I was diagnosed with bipolarity after entering the mania phase ( the hiperactive delusional stage ) for the first time in my life. I was hyped about my hobbies and college and with energy to organize myself a lot and take care of the house, so much i couldn't sleep and just kept going doing stuff until i could sleep few hours and repeat. Then i took risperidone, an antipsychotic, and slowed down but felt like shit for days, vague unpleasant feeling of inquietation. Currently went all the way to the depressive stage, weed makes it way easier to deal, but gf doesn't accept it at all and im just feeling shitty all the time. Also gonna try lsd for the first time with some friends soon.>>2315
I know there are some ways to find your patron god, but i didn't yet. I was doing small rituals for any of the gods that seemed fit for the situation and trying to follow the calendar. Good mentions are p
Phantasos and Pasithea, did a ritual for Pasithea to get higher on weed and it worked. I used to not dream anymore, did a ritual for Phantasos and dreamed again on the same night and kept dreaming after. Both were the most fun.