I found out long ago~
it's a long way down to holiday road
I've been thinking about how much music affects my mental state. I think I should cut down on the amount of time I spend listening (which is not that much compared to hardcore music nerds but still). When I listen to music I'm basically in another world which is very bad for concentration and it also makes real life seem boring and depressing once I'm done listening, I think I should be content with myself in the real world without music. I was surprised to read most people not agreeing that too much music can have a negative impact, I think most people don't pay attention and just use it as a background noise which is sometimes fine if I'm doing some repetitive task and I'm already in the flow but most of the time it's just distracting me because I love it too much to play it in the background. I think I should spend more time just doing nothing… Just staring across the room, I don't need to have an external stimuli occupying my brain 24/7.
I used to be a constant listener, to the point of quitting jobs if they banned earbuds. Feels like I've burnt myself out of music– this started 3-4 years ago. I used to meticulously micromanage playlists and continuously add newly acquired mp3s to my phone and haven't even bothered in the year. The gym was the last bastion I *needed* to play music, and now that's not even necessary- I often just leave my earbuds in with nothing playing so nobody will come talk to me. I've seriously thought about just putting hour long white/brown noise on my device for the gym so I don't have to hear it's playlist.
Idk man, nothing hits me like it used to anymore.
I sometimes forget to listen to music and I'll be doing something and feeling anxious and then I remember… hey why aren't I listening to anything to vibe to? It's kinda weird.
I've never thought of listening to music nearly all my waking hours as a problem, it seems more like a solution….. huh…
That sounds depressing I felt like that when I was 17, I was just bored of all music but then I found new genres that I've been listening to since then and I've never been more excited about music, I wonder if I'll ever reach the point where I'm completely bored with music>>14416
It's different for everyone. I think I'm a maladaptive daydreamer and music is the number one trigger, sometimes I think I'm going to listen to 1 song but I end up queueing 20 more songs and I just walk around my house listening for hours and can't focus on anything else.
I used to be a constant listener too but over time I've found myself going into phases where I don't feel like listening to music. Sometimes these phases last a few weeks, sometimes months, but eventually I'll get the urge to listen to an album and everything goes back to how it was before. My current phase has lasted most of this year though, maybe I'm burning out too.
I want to study celestial mechanics and astrophysics, non-euclidean geometry and computer drawing, and binary analysis. All of them deep subjects and I have limited time and mental bandwidth. So I have to stick to one and ignore the rest, however alluring they might be.
We're NOT cringe
Mods ban this retard
I have a confession:
I am cringe, but I am happy
After my last relationship, I decided to just do whatever I want all the time. I now openly enjoy idol culture and pulpy novels. My coworkers think I'm weirder than I was before, but I'm certainly having a better time being cringe.
>got up at like 5pm because i was basically addicted to the feeling of a lie in>depressed all day and had no energy to talk to people>feel better and want to socialise but it's 3am
shoulda taken my fuckin melatonin>>14426
i just started university now and the whole move has made me at least twice as self-conscious as i was during the summer
i've tried interacting with the anime society here but they're just kinda cringe and not really relatable to me even though i like anime>>14419
i didn't start listening to albums til i got into fantano (yes i know lmao) at 16, and now music has become this incredibly vast ocean to me that i couldn't even begin to fully explore or reach the bottom of
if there's one thing i don't like about moving to uni, it's that i'm now missing out on the very active music scene in my home city and the friends i have there
not a single person i've met so far has really been interested enough in music for me to have a meaningful conversation about it with, and i'm basically just stuck in a crowd of neurotypicals who i struggle to connect with
too late, i don't really think straight in the morning and don't have a will to get up if i have no daily commitments
One of my co workers used to say "the grass is brown everywhere". I really miss not having to go anywhere or talk to anyone.
There's not any romance, but it is quite dense with little to no dialog. Be prepared to be a bit confused on the first read. It's still awesome though.
I don't even know how humans operate anymore. I go out and interface with others through social protocols, eg going to the store and such. But I truly don't know how people think or what they care about.
What's the problem that you have with talking to online friends? They pull you into spending too much time online?
