No.14725
Dear Elise.
It's been a wild ride after you've been gone. Certain things have happened that have completely changed my life.
But some things stay the same. The loneliness aspect being one of them.
I was not a good person with you. I was avoidant, I was pushy, I was needy, aloof, and never could say things straight.
And I understand it. I never thought anything like what we had could happened. You are now someone else's. But, if things were to go south. Don't look for me. I wish i could have been better, not for you but also for me.
Those two months we had will be ingrained until the day I die, as the time that I thought heaven was real.
But for now. I'll have to keep on living the life I always had. One where I had no one else. No one else but myself.
I'm sorry for the harm that I did to you Elise. I really, really hope you make the right things in life. Take extreme care of yourself, love your family and those around you, and be happy that you are surrounded by great people.
I deeply wish you well.
Sincerely, Mes.
No.14729
>>14728I also wrote a Christmas card for someone, but I lost the envelope, stupidly enough
No.14731
To Mo,
Thank you.
If we never had gotten into that fight, I would've never befriended S. And if I had never befriended S, she would have never invited me to G. And if I had never been invited to G, I would've never had talked with Mx, or Y, or P, or C, or My. And if I had never talked with MxYPCMy, then I would never have struck a conversation with Sa. And if I had never struck a conversation with Sa, I would never have fallen in love with him, and never have met him, and never have been so happy in my life.
I'm sorry, Mo
Thank you, Mo
A
No.14741
To Juliet,
It's been a long time. I'm sorry for abandoning you at your worst, even if it felt impossible to ever trust you again - I wish you loved yourself enough to know you don't have to lie to be worthy of love and empathy.
Are you okay now? So much time has passed, and I know you entered sixth form late as well. I went to University in [REDACTED]; hate it here and am considering my options to leave, it's just a really boring city with really boring people. You annoyed me sometimes, but you were never boring. Hell, you were sometimes sweet, and I just took that for granted and when things got bad acted as though you never did any good. How's that for an insensitive prick?
I'd be interested in seeing you again someday, just let me know whenever. My number is [REDACTED] if you need it, and I'm not a busy guy. You know, not like you'd expect me to actually get a job.
Hope for the best,
[REDACTED]
No.14753
>>14751Before you take such a drastic action, do you want to talk about it? We are here for you, sushi.
No.14754
>>14751killing yourself is retarded.
have some warm tea, sleep early and rethink tomorrow about it.
No.14756
>>14751in the time you spend committing suicide, you could
- listen to some nice music
- make yourself a hot cup of tea or coffee
- in the evening, go out and socialise even if you have no friends
- go for a walk outside, even if it's cold
- remember who you are
No.14758
>>14756>- in the evening, go out and socialise even if you have no friendsthat's a terrible advice.
all he'll manage to get out of this is getting robbed or beaten down.
No.14759
>>14758people do it all the time
No.14760
>>14759my own experience says otherwise.
As a loner, if you try to insert yourself into others' social circle, it's likely you will be taken advantage of because you'll come out as needy & desperate for companionship.
to be welcomed in a new social circle, you need to be already part of an existing social circle where one of your acquaintances would introduce you to this new group.
that's how normal people function.
No.14761
>>14753>do you want to talk about it? We are here for you, sushi.Someone I thought was a friend used me to get to someone that I really cared about.
It makes me sick, I never thought people could be so cold and manipulative. He took advantage of my social retardation and. Oh my god.
Fuck
I'm sorry.
No.14782
it upsets me that people would jump in front of a train and just pass their grief onto others so hurtfully and gruesomely. find a way to do it with as little hurt to others - there's enough grief in this world and you of all people know that. please exit this world as peacefully as you circumstances allow.
unless of course you just hate humanity and want to cause as much misery as you can. i have grievances with that approach too, but at least i understand it.
No.15228
>>14719Dear R,
It's been a while. Still remember me? Honestly, my memory of you is fading away, but I can still recall some of the fun we had together.
I haven't spoken to you for almost a decade. How are you? I've been well. Been busy "making peace" with myself. Oh! I even picked up an old hobby of reading fanfiction. Makes this old fart feel young again.
How's the crafts hobby going? I always loved seeing the things you made, even though I'd relentlessly tease you about it. I don't think I ever apologized for that. Sorry for being a prick.
But the cats, are they doing well? I hope they'll get to enjoy the warm weather coming soon.
Why am I writing this? Well honestly, when I get in the ruts my brain finds itself searching through the memory labyrinth. I came across you again. But, you'll never know or read this message.
Cheers! And may we never meet again.
No.15233
If only I could hold you. If only you could hold me. I wish we could look at each other in the eye after waking up and share that little dumb giggle. You are the most amazing woman in the world, there is no one else like you. We are so close, yet so far. For you I'd cross the ocean even if it meant I'd have to be a waitress in a shitty boat for some weeks. But he is there. And I can't do anything. I don't want to do anything. I only want your happiness. and I wish I could be at your side.
