/hell/ - internet death cult

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Uwa! >w<

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love is just another word for revenge

I've had online friends I get along with and understand, but it never eases the loneliness. Meanwhile I've tried to go out to meet people IRL who are supposed to be like me and either they aren't really or they just don't want to put effort into being friends and retreat further. Maybe I'm just not made to not be alone.

i talked with one, we ended up meeting eachother and just sitting next to eachother in the woods making jokes it was nice while it lasted he lives so far and he has a life. He had talked with so many girls before me he had so many girlfriends he couldnt even name them all. we have stopped talking as he just wants to only talk about how much in love he is with me and not anything else, it gets boring i want to talk about gamballing or game and repairing phones

>>5112
chad steals my sushigirl again

>>4649
i think you are talking nonsense

on the subject of sharing though, i suppose there are limits on what should be shared at least
also i am sorta opposed to using people for venting because… it turns into a habit
imagine that all you do is complain, and the other person cannot even help with the issues, and they like you so they want to help, how would that make them feel?
>show their true emotions
some emotions really shouldnt be shown perhaps, like, it's better to control and vent them some other way, like with redirection. and it's not like hiding emotions really works that well, you will show them in your voice and body language most likely, but your ability for self-control matters and is a positive trait. emotions come and go, but human relationships stay - though i suppose one could use others as emotional dumpsters if the others ultimately do not matter that much in one's life. it's not even about being selfish, more like about picking who matters

i suppose the take about emotional suppression not being a good way to deal is valid, but otherwise i cannot get behind it

I had a similar situation except i'm a guy and I met a girl off 4chud, we got along pretty well and i ended hanging out with her and even became close with some of her friends, but turns out she didn't really like me back romantically

We still are cool but I can't help but have feelings for her in the back of my mind

i like that you saged your new thread, its the thought that counts. what are you so angry about, friend?

what???

Moved to >>>/superhell/588.

I don't outright want kids but I don't mind them all that much (especially older ones). I don't really expect to ever get married either but if someone does interest me I'd have to be clear upfront that I don't want kids. I do like to teach and mentor though and of course watching someone grow is incredibly fulfilling so if I ever do develop that paternal instinct I'll probably just adopt or volunteer with the foster system or something. I'm almost 30 and never really felt interested in kids though so I'm not sure if that feeling will ever come. Also, while I think I'd be a decent parent if push came to shove, I struggle to take care of myself sometimes and it doesn't seem fair to inflict that on an innocent child, whether or not I "rise to the occasion" as the young parents I know have said they've had to do.

Regarding the philosophical questions: to me it seems like a fundamentally selfish act to create someone in my own image without their consent and force them into a life whose worth they won't have the mental faculties to evaluate until they're old enough to be too emotionally invested for impartiality. And in a utilitarian sense it just doesn't seem to be in their best interest given the potential for suffering, and especially recursive suffering considering their own possible children. That's just my personal ethical standard for making people that's too high to ever meet though, hence the decision to adopt or foster if I feel the urge. In any case, I don't see any duty to continue the species or nation or whatever, except for maybe a collective social imperative to make life as pleasant as possible for the people who already exist, every single one of them having been tossed into existence without being consulted beforehand. That said though, I don't think it's reasonable to hold everybody else to a standard I came to based on personal experience so I don't begrudge other people having kids. Sex is a physical compulsion which is connected (though thankfully no longer inextricably) to fertility, and people have all kinds of diverse motivations and value judgements based on their own rich lives which I can never be privy to, so the decision whether or not to have kids is something I don't think I have much right to judge people for, as long as there's no intentional or serious harm done to the children.

>>5034
I don't have kids. But I do want a successor for myself and I do want my parents to have grandchildren, so I'll try working towards it when I have the means to support the future family. Besides, I like loli. So there is this motivation for me as well.

> yet most people seem to just go with the flow
Working an 8-5 doesn't let you have much time and energy to go against it. So it's no wonder if the kid learns from school, the classmates and the internet more so than from you.
> Shaping the life of another human being sounds incredibly difficult
I think it depends on what you want to shape it into and the means you're willing to subject your children to.

If you're too rough and restrictive, the kid may recognize you as an enemy for the rest of their life and snap into a life of decadence the moment they're out of your control. There has to be a right balance between fun and building skills/conditioning required for surviving this world happily/painlessly. Ideally, you should be an ally to each other. A family.

> Isn't it selfish to have kids?
I think it is, but I don't think it's wrong.

>>5126
> worth they won't have the mental faculties to evaluate
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>>5127
The problem isn't really deciding to quit living or being scared of dying. The problem is one: that the sensations of our flesh prisons influence our opinions in the way you already described, and two: that whether or not life is worth living at all is a judgement that it's only really the right of the individual living the life to make (this is without considering the obligations to one another we pick up over the course of our lives, the biggest one being of course to any children we create). We all have the built-in inability to make an unbiased judgement of whether or not the life we will have will be worth living, considering the potential suffering we will all experience and inflict. I don't really subscribe to mind-body dualism so I'm really only saying the whole flesh prison thing kind of jokingly but it's not a problem of deciding to die later but one of not being allowed to choose whether to exist at all. It's just an unfair (in my opinion) circumstance, and nobody's fault. I'm just not comfortable doing that to somebody, especially someone I expect I would love so dearly as my own child. Some people are comfortable with that though and think they can make up for it with the life they can provide to their child, or have a different perspective entirely, and that's fine. But it really has less to do with suicide than with self-awareness. It's existential.

I'm actually pretty strongly against suicide in most cases, barring the usual stuff like extreme pain and terminal illness. I think our lives belong only to us and are ours to do what we want with (unless we created more people, thereby obligating ourselves to our offspring), but we're already here and we know the end isn't so far away so while there's a chance of enjoying our time and finding meaning we might as well keep trying to.

