/hell/ - internet death cult

>>4668
I don't think that there's too much to think about that itself, sushi! I'm honestly more curious about why you associate higher income with dominance than the fact that you want a breadwinner wife. In fact, higher income is the only thing that you associate with dominance in your post weirdly enough. Are you sure that you are actually looking for a woman who wears the pants in the relationship? You also seem to be apprehensive about going through with it for some reason, but you don't really explain why. Also, what will waiting longer or getting in better shape really do for you? It just sounds like an excuse to not really put yourself out there.
It sounds to me like you're a pretty normal person, sushi, so I wonder why you're so unconfident about this.

>>4670
You have no proof of this. There are plenty of women who are looking for non-traditional relationships and most certainly will be respectful to their partners. In fact, more women probably find it admirable that a man wants something different out of life than just what tradition dictates. I think there are better places for people like you.

>>4673
Well, this was one example. I'd also like to be dominated in the bedroom, as well as with her friends and mine. Why wait? Well, I'm in university, and I intend to move to a different country, so I was wondering if I can find that kind of woman there.
Sorry I came out indecisive, I really do want to have this relationship and marriage, and I want it to last.

>>4674
These women exist everywhere, but some societies look down upon it, which discourages these women from being open about it. So depending on the country, these women might be harder to find. Also if you don't speak the language of the country, finding any partner is going to be difficult.

>>4675
>some societies look down upon it
Harsh truth I'm afraid, but I won't let it get to me
>speak the language of the country
No worries there, other people have told me I speak their language really well :)

>>4676
Best of luck to you then! And I'm sure you know, but be prepared for a lot of time spent searching, and probably going on dates that end up going nowhere. Such is just the reality of dating. Remember that getting closer to finding a partner is never time wasted. It is simply time spent.

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>>4632
I must scream in solidarity…

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So Lain is really just like a streamer?

>>4615
Vtuber Lain is something i do want and do not want at the same time Xd It would be 100% trash content streamer or something like Muta but a girl and not an Indian

>>4616
only way to do a Lain vtuber right would be if she was full AI, like Neurosama

>>4617
Dead inside Neurosama? Sounds cool

Aesthetics are decided upon influences and natural preferences. Finding the essential parts of these and expressing them is the core work of artists. When asking why is x not popular, the first approach would be to ask, what does x express, what are the essential parts, that outline and describe it? What do people cherish, what is irrelevant, what is adjacent to the appeal?

>>4653
>>4653
>I think it's very rude to write it all off as "psyop" when it's obviously eating away at sushi roll.
It's not rude because it likely is some form of social conditioning. Having sexual desires is incredibly normal and is healthy. What makes jacking off unhealthy is when people constantly surround you telling you you're a failure and gross for doing it, which causes someone to feel guilt for doing something totally natural.

We can even compare this to other aspects of humanity too. There is an obscene amount of women who feel shame in exposing their hairy legs or unshaved pits. They feel this shame because society constantly tells them that having this hair is lazy, poor hygiene, unattractive, etc etc while the reality is this is a completely normal and natural thing that people are made to feel bad for because society has simply decided it is bad.


For thousands of years humanity has made completely normal and healthy things into things that bring us shame and guilt.

So yes, someone could remove this guilt and shame by giving in to social conditioning and ceasing the behavior; but at what cost? The loss of independent autonomy? the false belief that control tactics are correct? perpetuation of religious oppression?
Nah. That's not worth it. It may not be easier, but it is objectively healthier to address the reasons these things make you unhealthy so that you can live your life without guilt in the future.

you will NEVER be able to will away your sexual desire. Choosing to simply adhere to archaic religious doctrine will only cause you to feel guilt for completely normal and healthy feelings, even when you dont act on them. On the other hand, you could learn the source of your guilt, recognize it as a psyop of thousands of years and empower yourself to feel normal about normal human feelings.

