>>15063>What if you swap genders with your gf
That implies I'd ever have a gf, which will never happen>In this life, I am guaranteed to have at least one friend. So long as I am true to myself, then I can be true to everyone
Well, I was true to myself, and I just ruined it all. Who I thought was a friend was just a narcissist that disposed me as soon as I became useless to him. I screwed up with a girl, and because I was so rude to her I felt bad about it and told him why I felt like shit, so he decides to ask me for her contact.
Foolishly I do, this girl lived in the same country as me which was already an uncommon thing to happen. Was crazy nice too. Never had a relationship before either because she was raped and thus traumatized but because I was a complete lunatic back then I was a piece of shit to her.
Thanks to me these two are FUCKING
like crazy and I almost threw myself to a train because of how much of a used condom I felt like. I gotta work on a website but these two pieces of shit intrude my mind whenever I gotta do something for it, like learning how to work with something or try to fix something.
Some fucker that has 5 years less than me has the guts to pull a complete façade on me, has the money to cross the atlantic, and the absolute balls to ask me if he can spend one night in my house so that he can bounce the bed with her later.
I deleted my discord accounts after this.>What do you love, sushi? What makes you happy?
Nothing makes me happy. Just endless void and limbo, then rot and maggots 'til i decompose. When I was young I feared I may become like my dad, but you know what? After losing the only person I ever had last year, my mother dying, and then internationally cucking myself, maybe it's not so bad to live like a middle aged fat boomer who only has TV and alcohol as an escapism. Clearly this is my destiny
Maybe being a lazy fuck who only cooks every now and then isn't so bad