I don't know if I really agree with that, but I do get the sentiment. I did think that living alone would be awesome, and truth is, it is great in all the ways I expected it would be. It's quiet when I record, I don't have to clean up other people's messes, I don't have to deal with other people inviting in strangers, and I can go anywhere I want in here. But I would still say that I miss roommates.>>14454
I don't think my social skills have tanked THAT far, but I did go to the store a few days ago, and when someone complimented my hoodie, I just said "thanks" with no eye contact. Realized that was a bit rude after I left the store. I can still carry on conversations fine at work with people I know, but I can't meet new people as easily as I used to. When I go to bars, I have trouble meeting new people, and conversations end kind of awkwardly. I guess it isn't terrible, but I just find it weird for myself since I used to be a very social person.
Yeah basically. I tried to minimize the time I spend with them but it's very hard, once we start talking about something it may continue for hours and I end up spending half of my day with them. If I had IRL friends I don't think I would be as compelled to spend that much time with online friends.
I feel like writing and saying something about my state, but I don't know what. I'm really just making time while something downloads. I could open up emacs and write there as if a diary but that never works and I just give up. I feel like throwing a few words out to the wild at least makes them somewhat significant. I kinda hope nobody reads this because it's cringy train-of-thought dumping.
I am kinda bored and aimless today. It's sunday, after all, but I DO have things to do. But I don't feel like doing much of it. I have this conflict inside me where I should be doing something meaningful, but at the same time I just want to chill and enjoy the nice weather. But the ADHD simply won't allow me to just lay back and chill.
I think I'm finally getting a hang of my life. I feel like I've felt every single emotion and been in every possible state of mind, so much so that when I "get" depressed it doesn't affect me anymore, I'm not bummed out if I feel like complete shit, instead I go "oh it's one of those" because I've been through it a million times now and I know it doesn't last. So, I'm able to separate myself from whatever I'm feeling and because of this I don't really get sad anymore. Before this, when something bad happened I would be depressed for days listening to sad music and maladaptive daydreaming but now I just recognize my situation whatever it may be and keep on doing whatever I need to do without dwelling on it. And after a few days everything is back to normal.
I'm in the same situation right now. I have all the same mood problems I did last year, but they feel a lot less important now. Soon I hope to start being able to do more social activities and hobbies again.
I may be getting my first job next week
I'm scared of saying goodbye to NEEThood, but my parents won't live forever.
I listened to that song in like, 2013/2014, but with Katawa Shoujo characters. From then on, when I was a cashier for about five years, I made SURE to hand the coins first when giving back change. This song changed me, man.
Wishing you luck sushi, keep on struggling even if it feels rough.
Giving up will always feel rougher in the end, good to keep in mind.
lol i saw this in my yt recommended shortly after, convinced me to torrent the game
i'll read it whenever, i'm doing umineko and some higurashi side-content rn but that doesn't necessarily mean i won't get around to it
the idea of a high school romance set in a special needs school is kind of close to home for me
I've been severely and cripplingly depressed for a long time now, such that I've barely been able to function for the last few years. I can't even say I'm out of it now, just making progress from where I was, when I just wanted to completely disappear. I was even careful not to post often sushi rollymously just in case someone recognized me.
This post is me practicing letting myself out of my 'cage', so to say.
I made a mistake installing TikTok as 24 year old boomer
This shit DESTROYS your attention span
>>14534>24 year old boomer
u wot m8
Most of the userbase there seems to be 8-10 years younger than me
abort!! uninstall >_<
What kind of sick dogs do you have? The dogs I have have nice smelling paws as well as a nice smell on their coat.
To be fair I don't have dogs myself, just friends with dogs I visit sometimes. And to me it didn't actually smell bad, just kind of like musty forest floor-ish.
I've had people comment before that I smell like a wet dog though.
I use it to watch videos of nature, cool visual stuff, cute animals and animals eating each other. It's fun and the recommendation algorithm is superpowerful, that's why the average session length on Tiktok sits at around 11 minutes.
However sometimes there are some live previews which show random stuff. It seems to not be based at all on what I previously watched, so I get some weird stuff on it from time to time.
I mostly use it to upload silly posts with images i collected thru the years.