>>4657
Society demands conformance in public, social spaces, but that doesn't (shouldn't!) extend into the private lives of people. I think people have trouble appreciating this duality these days.
In other words, if you're not whacking it on the train or something like that there's no need to pile on extra negativity. Even if it might look like it because you only have an external view into past societies, I don't think anyone ever demanded more than that. Public morals don't belong in the private space.

>>4657
You just equated sexual desire with porn itself, they are very differen5 things. My post is considering only porn as a vice. Everyone masturbates and everyone feels desire for other humans. I agree that denying that in yourself is folly (it is also what porn is aimed at, so I get the confusion). But I also think that allowing yourself to continue being addicted to vices when you feel they are making you miserable is folly, regardless of what they are.

>>4659
The discussion started with masturbation, and at that point, porn hadn't even entered the conversation.
>>4658 is actually relevant here. Masturbation becomes a problem when you start doing it when you really shouldn't, like in the train or whatever. But there is a huge movement right now trying to convince you that it is generally bad for you.

>>4660
No, the very first post calling it an issue is about porn:
>>4602
I agree that the total anti masturbation/anti sex movement is flat out wrong and ill advised. I think masturbation without visual aid is actually healthy, and it is rather difficult to do that to the level where it really impedes your life. If anything it is much more similar to actual sex in my personal experience.

Being addicted to porn is still a real thing aside from this. I said it before, it is probably possible to keep it at some kind of reasonable level, but if you find it is eating away at you you probably would feel much better if you just kicked it.

>>4223
The grow ended up living! I don't remember the final dry weight but it was <30g. Can recommend growing your own, it's very rewarding!

The trips I had with it where a bit meh over all, varying from 1.5g to 6g. I should have planned better I think. The first one was the best. I got very emotional over child hood artifacts, I also really liked touching things like the textures of stuff. I was on all fours rubbing the carpet with the dumbest grin on my face. I ended up with my fingers in my mouth with my eyes closed exploring my mouth with visual hallucinations, it was fun.

>>4565
that's amazing!

>>4565
Super jealous, always wanted to grow some, never took the initiative.
Given that it's your first mind altering segments, would just like to say, people have different makeups and well everything. For me, psy-stuff has only ever been an interesting mind-bend with potential of insight, never really something I enjoyed. World of mind altering stuff is HUGE. Though it always shares a something also, IME. It's always not-here.
What I'm trying to get to, I've tried pretty much everything but benzos and MDMA, but weed is the most worthwhile otherwhere you can go, at least in my experience.

Just on the 420chan topic that's been recurring in here
Seems it's reviving "soon"?
It's been up a while and the former ETA wasn't accurate, but it's in the workings
Seems the end goal is for hotwheels to be "chairman of the board" running things, but somebody else running things until then
I think kirtaner and hotwheels were on the same page morality and errything wise, so I cant see any harm in that

I do love sushi and I wouldnt wanna be without it but 420 was my true hood and home growing up so I'm hyped

>>3926
for many drugs are a source of comfort.
for many drugs are a source of relief that "legal" drugs dont provide.
Just because you know a few idiots who dont know how to keep a needle out of their arm for 24 hours doesnt mean there arent people with chronic pain who use ketamine to relieve suicide inducing amounts of pain.
Personally I use LSD and weed to feel relief from anxiety, depression and a lack of emotional connection with the world around me due to the above issues as well as autism.

Just because you've seen people abuse drugs does not mean they cannot be used in healthy ways.
Just because the government tells you drugs are bad doesnt make it true.

>“I’m not dependent on X, I just don’t like going without it”
This is a normal thing. I could say the same thing about countless things you likely enjoy. Soda? Video games? Coffee? tHE FUCKIN' INTERNET? all things that im guessing you dont depend on, but would prefer not to go without.
>“I can stop X any time I want (they can’t)”
The only way to know if this is a true or false statement is to provide them with a reason to stop. A person with a real addiction will not stop, and will do drugs at times where it only hurts them. But quite often the case is rather that you are telling someone to stop something they enjoy and telling them they are addicted and they are trying to tell you otherwise.
>“I’m not myself unless I’ve had X”
As mentioned above, lots of people use drugs to treat mental disabilities. Two years ago I was trapped living with my abusive boyfriend who would threaten me, lock me in my home, lie to my friends, etc. I truly could not be myself without weed. When I was sober the only thing I could think about was how to end my life. Drugs literally saved me. I was not myself when I was sober because when I was sober I wanted nothing more than death.
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Op sounds like the plot for "needy streamer overload."

