/lounge/ - sushi social

Congrats!

>>12333
im sure moot will appreciate the fanfic

>>12333
checked

>>12333
amazing. brings tears to my eyes

>>12333
m00t is a slutty friendly lady boi though

>>11475
Oh nom nom

cool sips

>>11475
>>11846
Time for my lunch

>>5818
Not all of us survived, unfortunately. After a suicide attempt(s?) and a brief stint of homelessness among five great and terrible years I ended up back living with other relatives before finally my parents once more.
Well, I survived at least (not to imply it's so fantastic to be alive all the time still, but sometimes good things happen, enough to warrant another day I suppose).

>>5819
Yeah just consider there's more responsibilities to owning any animal, even a cat, than you may have considered by yourself. At the moment I'm just sticking to patting other people's cats on the way home from work (my record is three in one walk).

Also, moving to a new place where no body knows you is great! Ideally I would every couple of years, that's when things start feeling too settled. Even in this city of 50,000 I can't wander around the streets drunk and high on the weekend without a co-worker spotting me in the act.

Exercise under the moon if necessary

>>16205
>It is natural to wish to cling to somebody or something in this scary world.

It's the only thing I want. I so desperately just want for an angel to appear from the heavens and take me away from this place. I fantasize about leaving the earth and this disgusting physical prison all the time, so often I choose to live in my dreams rather than face reality. I constantly seek out this "ideal person" that will "save me", as if it is my only goal in life. All I do is rot and I want nothing more than someone to rot with.

>However, the truth often is that when we cling in fear we often suffocate that which we love.

Pretty much all that I've been able to do is suffocate people until they hate me. I suffocate them with love, with hate, with paranoia, with all of my extreme emotions I drown them out. And I can't help it, either. It's almost as if it's a robotic response now for me to feel afraid of people when I care for them enough. It's either I feel nothing, or I feel everything. Even being aware of it doesn't seem to help.

To give more context, whether it be my own paranoid ramblings or not, I think this person is just messing with me. In the end, I have nothing but myself. I seem to consistently be drawn to people who wish to hurt me. But something tells me it's just really me who is hurting myself.

Thank you for your kind words, sushi. It greatly helps to bring at least a little bit of light to the abyss I'm drowning in.

>>16209
Your self-awareness is a good first step sushi. Perhaps looking inward to find how you developed these feelings could lead you to a healthier escape from your despair.

From my own past experience, some communities or sites are probably just not good places to find your emotional support. If you have any reason to think this person in question is somehow taking advantage of you try to find an escape elsewhere. If they're truly kind then they wont mind you getting some space so you can figure things out.

>>16233
good post sushi
>>16204>>16209
definitely agree that you've got a lot of self examination ahead, its a long road but it does help
you definitely need to try your best to not look at anything related to them, I had a breakup and was obsessing and checking everything I could.
I've only found diving deep into a project is the way out, since you are thinking about other things. I wouldnt recommend it but I had to get lower so i drunk and threw up a bunch and only once I did that did I finally get over the final hurdle. It only worked by me having other shit I wanted to do. I am however quite spite driven so it fuels my desire to succeed, that and when im particularly moody/focused do I listen to music a bit too loudly

>>16204
Please have some respect for yourself. That's what I want to say, although I don't fully understand what you and the object of your obsession are.

Don't reach out to them who won't reach out to you. Maybe that's the right stance to adopt for this particular problem. Maybe that person was indeed cheating on you and intended to hurt you. Is this the worst-case scenario you've been thinking of? It may also be that your special person is arrested or dead, although it's more likely that the person in question simply has no will to talk to you or is afraid of reestablishing contact. If that is indeed the case and they master the strength to reply to you, then, please, be merciful and feel free to forgive them. Humans are rarely angels, if ever they are.

If you want yourself a distraction, then rather than locking yourself in a room, try going for a 20-kilometer walk. Walking will calm you down, and eating a fat, heavy meal right after that will make you feel nice and warm and will put you to sleep. If you have the opportunity, move out of your city to where everything is green and fine for a week, and don't touch your smartphone for any purpose other than checking where to go. Although, if it's hot outside, this may turn out to be torture, so decide for yourself.

