As someone who used to dial in all the time, you'll find there's no need for such heartache.
Now I don't talk to anyone outside of family.
Being around others makes me feel lonely and stressed.
Hell, the only thing left is to purge this restlessness at work where I visit sites I used to know, such as this place.
Most friends are a beautiful lie if you think about those relations long enough.
Either you share objectives or you are both wasting away in each other's arms as if there was some vector that isn't squishy and pliable, as you mutual assure the psychological dominance wrapped around you both.
Some friendships may have the objective of "enjoying each other's company" and that's perfectly okay. It's just not the case when it is instead participation in some addiction as "enjoying each other" - when you're formless instead, when you're disposable instead, when you contribute nothing actually, other than the fact that, yes, I am a warm body who will be in proximity as we both drool over the same things together, separately.
Sort of like imageboards. Videogames. TV Shows, etc.
So I ask, what exactly do you hope for?
Do you think there's some magical person out there that'll make you not feel so restless?
Sounds like an extension of the old age wish for a messiah, when that rests in you.
As the Messiah said, "The kingdom of God is within you"