Anecdotally it seems to me that people who are mostly happy see existential questions as indicative of depression or some other mental illness. I used to kind of get frustrated when people drew that connection instead of directly engaging with the logic, but now I actually sort of like seeing that response since it appears to indicate that they are in general satisfied with life, and it feels good to see happy people.

Off-topic: when did pixiv start taking webp? I think that's the first _p0.webp I've noticed.

>>5128
Perhaps, it is then better to leave it for the child to decide if you deciding for them on whether they should come into being was fair or not? Would you give such a loophole a thought? Somehow (and at least right now) I'd really want to convince (you) to procreate. A selfish wish of mine. >>>/lounge/15896. But you do you.

So many "no" replies… It's as if there is some metaphysical power that wants us to die out. Powers from beyond may (not) exist, but are there "us" to speak of? Is there something that people who have posted here in this thread share that validates putting them into a group? Otaku culture? But isn't that too loose a definition? And if so, do the disagreements and differences of sushichan posters not outweigh what similarities they have? Ehh~

> Off-topic: when did pixiv start taking webp?
In my file manager, I have a hotkey bound to a script that turns PNGs into lossless WebP. I once thought of writing a daemon that would do the conversions automatically upon downloading a file or inserting a conversion option into GtkFileChooserDialog, but it seems that I don't really want to.

>>5127
>Besides, I like loli. So there is this motivation for me as well.
in my book that means you shouldn't have kids. this is insanely creepy.

I already tried LSA, it's pretty fun.

total vtuber death

>>5102
The cold is bearable so long as you have the resources to weather through it. Don't get me wrong I'm a winter person too but if I didn't have a nice place (or comfy place like you people would say) or "many layers" of clothes I don't think I'd enjoy it as much.

I personally prefer cold weather over warm weather.
If its a 90 degree day out you can only strip off so much before it becomes socially unacceptable.

>>5100
It's the opposite in terms of population where I live because of the warm climate. But I still hate summer, if it was cloudy and rainy long enough it'd be fine though
>>5104
I think if I acted like a california roll it would be unacceptable yet not surprising

I live in a muggy forest city, but I have a preference towards colder weather. So I welcome winter, just because I can turn off the constant AC. I keep my apartment a steady 15C.

california roll

OP, seems like Psycho-Cybernetics is a book for you.

You just need more practice

This didn't need it's own thread, you're not contributing anything.

>>5084
do we have like a finite amount of new threads?
>>5083
pretty much this

My theory is that there is no "intrinsic" personality but that it only exists in the context of who you are around (or no one of that is the case). So is it really an issue? Only if you feel like you are hiding something, but otherwise I wouldn't stress about it!

Things don't really get better quantitatively. Just a little less worse.

It is important to embrace aloneness.
In aloneness one finds what is lacking in them.
In aloneness one also finds what they can draw from themselves.
In longing for a simple trailing hand along my shoulders, slim arms wrapped around my waist, a head upon my chest, murmuring sweetly, and softly to me, I find that I identify not a need but a lack, a want not only in the sense of a desire, but in what is wanting in me. And I find pain. But is this touch which simmers, which tells me "i love you" or "I want you" something that I need for what I am, for what I am meant to be? A name is that which is intimately connected to the meaning of a being, the purpose, the logos to the telos. And if my name, my little logos, is to be become an immortal name, the essential and eternal expression of itself in the cosmic order, is this beloved, this other necessary? Are the love of a father, strong and benevolent, of a mother, sweet, receiving and unconditional, of a lover, taking of yourself, accepting your love, and returning it of herself, of a friend, ever accepting, sharpening, drawing you further to your goal, or of any other love of another person necessary?
Is it necessary to make my name an eternal name, my self a divine self.
It is the central truth of the Christian religion, that God became man so that man could become god, and that indeed, men can become gods, serving the Maker of Heaven and Earth. This is what it means to have an immortal name. This is what glory is, to become a god, to become an expression of an eternal idea. And for so long, for so very long, I have longed not for this, but merely, to be human, to be loved by a beloved, to be accepted as a man among men, a human among humans. And the lesson of my aloneness is that this is not necessary for the eternal idea of what I was made to be. Beneficial? Yes. Good? Yes. Life-affirming, a blessing? All yes. But not necessary. Not the purpose.
I can be alone, unloved, unaccepted, untouched, and I am meant to be for a season, or perhaps for longer than a season.

I used too care about everything a lot, but over time I got desensitized to both positive and negative emotions.
Staying up all night with the sinking feeling that comes with the understanding that you ate slowly withering away slowly turns you into a nihilist.
I still remember the night when I curled up in bed and prepared for my daily existential crisis, only to find that I felt nothing.
It honestly was a relief.
The exception to this is a constant tang of nostalgia and anemoia for simpler times.

there's a nice sciencey youtuber that I watch sometimes but in her last video i started having lewd thoughts about her and I feel bad because I haven't been coomer brained like this in 5+ years and i always hated being coomer when i was in my teens and early 20s.
i always thought she was pretty but this is different, it's very primitive and lecherous. i hate it and i hate myself for falling back into this shit.

I'm getting stressed while preparing for a competition a few months out… I don't know how I can improve to become better and I fear like there is not enough time. Everyone around me improves faster than I do, and I have been in the same place. Is it time to call it quits or keep pushing on? Who knows

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i hate this genre of post-ironic posting.

Is she fine with her picture being posted on an sushirollymous ib?

>>5095
She is fine with it

>>5095
She is fine with it
What do you think about her??