or have lived through all sorts of unique experiences.

Then a lot of drama took place which I didn't mind at the time and made sense in the context, but by 2016 or so things felt very different, and things went rapidly downhill from there as far as i'm concerned, to the point that today its unrecognisable. It's just filled with irony soaked meme shit, it feels like a wasteland so I've managed to stop going there the past few years more or less. The worst thing is this feeling that all the genuine people have evaporated, I was probably already a little older than the averaPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>2374
Reading this honestly made me feel happy. Im glad you found your own inner peace.

I started browsing back in 2010. I sometimes miss the culture but when I look back in the archives and stuff I don't really know what I'm actually missing. Maybe it's the nostalgia of the dumb edgy humor and being a teenager. But anyway, post GG/2016 chan culture is mostly just pol stuff, and I'm glad I grew out of being a racist teenager and liking that stuff. It feels a lot more freeing now to not just constantly look at negativity on 4chan/8chan anymore and instead to come to places like this.

>>2374
>I feel loss, but then I wonder what exactly I lost.
I have similar feelings. As addicted to it as I was at the time, I can't honestly say it was a good thing to be a part of.

I went on 4chan for around roughly 2004 to 2010, so I got to see the "golden age". And as fun as it was at the time, I'm certain that it fucked me up. Looking back, so much of the internet, not just communities like 4chan but also the internet personalities of the time like Maddox, was all about wallowing in negativity and picking fights just for the sake of it. It was fun to rant about anything and everything nonstop, but immersing myself in hostility for 8 hours a day had to affect my mind. I was enjoying wasting my time on threads whose ephemeral and fast-paced nature made me feel like I was always witnessing something unique. I felt hardcore for being completely unphased by pictures of gore and beecock, which was a dumb thing to be proud of. I was a high schooler when I started going to 4chan, and at that age, you have dumb ideas about what's cool. Thank god most of the dumb shit I said was sushi rollymous.

In an abstract, emotional way, I feel like '00s internet was the most fun I ever had and ever will, and that things will never be better than they were then. And maybe that's true, maybe I'll never look back on anything as fondly as I do those times. But really thinking about it, what did I get out of it? What are the hazy memories of that era of 4chan that I still carry with me, now that the hard drives I saved everything to then are long gone? Dumb memes about bringing back Snacks, firin lazors, and Dial Soap? Hours-long arguments about anime, video games, and the front page redesign? Gore threads and porn dumps? How much would I have truly missed if I had spent less time on 4chan and more time doing anything else?

Still, I'd be lying through my teeth if I said I didn't miss it more than anything. I have a longing that can never be fulfilled for a time when the weird was regular and no one cared who you were. I would gladly trade away the stupid bullshit of the social media era for the stupid bullshit of the era of imageboards and forums. At least it was a freer, less corporate kind of stupidity.

I guess it doesn't matter if it was good or bad, because it's gone now and it's never coming back.

Woah me too friends.
Truly this is the most intimate form of camaraderie.

It felt good

Group poop
Poop soup
Poop in a loop
Snoopin on poopin
Woop there's the poop

im gonna do it

bouta poop, wish me luck