No.15236
To C,
It hasn’t been long since you’ve gone, but my tears have yet to dry. I’ve wanted to apologize early into our relationship for being so avoidant and for dragging you along with me, but never found the courage to be truly open with you. I wish you came to talk to me before you left. Did the 1.5 years mean so little to you? I was so inconsiderate towards your feelings as I had yet to know what to do with my own, and I knew it from the very start. I hope you weren’t my first love and if there were another chance with you, I’d do better. I’m not a regretful person, and I hope this wouldn’t be a situation I’ll be regretting on my deathbed by my 80s. I hope you would never get over me, this is my selfishness.
From M
No.15237
Santa
Do you by chance know if I'm in the naughty list?
Regards, sushi
No.15243
Dear Me:
You're doing fine, keep at it.
Me.
No.15245
Dear Lain
I loved you more than anything in the entire world but you were the most abusive person I've ever met. It broke every part of me when you cheated. I can't remember most of what happened last year but it's all documented in my diaries. I've moved on in some aspects but the trauma is bad, I have nightmares. I still think about you all the time and I hate it. Finally I got around to blocking your mum on Instagram, she had been following me for a long time viewing my stuff still. It was pretty creepy.
I don't really care about what is going on in your life so I am not inclined to ask.
NS
No.15282
>>14719Hi As,
I told you about this website when we spoke. I don't know if you're ever here, but if you are, I hope you see this and recognize it's me. I just wanted to apologize to you for how I lashed out at you. I understand why you couldn't talk to me; I am a wreck of a person, and my brain is completely scrambled, and I treated you as an enemy when really you were one of the kindest people I had ever spoken to. But there were a lot of issues that got in the way of us being able to connect, most of which were not entirely our fault, and just a matter of how we lived our lives up to this point. You said it yourself, we're late to everything. I'm just a reflection of my life experiences, and I don't want to be that way. It takes work, but someday I will be different. I don't think you will ever see me then. Just know I'm sorry for treating you as the enemy, when you were a great friend. I love you, and may God bless you.
-S
No.15285
HELLO??!?!
I miss having you around and I am not sure why you left us all behind. I could never get a good read on you and the way you tried to communicate with me. I took it as a compliment when you said my voice sounds like rain. I wish I had complimented yours in return.
Anyway, I hope you're killing it and if you're not that's also fine, as long as you stick it out to the end. Shoot me a message anytime, by the way. I'll probably be around to read it and respond.
From me,
to you
No.15341
Dear Slim
I wrote you but still ain't callin'
I left my cell, my pager, and my home phone at the bottom
I sent two letters back in autumn, you must not-a got 'em
There probably was a problem at the post office or somethin'
Sometimes I scribble addresses too sloppy when I jot 'em
But anyways, f*ck it, what's been up? Man how's your daughter?
My girlfriend's pregnant too, I'm bout to be a father
If I have a daughter, guess what I'm a call her?
I'm a name her Bonnie
I read about your Uncle Ronnie too I'm sorry
I had a friend kill himself over some friendly lady who didn't want him
I know you probably hear this everyday, but I'm your biggest fan
I even got the underground shit that you did with Skam
I got a room full of your posters and your pictures man
I like the shit you did with Rawkus too, that shit was fat
Anyways, I hope you get this man, hit me back,
Just to chat, truly yours, your biggest fan
This is Stan
No.15345
Dearist God,
Thank you for making me only attracted to anime girls and not caring about romance. It is one of the good things in my life. I feel no loneliness emotionally or sexually. Livin' my best life. <3
No.15362
Dearest p,
Fuck you.
Perhaps brevity is best, but a part of me still loathes the thought you were able to blithely say one thing and do the opposite.
Thanks for being yet another person who used me and then moved on at the first opportunity. Happy to have helped, glad you were able to grow as a person. You're welcome.
You friendly lady.
-o
No.15363
To R
Sorry I ghosted you. I was suddenly in a different stage of life and that project we were working on became way less important. I should have talked it out with you. To be honest, I don't think it was going anywhere anyway, but I should have at least given you the option to take my work and continue on alone.
No.15408
A,
I was wrong to make you cry those many years ago in high school. It's been about a decade since that time, and I've never forgiven myself for it. I sometimes have dreams of your face, and I try to apologize, but I'm never able to do it. It is one of the many things I regret in life. I'm sorry I never contacted you to say I was sorry, despite you being on my mind for so long. The years go by like seconds to me. I sometimes can't believe the year now is over 1/4 the way over.
Sincerely,
A
No.15777
>>14760Depends if you live in a shithole or not. I have people from down south visiting here and they're amazed at how friendly people are compared to where they're from. They think people are trying to flirt with them in the street, and it's like no, that's just called being friendly to your fellow man lol