But still, it's not like those are real interactions anyway.
people are dogs on the leashes of their minds, sniffing around with intellect in hope to find the pillar someone with a longer leash pissed on
i tried it and looked at many things but all the content is so boring.. i heard people say there's something for everyone on TikTok but i didn't find anything interesting
I tried tiktok once, well, "tried", I actually deleted it right away when I realized it had the same "slot machine" model I had dreaded so much in facebook.
Recently (a couple years ago?) I fo8nd out fb has vides now. And even though I didn't use it, the person next to me did for some time each day and I could feel my IQ lowering just from hearing the stuff they had there.
I suspect tiktok is pretty much the same crap, only for kids whereas tacebook is forthe elderly.
searched for>lamp wings anime>lamp wings clothes character>lamp wings clothes character military
and got nothing.
It's not from an animu
Are you talking to me?
I missed Halloween. What the heck. I was supposed to sleep for 30 minutes and wake up at 6 PM, but ended up waking up at 9 PM. Halloween only lasts for three hours max. I didn't even remember it was Halloween either. At least I got in five spooky movies this month.
Got like half the number of trick-or-treaters as last year, now I'm going to eat myself sick on all the extra candy because I have no self control
I bought a stupid amount of candy to give out to kids, put the porch light on, and not a single one came by. I ended up just gorging myself and getting sick.
…why am I mad about not getting to hand out candy? I feel like it might be a bit creepy that I care this much. Is that weird?
"disappointment of expectations" or something? I dunno, but whenever I go through the trouble of preparing something it feels bad if it doesn't happen.
One of the stalls that greets customers at the entrance into USJ17's Restoran Weng Soon Jaya is this Hor Fun stall. The Hor Fun stall offers chicken slice Hor Fun and Prawn Wanton Hor Fun, and has been around since the new tenant took over Weng Soon Jaya a few years ago. Tried the chicken hor fun when the stall initially started its operations at the Kopitiam.
This may be silly, but I'm looking forward to Tim Burton's upcoming Wednesday. I've always had a crush on the character, and the actress doing her is kinda cute.
But I think it's likely that it's going to be shit, both statistically and because Burton has long failed to make anything interesting. I can only hope it will be passable and perhaps enjoy it as light entertainment.
I'm sorry to hear that. Hang in there sushi.
I feel so fucking alone.
My mother was the only one that truly truly truly cared about me.
Now she's gone, my family is going to go down the drain without her. No one will save me now from whatever may happen now, it's all in my own from here on out
sorry for your loss ;_;
My sincere condolences, sushi.
I fear that day when it happenes to me, because my mother is the only one that cares and listens to me too. I wish I could tell you something uplifting, but I honestly don't know what.
Love your mothers, sushis.
Mine died a few months ago. Hospital negligence. I want to sue but dont have the money
Try pro-bono lawyers
Checking out this place for the first time in 4 years. I think I'll stick around.
I have wasps build nests around my house all the time. They have never ever stinged me without provocation. Bees have, but not wasps.
Still, my wyf always makes me take down their nests. I regret showing her a particularly HUGE nest in a nearby tree. She made me take it down even though they were bothering nobody.
Idk why wamyn hate bugs so much.
I do usually knock down their nests if they try to build them attached to my house, but I leave them alone if they stick to the trees.
Yea, at least I should've taken a picture. I just don't have that habit.
Here's a bug I found the other day.
You're all kinda sush
sugoi bug it's really shiny, quite pretty!
I noticed how reliant I have become on Google. I don't even think about trying to solve the problem myself, even if the solution is right next to my cursor, my first instinct is to google it.
There are moments where words fail.
Not in a permanent sense of course. It's just a temporary puzzlement as to what's going on.
I literally haven't performed a google search since 2015. It's not hard to quit using it altogether.
I think I just became lazy.
