Turn off your PC and do some stuff then.
Begin the soul-searching journey that begins with asking "what do I want to do?"
No, this is not good advice.
It will lead to you just procrastinating more. Always running in circles.
Just do something. Doesn't really matter what.
That happens when you answer that question and then ask yourself the question that logically follows:
"how do I do what I want to do?"
This is the the real obstacle. If this question isn't answered (or worse, not answered properly) then you will ask yourself "why do I want to do this?"
You let go when you forget yourself.
You sound a lot like me, and it's one of my biggest insecurities. To be honest it affects my ability to even form relationships with people because I feel so passionless next to them. But it's good to at least realize this so you can start trying to "get out there" so to speak and try some new things. I've been trying to do just that myself.
I've felt this before too, but I asked myself is it really worth the frustration to force myself to take up a creative hobby? The answer was no. There's nothing wrong w/ consuming media sushi. If you really enjoy anime or vidya, then it's not a waste of time. It may seem like everyone, but it's not. You're just not finding the right friends.
That said, if consuming isn't fun anymore, creating isn't the only other option. There's also adventure/exploring type hobbies such as urban exploration, walking in the woods, collecting stuff, going to thrift stores and yard sales, tree climbing, conjuring demons, dumpster diving, bird watching, shortwave radio, the list goes on and on.
First you have to figure out if you actually like having a hobby or just like the idea of having a hobby. The people you see who are good at their hobbies have been at it for a long time.
A book that is mostly about jobs, but would apply to this as well is "So Good They Can't Ignore You: Why Skills Trump Passion in the Quest for Work You Love". The TL;DR is this: "Follow your passion" is bad advice. Either you already know your passion (in which case you didn't need the advice) or you don't (in which case it's worthless to you). The idea is that passion is something that normally forms once you have a certain level of expertise in the area. Thus you should look into something that you have interest in and stick with it. Don't expect to feel passionate on your first try. Just start.
>I wasted my whole life passively consuming media
Did you though? Did you not enjoy yourself doing so? Or are you accepting other peoples' value judgements as your own? Consuming media isn't a bad thing necessarily. Personally I don't find it nearly as fulfilling as creating something, but people are different.
Here's some creative hobbies that you might consider:
* Music (any instrument really)
* Electronics (circuit design, hardware hacking)
* Sculpting (with clay or other materials)
* Other art (I like doing digital collages for example)
* 3DCG (Blender is free and great)
There's so much more, and a lot of them don't need a lot of upfront cost or good equipment either.
* learning languages actually gives me a similar feeling to a certain extend. Learning them is much less fun than the other hobbies, but every language you learn opens up parts of the internet and entire different cultures that you can appreciate. English, french, spanish, german and chinese communities online and in real life are vastly different. Being able to consume their media and communicate with them (even if only horribly badly) is fun.
I used to hang with people that made art of some sort. Music, or drawing or painting or making costumes or whatever. I have never had any artistic skill whatsoever and ultimately what caught my attention, which is mathematics, well, nobody is able to appreciate it really. Can't just show anyone a proof that took you a while and of which you're proud, no matter how elementary. But it's for you. I make cool stuff for no one but myself. And it's not even something that I'd like to share. I have notebooks on things I like and they are just for me.
As for how to get into that 'productive' mindset, I had to make the mental shift that if I'm passively consuming something that's not education of some sort, I don't feel at ease. This comes with a price. Now I always feel I have to be learning something and I feel guilty reading fiction (even though fiction can be considered education!)
tl;dr do things for yourself, not for others to appreciate.
>>9484>urban exploration, walking in the woods, collecting stuff, going to thrift stores and yard sales, tree climbing, conjuring demons, dumpster diving, bird watching, shortwave radio
One of these things is not like the others…
oh come on, I'm sure you can find some cool stuff that people have thrown out in dumpsters
The feeling of being horrible never disappears completely, do your best to use that feeling to your advantage.
If you enjoy sandbox games like Minecraft, one thing I think is a very underrated hobby/skill is building structures and worlds in Minecraft. This is probably the architect in me that has a weird fascination towards that, but I really enjoy building and watching people build massive structures and trying to recreate stuff from the real world in the virtual. I don't think people realize how much is put into world building for big servers like Hypixel for example.
Don't just reserve yourself to Minecraft. Maybe you spend alot of time in community games like VRchat? You could pick up unity and start making sketch worlds and refine them into interesting worlds. Hell, If you get really good at it, You could apply those skills into a job at a studio!
I actually prefer the 2017 one
I too envy those who have creative hobbies. Funny, I have always had the creative drive but none of the skill. And yes I know the skill is something that is achieved throught practice, but ultimately neither the talent to get me going nor the endurance to stay at it for long. I guess I don't develop the sheer interest that drives creative types to git gud at their craft. In my case it goes even further. I am mathematically inclined and my creative pursuits often require some mathematics as well as related skills (ie computer programming) which stack up and I end up in a sort of analysis paralysis as well as perceiving the need to read a book on, say, spherical astronomy, before I even begin. Everytime I want to pursue a creative endeavour the exact same thing happens, I need prerequisite knowledge on some complex topic and not always do I have the endurance to go and do it, especially when I'm starting to feel that it's ultimately a useless topic to invest my time on and that I should be learning a more marketable skill, or I simply don't enjoy it as much. Perhaps it's the high expectations I set for myself.
And then, even though I envy those capable of making something that they can show, my preferred topics are all passive, rather then creative. Reading classical chinese, for example.
I have considered writing dissertations on all topics that interest me, but if I start writing I know it'll reflect the painful truth that none of my ideas are original nor insightful and that I'm very ignorant of everything altogether.
I prefer to just read books.
I've had hobbies throughout my life but I can't commit to them. I procrastinate a lot and then I'm embarrassed of picking them up again later, because that's a weird thing to do. I am trying though.