Sushi, that's just your average Discord friend.

>>3464
>>3467
I have always thought that's what the Sushigirl chat was and is to this day for. Let's not call sushifriends fake, that is mean AND fake!

>>4611
TvTropes has a good article on the False Friends trope.

>>3466
something tells me you're a cis man.

youre showing extremely strong signs of being raised under toxic masculinity. Sharing your emotions or problems is not exclusive to lovers, and helping our friends with their emotional trouble is a normal and healthy thing.

Assuming only a lover is able to do that shows that you may have been raised to believe men shouldnt show their true emotions, which is toxic because it teaches you to hide away your emotions which causes them to amplify and grow, rather than express and work through them

Oh man, sushis. I'm doin' my best out here, but it's not easy. I have good friends, a loving boyfriend, and I'm finally on transparent, good terms with my family. But I feel my anxiety controlling me. It's like there's this deep, dark pit in my chest and I keep slipping into it. It's physically there, yet it's also something I invented in my head? I want to be "succeeding" so bad, and I know I can do it, but this illness keeps telling me, "you're in danger, you're in danger! everything is wrong. run!"

It's only the first day of the new semester of school. I guess I need to find a therapist.

>>4637
It is always going to be there, it seems. Take it one day at a time, count your blessings and enjoy those things you got, you got them because somehow you earned them even if you don't believe it. You are well aware that they may not be there tomorrow, everything is impermanent, life is fluctuating in nature. Nothing is ever perfect, anyway; what you do is enjoy what you can enjoy at the moment, and meanwhile do your best in doing what you have to do where you must so you can have what you need to face the times ahead, whether they are good or bad. Whatever it all turns out to be in the end there's no point worrying about it now. You do you and let things unfold and handle them as gracefully as you can, nothing ever turns out the way we expect it to, we can't control the fuure, and we are never fully prepared. Keep this in mind but don't let it get to you, make it a point to enjoy what you can.
The uneasy feelings will remain, I think it's better to let them in and observe them and soothe them so they don't end up eating you inside.
Take care of those close to you, and let them go when they no longer make you happy. Don't cling to things, if you are blessed now, you can be blessed again.
I believe in you sushi!

Found some pictures of myself from 15 years ago, hard to believe I used to look so young, what happened to that bright-eyed kid? ;_;

>>4638
Thanks for the reply, sushi. Don't have much to say– this was really the perfect response.

I believe in you too :)

>>4638
Well, what a coincidence… he broke up with me today, haha… man. Over a year… agh, I really loved him.

I’ll remember this. “You can be blessed again.” I’m doin’ okay! One day at a time.

>>4639
please ignore this post
/lounge/ is for comfy posting and fun, this poster is lost

>>4640
Not really, no. People addressing the issues covered seriously and effectively would increase the comfiness and long-term fun (i.e., quality of life) of many people who'd avoid having to deal with various health issues that could be one or more of embarrassing, unpleasant, serious, and chronic.

Furthermore, I'd be comfier and have more fun if I had a greater pool of potential fap material (I wrote about an aesthetic anus fetish for a reason), but that doesn't really matter; it's quite insignificant by comparison.

Perhaps addressing the matters documented would even be comfy and fun for some. They won't know until they try, right?

Wow, so you still exist.

>>4642
nolifes do what nolifes do :/

>>4639
Long time no see, did that date go well? Are you on vacation still? As a side note, for such topics we have /hell/, since there are indeed people who do not give a crap and do not wish to see your work. :P

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