I'm feeling so bad right now. I just started working and things have been going well and I convinced myself that I can actually be normal and function in society but no, my boss has to organize a secret santa and I have to participate because we are a small team and I'm the new guy and it would be weird if I didn't. I was seriously considering suicide this morning when I got the email because I just got reminded that I'm forcing myself into the world where I don't belong. I don't even know this person very well and I'm supposed to buy him a gift and I don't even know where he lives so am I supposed to ask him? My identity is supposed to be a secret. I've never wrapped a gift and I don't even know where to buy this stuff I'm going to have to walk around the city tomorrow to find stores… It's not that bad I think I can handle this but this is just the beginning, I'm going to have to do more normal social stuff as time goes on. I don't understand why I can't just do the work and not interact with coworkers outside work related stuff, I don't want to be "friends" with any of those people.
Buy a nice box of chocolates or something and bring them to work with you. I doubt they expect you to send it to your recipient, there'll probably be a handover. I did a secret santa in my first year at my job and that's what I did, it went fine.
We work remote and meet in person every few weeks on Saturday, the secret santa location says "remote" and its due next Thursday and there are no more details except for the spending limit. So I think I'm supposed to send it to him.>I doubt they expect you to send it to your recipient
Why do you think that? Is it usually done in person?
I was going off my own experiences. I don't work from home and assumed it was the case with you too.
I contacted them and it's apparently in person. Now I have to figure out how to wrap a mug. Or maybe I should go with a box of chocolates.
Easiest to put it in a box if you have one of a reasonable size, or to make a box out of cardboard from food packaging or something.
I want to stop lurking imageboards, but then I realized.
Most other places for cooking don't seem that interesting, I thought of installing reddit for once, but people don't truly interact there, they just fish for points.
Where should I go to talk about cooking related things?
I don't think I can handle this I'm actually thinking about quitting and working minimum wage. I don't know how I convinced myself that I could be a normal person that was dumb.
Take a deep breath and relax, you're just handing over a present. You're going to feel self-conscious and judge yourself harshly over random little things but it's going to be alright. No one cares if you're an awkward weirdo as long as you're not a rude weirdo, you don't have to become a normal person just be a nice person.
I'm an anxiety-riddled dropout working with highly educated professionals and they all treat me respectfully. I've even somehow made a friend. Maybe I just got lucky but "normal people" aren't as scary as the internet tells us.
Updated my webpage, elaborating on a post made in a previous thread, ( >>14396
Yes, I have long forgotten how to link replies from different threads.
Merry Christmas everyone! Despite not having a single present this year. I'm excited for another to open their gifts for the very first time. I'm sure it'll bring a tear to my eye.
Wish you all have a very cozy holiday with your loved ones. And lots of GIFTS!
Updated my webpage with a morbid account of my year.
But, and most importantly, merry christmas to everyone.
Of the chans I visit it is strange to plant threads that become staples in its culture even though I no longer post.>>14773
I noticed you replied to a question of mine.
In the end, I don't think it's worth maintaining an online persona.
Good luck with the rest of your year.
I listened to this for Christmas as well.
I was going through a very old stack of CDs in my closet today and I found a burned CD with just the words 'The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya' on it in my handwriting, although I don't remember ever burning or playing such a CD. Even though I was listening to it the other day, there was still something refreshing and nostalgic about hearing "God Knows" coming out of my CD player's speakers when I put it on. It also had "Lost My Music", various songs from Haruhi's, Yuki's and Mikuru's character albums, and not surprisingly, "Hare Hare Yukai" and "Bouken Desho Desho?". Pretty good selection, but I guess it's hard to miss with Haruhi music.
Maybe it's just nostalgia, but there's a certain something about CDs that I miss. Like, finding an old mix CD and playing it without having any idea what's on it, making a mix CD for your friends (or crush), the little booklet with lyrics and sometimes other interesting information, or just being able to listen to music without being connected to the internet/your computer.
before my dad got a car with a proper aux, we used to burn itunes files to cds (such as the first album i ever listened to, twenty one pilots's blurryface) - he still uses the same 16-20 or something year old mac to store all his music, hooked to a massive aux and speaker setup in the living room
i think the thing with cds is more just having the kindness and the courage to share things with your friends, and the fortune of having them there and willing to connecting with the things you love
and that's it - nobody has the time once you're all grown up
I love you too, Yuzuko.
somoene should create a website where people just can upload whatever they want with no context whatsoever
imagine an imageboard but no threads, no fixed topic, no rules besides the obvious ones, and people just being able to post that
that would be cool, just disorganized posts with no proper order being dumped there
sounds like you could only ever mind-dump and never get replies, i'm not sure who it would appeal to
even shitposting would lose its meaning if there's no thread to derail
regardless, i would like to see it
That just sounds like a liveboard or a chatroom to me.
you are amazing roll
Too high level for me, I had to look up the names and then have a sensible chuckle
I still make playlists to burn on CDs or just play off the computer directly. I usually put together mixes of my favorite anisongs from the past 2-4 seasons to listen to them in the car.
