No.20107
I've been thinking, but the more I think, the more I feel like I need a nice friend to give me a big hug…
Ya know, by any possibly conceivable metric, I am the best poster on this site. I'd go so far as to call myself a contributor, because I bring objective quality into this space. And despite all of that I still get no respect around here. I even go out of my way to help other people with my razor-sharp insight, for absolutely no personal gain, and still I've got zero credibility. Just the other day some guy was asking for anime recommendations in some other thread and I give him a nice one for a critically acclaimed yet underrated hidden gem of a cult classic with action, comedy, drama, romance, you name it. And what happens? The guy decides to watch an anime about some chick in a castle. I shit you not: AN ANIME ABOUT SOME CHICK IN A CASTLE. On a whim. You have one of the best, overlooked anime of all time and you go for an anime about some chick in a castle?!
Is it because I'm not nice enough? Because I'm not comfy enough? Is my level of coziness not on the desired level? I speak softly and present myself humbly, respectful and understanding, always ready to split things evenly and yet you disregard me like this? How dare you? I'm beginning to understand the feelings of all those bitter virgin losers who cried about not getting any after being emotional tampons for chicks on a rebound.
I do everything right but I'm never praised or rewarded… The world is unfair sushis… And good friends are hard to find… I'm feeling so alone…
No.20110
>>20107> Ya know, by any possibly conceivable metric, I am the best poster on this site.No, I don't know. How would I? You complain of how you've gotten zero credibility, but you seemingly lack the identity to associate the credentials with. Although, maybe I would recognize you among the other voices of the sushi rollymous swarm if I'd visited boards other than /lounge/ and /hell/ more frequently.
You say that you go out of your way to provide a helpful response, but to the receiving side your razor-sharp insights may seem something that you were entirely willing, or even excited, to present; something that is simply a more verbose part of casual chatter where nobody has to have the kind of commitment that you have. You say that it's not for personal gain, but you clearly wish you were recognized, acknowledged and beloved for what you do and who you are.
> You have one of the best, overlooked anime of all time and you go for an anime about some chick in a castle?!Maybe they merely were in the mood for a simple anime about a cute girl and not in the mood for a critically acclaimed serious business.
No.20112
>>20107lmao is this for real?
No.20113
>>20112Ctrl+F castle gives no recent results for the threads on otaku/index.html
No.20124
A while ago, I realized that being brought up in the suburbs was a lot more disadvantageous that realized. I didn't really go outside partly because there was no one out there. There was nothing to really do if I couldn't drive. If I lived near more people in a place that was walkable, I'm sure there would've been more clubs and activities to get to know people. It's pretty isolating in the suburbs. I don't see anyone outside. It's like it's dead outside or something. To be honest, I didn't think much of my dependence on my parents to go places because I never went places. I didn't like staying after school since it would be late by the time my parents came by. It's kinda weird my schools were just isolated buildings. My elementary school was just surrounded by trees, so in a way, it was kinda isolated from society in that way. It's not like we were isolated from people like in the sticks.
No.20127
>>20125There actually are plenty of rural places with neighbors and all sorts of amenities but what sucks is not able to go anywhere or do much on your own. So consider somewhere with a public transport system or not too far from the inner city.
Speaking of sticks. Id like some cheese sticks.
No.20129
>>20125It's funny because I wasn't even in the sticks. As you said, though, the less people there are, the less clubs, activities, friends, etc. there are. I think the loneliness of it all would be nice if you lived in a nice house with your hobbies nearby. For kids, it'd probably just be a prison. Lol. Maybe I just don't have any hobbies? Still, it'd be much easier to find hobbies when there are established groups to look at.
No.20130
>>20125You could move to the sticks when your kids enter college or whatever. A lot of retired people do that anyways because of the lower cost of living
No.20132
>>20128I'm terrified of this too. I think time slips more if you are sleeping during the day and not doing enough memorable things in the day or lose it while trying to find stuff online.
No.20133
>>20128Sorry for your loss.
No.20138
>>20128lol I've barely changed since high school as well, academically and physically. However, I've changed a lot personality-wise and in my morals. Maybe you've changed more than you think?
No.20145
Was reading my journal from when I was 9-12 years old. I had written in depth about the then-current climate of webpages in the late 00s and how a lot of websites were shutting down as the internet was undergoing a cultural shift, the rise of Google, Adobe Shockwave supported stuff was quickly being replaced, and then going on about my favorite YouTube channels at the time. The unsettling thing though was every few pages was an entry about being sexually harassed and beaten by my parents, an issue I still face today. On the other hand, it's cool seeing all the random objects I stuck into the journal, a lock of my hair, a ticket stub of when I went to Manhattan, a folded piece of paper about a theater play I went to, for some reason I taped a nut into it (I guess I really liked nuts back then, and I still do today) and the crushed nut's oil is staining the pages now, etc.
