I went to an arcade to play taiko no tatsujin and found a group of people. But I can't consider them any more than aquaintances. Sure I enjoy hanging out with them but I've been shown apparently there's no real relationship.
I've never been able to relate to anyone on a deeper level. People say you need to concern yourself with their feelings but my very own feelings hold no meaning to me. Feelings for me seem to be more a physical reaction or sensation. For me they appear as a hallucination not a reality. When a current carries you downstream are you the current? This is the way feelings are for me. It's as if the body is reacting, like a muscle spasm, I experience the senation of emotion but I genuinely feel nothing. This however doesn't mean I can't lose myself in their sensation.
So how do I interact, I only talk about shared interests, and if I share nothing I don't interact, I just watch and listen.
Whenever I've shared my innermost thoughts with people they never talk to me again.
I don't want to fake it because decievers are the worst kinds of people.
One way or another you always lose something from interacting with them.>>7008
If socializing is a skill you are required to hone then it's something not genuine.
Also randomly picking a new hobby isn't going to get you any closer to finding more people like you.