Prefer this over pulling up the whole library, feels like I'm constantly hitting the "next" button when doing that.
Wow! Looks delicious!
I think I was just wholly loved, unabashedly, without external expectation or want, for the first time in my life. Someone loved me on the merit of who I am and nothing more. They didn't need to, but they did.
What I felt wasn't exactly joy, it was more of a silent, sincere gratefulness and comfort. I think that's an important part of the human experience. I'm so thankful.
btw this is fucking sick
Part of me wants to study math.
Part of my wants to study biology.
I could in principle do both, but I'm bad at splitting my attention like that.
Idk what to do about this.
Study Mathematical Biology.
Well, my interests in each discipline do not really overlap much, so mathematical biology hardly covers either. Thank you for the suggestion, though.
My play would be to study biology, then expand your math knowledge on the side. I feel like it’s easier for math to strengthen Biology than the other way around… you can have fun extra math projects on the side unrelated to bio but it might still make your life easier in the bio world if you put your math skills to use there.
Sex with men while being a man is something I could only consider a punishment.
I would only do it to someone who would ultimately despises it and deserves it, as screwed up as it is
Okay, I will get the lube. I will most likely be tight down there, I never had anything up there.
You've had plenty up there.
You poop, don't you?
Yeah, but that goes out and not in.
Jokes on you sushi, you never did any harm to me.
Thus, you won't get my punishment
That's nice. Because I would rather like some comforting female arms to hug me. Either a kind mommy or a tomboy.
Tomboys are some of God's finest creatures.
no females here bud, just sushi
I have never met one in real life and I am starting to doubt that they exist.>>14963
Second fact, the deciding factor if tomboy or not is the character, not the looks.>>14964
Well some posts on sushi seem to be made by females, but on the Internet everybody can claim everything.
go to the source. I am attracted to goth girls, I find them at metal concerts. To find tomboys, go to _ _ _ _ _ _?
I hope you find someone.
In kind of the same situation myself, been living alone for years now. Although I don't have trouble sleeping; it's trouble waking up, just want to return to the dream.
Grew up in a family of all tomboys, can confirm they exist, but anime makes them look a lot different from reality. What a shocker, anime tropes are exaggerated from reality.>>14966
In my experience, the source for tomboys is skater/stoner culture. Not a stoner myself, but most of the tomboys I've met are through my sisters and skater culture. They all smoke weed, so I hope that's not a deal-breaker for you. A lot of redneck girls are also tomboys if you can put up with the redneck part.
Anime tropes never depict reality. As you said they exaggerate to the extreme and also simplify. Sometimes they even come up with something out of thin air that has no foundation in real life at all. This is also why I never get tired of saying shit like short hair not equals tomboy.
So, uh, to the important matter. I would like to order one sister of yours. I don't live in Murrica so I guess asking how to get into skater and stoner circels is futile. Starting bid at 100'000 Euros.
idk I just want a partner who will play video games and go hiking with me, who is forwards with their emotions cuz I'm not very good socially, and not judge me for being a bit of a weirdo
Yeah definitely agree on the point that short hair =/= tomboy. All my sisters have long hair (and as for your mail-order request, sorry, but they're all taken). As for skater/stoner culture, depending on which Euro country you live in, there's probably a stoner culture there too.
Other places to find tomboys is through outdoor sports/activities, so maybe try joining a sports club or a hiking group. But like I mentioned, tomboys in real life are just as diverse as any other demographic, so you can find them in any hobby. I met my first tomboy GF through FGC locals (we broke up, but we're still on good terms). Just be forward and friendly with everyone you meet, and you might come across the right girl some day. People are your best resource, so make friends, and make friends with your friends' friends.