Ah… to be a child again. I miss all the old websites and video games I can't browse nor play anymore.
No.20162
>>20138My resolutions are something that I come up with and try to implement continuously, and some of them were made way before that day. Her passing is a date I can look back to, as there were not that many other days of significance these past few years.
>>20138What do you notice about yourself that is different?
No.20164
I hate my job but I can't switch for a whole year. Gotta get through it somehow.
No.20167
I have this weird feeling my parents would really benefit from following the rules of this imageboard. Not even just lurking and posting in this imageboard, but straight up following the rules like keeping it comfy. That's the one rule I make sure to follow in real life when talking to people, and I really think it's made me into a better person. This are a lot more relaxed when you don't bring up religion and politics. That being said, my parents (especially my mom) are obsessed with talking politics. Man, life would be so much better if they didn't talk about it. I want to try to subtly teach them these rules to make them better people. Also, I do remember them more fondly back when I was a kid. They seemed to be a lot nicer and less political when they knew not to talk politics in front of their kids.
Honestly, pretty good vibes right now. ngl.
No.20193
Why is it that I can sleep for 8 hours and still feel exhausted all day? What the hell is wrong with me?
No.20213
>>20194>if not then its the lack of exercise!!!That's possible? I wonder how that works…
Sushi could also look into polyphasic sleep! I had an unusual sleeping pattern back in college but it made my time there more than bearable.
No.20227
>>20226I wish I was young and cute so bad.
No.20247
>>20245The real illusion is that it was ever good in the first place.
No.20248
>>20244Sometimes it's difficult for me to discuss religion because I was raised pagan (all is within the mind of the dreamer type stuff, I just really like Daoism on the side) but make sure not to focus too much on the unnatural and the unreal (humans with wings, demons, fears). Beauty is to be found where you find it not where others tell you it exist.
>All in the world deem the beautiful to be beautiful; it is ugly. All deem the good to be good; it is bad. (Dao De Jing)Just try to focus on what brings you peace of mind. I know I used to be more into following otaku culture closer when I was younger but eventually I had to stop when I felt everyone was going insane for mediocre crap honestly.
No.20253
>>20252No one is the center of the world.
No.20262
>>20248>but make sure not to focus too much on the unnatural and the unrealWe accept for granted that only certain things exist, electrons and but not angels. Reality varies with each era and culture, but our modern 'anti-supernatual' society has embraced a painfully narrow idea of what is real. Since what we take to be real shapes how we feel, think, and imagine, it seems like an uphill battle trying to find peace of mind in this world. I can't stomach paganism. It doesn't sit right with me but I respect the deites and unseen beings.
All industrially mass produced culture, which includes otaku culture among other things, is overwhelming. It alienates from the world and your alienation pushes you to consume more. Conformity replaces consciousness. Sometimes there are shades of beauty in it but its all so exhausting and conformist in its own way. It just ends up serving the system in the end.
>>20252Its a strange paradox of post-modern society. Never before have we been so well connected and yet we are further apart from each other than we've ever been. Daily interactions with others in everyday life has been replaced by commodified platforms that act as spaces for non-personal interactions such as social media and dating apps. Its like eerybody walks past each other without noticing and half the population think this is a good thing and want interaction without personal commitment (like hook up culture). Society is dead or dying. I still think its better to try and meet people irl at random but more and more people react badly to that, like the street is not the place for talking anymore and you are supposed to get to know someone via texting or social media before getting friendly. I really hate this. It feels so cold.
No.20263
>>20262>modern 'anti-supernatual'This is actually a Daoism thing, not a modern thing. Change what you can change, not what you can't sort of thing. It's a concept that diametrically opposes my pagan beliefs but, uhhhhh ummm… hmm…..
I'm thinking about watching Taiho Shichauzo or maybe some Umetsu film later tonight.
No.20264
>>20262I meant more that working a part-time night-shift job prevents me from being online when everyone else is awake.
No.20266
>>20238Consume your media old school otaku style. Forget about watching as many anime or playing as many VNs as possible. Focus on a few and develop an obsessive relationship with franchises and characters that drives your forward without ever moving an inch.
>>20263Go watch taihoshichauzo it has hella hot chicks. Alternatively watch girls und panzer, for the same reasons. Although if you want to stay current I'd suggest marathoning Sword Art Online Alternarive: Gun Gale Online, for the same reaons, and then catching up to the second season, currently on air. I'm yet to meet someone who has regretted watching this masterpiece, a swan song of studio 3Hz, the geniuses behind Princess Principal and Flip Flappers (which you should also watch, for the same reasons).
