I stopped being a neet and went to school. All i need now is a job.
I thought I was gonna be moving back in with my parents by the end of the year but i got an entry level software engineering job. I get to program robots and it seems pretty comfy tbh
Excellent work, sushi! Now that you're enrolled as a student, I imagine that you shouldn't have too much trouble finding a part-time job on or nearby your campus. Also, if you don't mind my asking, what major are you pursuing? It's fine if you're undecided, of course!>>5827
Great job, sushi! As a fellow software engineer, I know all too well how difficult it is to secure an entry-level position in this industry, so I say you should be proud of yourself for landing that job! I've always felt like it'd be really cool to program robots; I'm happy that you get to experience it~>>5829
I very much appreciate you saying so, and I'm very flattered that you took the time to read through all of that old, sloppy writing of mine! Since you were so kind as to read through all of that and compliment me on it, I went ahead and uploaded the rest of my old writings for your reading pleasure:http://monoeye.cc/writings/
I hope you enjoy it as much as you enjoyed my older works~
Every once in a while I buy a new blanket to give away as a gift, but instead of giving them away, I try to figure out who would want a blanket. Everyone I know pretty much always say they don't want even more blanket when I try to drop hints. So now I'm rolled up up in my brand new wool blanket.
Blanket? That's a wonderful idea for a gift, I'd love to have one. Who could have too many blankets?
I don't know what they're thinking. I thought they had that many, but I guess they think it is enough with their favourite blanket.
Either way, I have another blanket now. Nice to have in case of guests, and for different locations around the house.
Sounds like you're a good person sushi roll. I agree with the other sushi, who wouldn't want a nice, comfy blanket from a friend!
I'm happy that the weather is starting to cool down now throughout the end of this week. I really hate hot weather.
It's vocational school which qualifies me to work as a sysadmin or in other occupations like that. I don't know if it's a decent option in the us, but here it's a good choice and certainly better than doing nothing.
Things are getting better in my relationship.
I bought new shoes from the interwebs and they were the right size.
I got my diploma. It was a lot of work because I'm not good at executive function.
I got a job and moved across country nearer to where my sister lives.
I have a comfy basement apartment and am making payments on a car.
I'm starting to feel like a person again.
just nutted inside my girlfriend. she's so fire.
I'm not happy right now :(
I'm super stoked I might be in for trying something new I've wanted to try out a while, while also being there for the launch of something cool and unique of that realm, help get it going. Don't know if I've actually gotten to experience that before, always find things either while they're already gotten started or are on the very verge of puttering out.
Also browsed through the thread again and I gotta say I relate >>4187
, getting to stay in bed as long as you want is a big mood.
Today I spent an hour watching the clouds roll by and the leaves fall. After reading the Tao of Pooh, I realized that I have been preoccupied with working, so much to the point I was trying to be productive with every second of my time (I wore a watch and would compulsively check the time.) But now, I feel that I'm happier just by letting go.>>5882
Did you ever make a friend?>>6036
I feel the same way. I tried discord a couple of times too but there's nothing like this place.>>6038>>6040
We all have our days sushi. Maybe take a rest, and let whatever is weighing you down take a rest too.>>6039
I've tried the art grind too sushi. It's tough. Remember to take frequent breaks, you got this.>>6041
Sounds fun! I don't play WoW but I'm still curious as to what race/class you play as.>>6042
Yeah, sleeping is the best.>>6043
Save some for us!
C-can you post more of that face on /l-/lewd/? >///<
This must be so fucking great. I get the weirdest joy from the thought of people still enjoying good old hardcore gaming like this.
Would've, but /lewd/ seems to be 2D only~lewd-warn It's Lana Rain though (Pink Haired Pirate vid to be specific). Funny anecdote, as a teen seeing hentai flashes sometimes I'd think they were just bad artists not knowing how bodies look IRL, but Lana Rain does have exactly that kind of booty, real-life hentai flash booty, never seen any other like it. lewd-warn-over
Also am reminded to be happy that I live in times with such lewd media so freely available. It's easy to take it for granted.
I'm playing an Etrian Odyssey game for the first time and it's going really well and I'm enjoying myself.
The older I grow, the more I feel mature enough to handle a love relationship, and the more I fear the day were the opportunity of starting one will occur, because I realized recently that the best time I have is the one I spend alone, morning to evening.
Occasions I'm around grills my age grow scarcer every days, let alone grills with common interests and personality, and the fear to die all alone grows in respect to that, but every days I also think how good it must feel like to be free from the burden of being around someone in my daily life. It's kind of a dilemma.
sage for off-topic schizoid spergings
Tbh I don't think it'd be that bad to die alone. If you leave someone dear and close behind that will be a kind of burden, worrying if they're gonna be okay without you watching out for them.
I had a thing going with a pretty sweet girl at one point, but she weren't the brightest. Like the kind that falls for online credit card scams. Not very bright, but very sweet, only one I've met that could get through to me when I was having a low time not finding joy in anything.
If we were still together when I was dying I'd be so worried she'd end up being taken advantage of, especially since she was always kind of a loner like me. I mean I guess I kind of still will, it's been years since we lost eachother, but I still think about her. Maybe she'll be the last one I think about too, and it'd be more comforting to see her instead of just think.
Also do you mean actual schizoid? It's an actual distinct thing different from schizophrenia.
Also, another also, I guess I am glad I got to remember my feelings again. Been keeping it on ice alot. Thank you sushi.
I hope I didn't bring regrets or doubts into your mind… I actually meant schizoid, as this situation is really close to this typical problem where one is longing for relationships while fearing and avoiding them at the same time. It has always been like that, as well as the shame to express even shallow level of emotion, but place like this are a blessing for that.
>>6087>actually meant schizoid
Cool cool, just checking. Some people use it unawares cause of like, humanoid, mechanoid, etc. It's a common and fun to use word bend.
I'm not diagnosed, but when I first read the symptoms I was surprised how well it fit my experience growing up. Spent like almost all of it in fantasies, having to do stuff in actual real life was just something I had to do inbetween. Long busrides and stuff was the shit cause I was free to just stare out the windows and ride the daydream engine wherever without anybody interrupting me.
No need to worry about bringing up something bad, it was something I needed to stop pushing away. Better to feel melancholic love than to disable that whole emotional subsystem.
Also maybe we should bring this discussion to /hell/ lol
if we wanna continue further, might be a bit too heavy for someone just browsing through. Seems like a match for the "Also if you absolutely must have a super serious thread do it on /hell/, otherwise please don't. :)" rule.
I'm happy you found your way here sushiroll ❤️
So I moved to a city recently and currently I am rewatching Welcome to NHK. At first I found Sato very relatable, I have no friends here and was too scared to leave my flat at first, but Sato was pathetic liar and that I despise. Today I made myself go to shopping centre to get winter socks, to gardening shop and to guitar shop. I am still novice player, but I really wanted to play on electric. I didn't use an amp, to not embarass myself but still it was great experience.
I am finally moving on from my addiction, for real this time! Being sober feels wonderful.
Stoked to be on my mech kb again, spilled a whole cup of coffee into it couple of weeks ago and it spat out bullshit even after several days of open case drying. So glad it wasn't permanent, just had to wait quite a bit extra.
>my brother have a job now and don't want to kill himself anymore
Hey Aniki, glad you like my development. I'll try my best. Though I still get suicidal ideations without my drugs.
I still have one in a shoes box under my bed.
Wut?I am the younger brother not the old, don't lie to me, sushi roll