Well then 100'000 euros for your ex. Or… Is your mom single?
Ugh, my butt hair is getting tangled in itself again. Looks like I need to put myself in danger and shave it. Pray for me sushis so I do not bleed!
If you think everyone else is the asshole…
Let's not accuse each other here. I think we can all agree that imageboards tend to attract the not so savory crowd.
I hate the summer 3:<
I used my nose hair trimmer with a guard instead of scissors. I'm reaching new lows.
Now over two weeks in
I wavered for a bit but that's over now
I'm gonna stop counting days soon cause it seems silly, there's no way I'm going back
Your art looks super familiar! I really like the way you adjusted the colors of the ‘paper cutouts’ to suit the photographs.
My cat gave birth to 3 kittens yesterday. I'm very happy.
If I kissu you will you get out faster?
I may just make out with you and stay in bed even longer
And maybe do some kinky things as well
*mwah* ohayo, sushi-chan. Stop being silly and get up already
please tell me you're 2D
if you're 3D you have to tell me, that's how it works
i know my rights
That sushi is mine, faker!
I'm 3D. And available :)>>15025
Kyaa! Sushis fighting over me. I've never been this popular!!
Sorry, I don't do online friends that well. If you're expecting me to be female… let's say you got your hopes too high m8 ;^)
But I can give you another kissu. Mwah>>15029
If you view me through a camera, I'll appear 2D!
I'm sorry for teasing you sushi ;(
u've shown me that kindness is nothing but a façade
now u gonna pai atatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatata
R u a qt boy or more like a hairy old man?
asking for a friend.
A goblin. I look like a goblin.
How much exp do you give? Asking for a friend.
Only if you insist>>15039
I don't have much experience ;)
Wtf goblins are waifu material now
I would a cute goblin, wouldn't you?
My life just isn't fair sushi.
Now, I am no weeaboo, hell im surprised I even like Rozen Maiden Desu~I've only been watching since like Friday.
The thing is, I think I have fallen in love.
I've seen suiseiseki on sushi for ever, but I never really paid attention to her Desu~After watching the anime I realize there will never be a girl like suiseiseki Desu~This is worse than that guy who likes T-Rex's, I can see porn of suiseiseki, but she was or never will be real.
Every time I think about her I get butterflies in my stomach, I start to turn read and giggly, for the past two days I've done nothing but think about her, If I had to murder my sister in the slowest way possible to be able to make Suiseiseki real, then I would do it in a heart beat Desu~Every night the last thing I think of is Suiseiseki, every morning the first thing I think about it Suiseiseki Desu~My only chance at having her is finding a Christmas-themed Heterochromic, Brunette, dwarf wearing 1800's clothes Desu~It wouldn't be Suiseiseki though Desu~Today a friend of mine, a girl ill have you know, Asked me to be her boyfriend, I sobbed and told her my story Desu~She didn't speak a word, just sat there kind of depressed looking Desu~But I dont care about her, I care about suiseiseki Desu~Nothing appeals to me any more because it isnt her, I haven't eaten, slept, or played my mmorpg's Desu~I just sit here thinking about suiseiseki Desu~I want to be locked in a room, with just a picture of Suiseiseki forever Desu~This way we can be together.
So if you think your life sucks, think of me, sushi.
Is this some pasta?
It would make great pasta if it's not.
What if you swap genders with your gf(in magic world, not surgery)?>>14967
But you already have someone really close to you:
"In this life, I am guaranteed to have at least one friend.
So long as I am true to myself, then I can be true to everyone"
What do you love, sushi? What makes you happy?
It is hard as shit, I just know nobody really cares about me, so I dunno why I still bother with it.
The withdrawal is tuff
>>15063>What if you swap genders with your gf
That implies I'd ever have a gf, which will never happen>In this life, I am guaranteed to have at least one friend. So long as I am true to myself, then I can be true to everyone
Well, I was true to myself, and I just ruined it all. Who I thought was a friend was just a narcissist that disposed me as soon as I became useless to him. I screwed up with a girl, and because I was so rude to her I felt bad about it and told him why I felt like shit, so he decides to ask me for her contact.
Foolishly I do, this girl lived in the same country as me which was already an uncommon thing to happen. Was crazy nice too. Never had a relationship before either because she was raped and thus traumatized but because I was a complete lunatic back then I was a piece of shit to her.
Thanks to me these two are FUCKING
like crazy and I almost threw myself to a train because of how much of a used condom I felt like. I gotta work on a website but these two pieces of shit intrude my mind whenever I gotta do something for it, like learning how to work with something or try to fix something.
Some fucker that has 5 years less than me has the guts to pull a complete façade on me, has the money to cross the atlantic, and the absolute balls to ask me if he can spend one night in my house so that he can bounce the bed with her later.
I deleted my discord accounts after this.>What do you love, sushi? What makes you happy?
Nothing makes me happy. Just endless void and limbo, then rot and maggots 'til i decompose. When I was young I feared I may become like my dad, but you know what? After losing the only person I ever had last year, my mother dying, and then internationally cucking myself, maybe it's not so bad to live like a middle aged fat boomer who only has TV and alcohol as an escapism. Clearly this is my destiny
Maybe being a lazy fuck who only cooks every now and then isn't so bad
Like seriously, whey the fuck do we, as the XY chromosome havers, have to be hardwired to lewd up XX chromosomes havers?
I wish I could be gay but that is unnatural, and would just ruin the chances of finding someone to be innocent with.
Besides most males that are gay are kinda silly, not like "bro dude" gay.
Man, life is a big doodoo. I wanna be a rock
You don't frequently interact with gay people at all, do you?
I wish you luck on your quest to become a rock, though.
I had developed feels for men on the internet.
It is not a lie, the kindness things is already good enough for me to fall for them. But IRL they're not like these people. They're just way too stupid or disgusting or silly.
I wish gay men would act just like regular people, there was someone who was quite normal who I worked in college with, but sadly he had a fuckton of piercings on his face, which I find repulsive.
Also, the becoming gay part is a scary thing because that means you could just basically end up generating feels for anyone in your circle, which just ends up putting them off and repelling them.
Last but not least, gay sex is repulsive, and I personally think it's a huge cope for the fact none of the two partners has a working female apparatus. This is from someone who finds the idea of something like that appealing, but not the idea of dealing with women.>Good luck becoming a rock though
Thank you sushi
An sushi roll I used to talk to has been silent for a couple of months, hope they are doing fine. As for me, going to take a walk later, then go meet with my psych again (get some shitty meds again which >will definitely work this time). Then I will do nothing. Maybe play a game or two, my steam library has dried up. I should go make another cup of coffee. It is nice and snowy outside. I do not even know why I am writing all this up, just a stream of consciousness. Anyhow, should be a /comfy/ day, hope it will be the same for all the sushis reading this. I always forget the domain for this board, then come back every few months once I remember it. Think that is all from me.
For some reason during work today I was feeling hornier than I've felt in years. I was dying for work to be over so I could jerk off. But then once work ended and I had dinner, suddenly that horniness was gone and I felt nothing but depressed again, no matter how much I tried to get that horniness back. I jerked off anyway, but I didn't enjoy it that much.
It sucks, because I was finally actually feeling something other than depressed, and I thought that might be a sign that my mental state might finally be recovering, but I guess not.
I just skip the algorithms entirely by using FreeTube.
I generally like NewPipe, but you're right about it being hit or miss. It's been working well for me recently, but there are many times when it stops functioning altogether until multiple updates later, not even counting the time when Google tries to snuff it out.
Why are people on imageboards so mean spirited? I used to think only the guys from the political boards were like this, but I've been realizing, every thread where there is discussion, one or both of the parts involved are completely unpleasant. And I mean really just being nasty to the other guy for no reason other than disagreeing with them.
And I've realized imageboards really are toxic environments, big time. The posters exude a visceral rage and hatred that really feels like poison to the mind when you read it. I wonder why I ever got into these sort of places and why I still visit them.
And no,I don't care about "safe spaces" or toxic positivity, I'm just talking about not being a completely rotten-to-the-core black hole of hatred and negativity just throwing as many insults at the other person just for the sake of it.
Now more then ever do I realize I really got to stop using imageboards altogether, because I really see little of value in there and the cost of reading someone else's mind poison far outweights the marginal benefits.
Not you guys, you are all really lovely, I just don't know if using sushi will make me want to tour the other chans eventually, as already happened.
>>15146>And no,I don't care about "safe spaces" or toxic positivity
The fuck is toxic positivity anyway? Sounds like retarded shit just to guilt people into being sad as hell>The posters exude a visceral rage and hatred that really feels like poison to the mind when you read it
There are chances that these people had a tough life and instead of realizing their mistakes, they out the blame on someone else.
Of course, not everyone is someone's own fault, but it isn't the world's fault either, you either have to deal with the world or not, there's not much to it
>>15146> I just don't know if using sushi will make me want to tour the other chans eventually, as already happened.
No obligation to. I think "touring chans" is mostly something that people new to the scene do. You're gonna find a community or communities that you like and you'll stick there. That's fine.>>15147
love that pic
What did you make for dinner?
Something gouged in oil, and then I had the stupid as fuck idea of eating some chocolate that has been in a hot place for many months afterwards.
It's been two nights and almost two days and I feel like utter shit. I thought the pain was gone by this morning but I try drinking some soda or a snack and I end up feeling like ass again. I stirred some veggies too but my aunt who is a nurse said that stuff like that is just gonna make me feel worse.
Things just suck overall and I really hate it. Been able to only eat rice with cheese now
I used to go out looking for that special someone, not quite enjoying being around people but always with the hope of finding someone.
I'd never heard of a barcade, though, sounds fun. Idk if a NEET girl would spend much time outside but if that's the niche you might want to take your chances.
I mean, after all, if you don't put yourself out there there's little chance you'll find what you're looking for, right?
Look up other kinds of people, maybe? MtG and D&D clubs may be available.
I hope you find her!
Yeah but what about the muh-nee?
Find a niche job or just wage slave. There’s so many side hustles nowadays.
Find a niche job or just wage slave. There’s so many side hustles nowadays. Chances are you’ll find somebody through promoting one of your own passion projects.
Barcades are fun! The one near me just closed down, which is a shame. But yea, if you want to meet nerd girls, D&D is the way to go. Also Gunpla if you have a nearby store that sells them. Try attending group build sessions if they have them. It's a great way to meet people, girls and guys alike.
I don't often hit on women at bars, since usually I'm just with friends or coworkers. But it's not a bad place to look for love.
Not sure if going to a group activity just to find girls is a smart idea. Most of the time it just turns out to be a sausage fest.
I think the smartest thing would be to go somewhere with my similar interests. Too bad most of my interest are meant for one person
I once had a gf who wanted to get insane abs. I hope she did.
Aaaand… I was right!
Haven't slept like this since High School!
damn I am jealous of you sushi roll
You should be jealous if I got the bartender's phone number.
Thankfully for your health that didn't happen
Oh shoot O just noticed you mentioned the abs girl and not the post about the barcade.
Sorry, yeah that may just be her being friendly and me reading way too deep into it like I always do. I should just focus on the gym while I'm at it.
Also, I post here way too often
Any reasons as to why you're dropping out?
yeah man I just want a girl with huge abs to talk to me lol
also no such thing as posting too often!!!
i get sick of answering this but okay
depression, lack of work or anything to do in the place my uni was, swamped with work - felt like a waste of money in the long run
Oh I see
Well I hope you manage things properly. Self discovery is a long marathon.
I think it'd be pretty normal to stay friends with her, unless they had a particularly nasty breakup. It would definitely be a bad idea to get romantically involved with her, though.
What if things develop tho?
Then don't count on the friend continuing to be your friend afterwards.
Feel free to involve yourself with your friend's ex-girl sushi roll, but if I was him I'd feel as though you don't respect me or our friendship. Think about it in reverse: I'm sure you'd be at least a bit upset over a friend pursuing someone you've been with :/
What's the bump limit in this site?
When I was at home alone consuming youtube/anime/manga I just wanted to make friends. Now that I have friends at work all I want to do is be at home alone consuming youtube/anime/manga. Funny how life works