>>16233
>>16439
>>16440

Thank you sushis for having given my blogpost the time of day.

>>11802
perfumes and stuff change their smell over time coz of the volatile ingredients that eventually dissipate. so if that cologne is like 2 years old or something since you opened it, it's probably changed a bit.

I smell other people's vapes
What a filthy habit

>>16402
>this revives thread
I like vape smells too.. but people are generally obnoxious with them.

I like to brew tea in my room for both the smells and the tea. I like sage the most. The tea is also great to drink. Very relaxing.

I want to sniff Louise Francoise-tan's strawberry-blonde hair.

>>14990
Let's just say I am not emotionally stable

>>14085
>>14108
thank you, I have a lot of relaxing pictures like that for wallpapers

I'm missing nature in spring. I hate this, but I rarely have control of my life. It's beautiful here. I'm going out in two days though. Two or three. I need to be in nature.

I talked to a girl today for two hours, she is so cute. I need to socialize more, if I can get more energy like this.

heh… it's been about a year now since posting here. I suppose I should've realized that my life is a constant loop. Today has been quite silent, I woke up with no one home and I haven't seen a single person outside. It was windy and overcast. I will learn piano later, it's been a nice day. Good night and see you all in autumn hopefully.

>>15503
I was so absorbed in creating the very model of a modern majires that it didn't occur to me to watch the video.

>>15445
I hate vacuuming but it's got to be done…

>>15503
I'm reading a book where one of the main characters is named Candide, I wonder if that was meant to be a direct reference. It's called The Snail on the Slope. It is quite good so far.

BELIEVE

>>15246
Glad you're feeling positive. In my experience thinking positive doesn't work and its just guess level advice that keeps getting spread around.

Most of your thoughts are downstream from what's going on in your life. The key is to force yourself to act better and do things that will pay off eventually. Doesn't matter whether you are in a good mood or feel like shit as long as it gets done. Eventually you'll have some good results coming down the pipe and your mindset will improve.

I'm sure you've heard this all before but doing the basics to stay healthy goes a long way. I found a game changer was fasting once or twice a week. It's a pain to do but if you can take a day and just eat dinner, no other meals, you'll feel a lot better afterwards. If that's too hard, the day before try eating high fat no carb keto meals and it will make the transition easier. Just doing the basics with health, fitness, getting you life together will force you to be more positive. It's not easy but the idea is pretty simple.

Another game changer I found is having what I would call a mutation mindset or some less cringy title lol. Basically people get stuck in certain patterns with how they think and act. Your logic and conventional thinking can only get you so far. Sometimes its good to try random stuff and do things you would normally never do and see what happens. A lot of people think they suck at something, no one likes them, their life sucks or stuff like that. If you start doing things differently that might not be the case, or at least you'll have the hope that things can change.

It's like evolution, you mostly have natural selection but there are also mutations. Cows are bred to have the most meat, and people follow a pattern if it feels good. One day you might randomly get a cow with two tails which ends up being a good thing because you can sell more ox tail soup. If you try random patterns or act in a way you would normally never think of things might get a lot better. Most of the time mutated cows get bad birth defects, and trying something new isn't always going to be a positive experience but you just have to roll the dice once in a while.

>>15419
Yea I know what you mean. I switch between like 4 different accounts depending onPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>Do any of you enjoy going out/socializing?
No. Not at all. I do have a friend, though, we go back a while. I see him about once every year, and we talk about stuff. He's pretty smart, so we have interesting conversations, mostly about stupid shit.
I honestly don't understand how people like being around other people.

>>16097
We be having herd instincts and shit idk it just feels good. It's like I can feel their energy, and it hypes me up too!

>>7803
You articulated this so well, I should show this to my therapist. Whenever I get close to someone, I freak out, it's asphyxiating.

i'm still young, and i find that it's always hobbies and stuff (i.e. chess, video game scenes, music scenes) that bring people together, the familiarity between each other's tastes in things

been making a lot of friends lately because i've been throwing myself into that stuff, and to answer the question, YES, i enjoy socialising

ain't til you spend time around people that you realise all this online-induced misanthropy and ideas of herd mentality is just blown super far out of proportion

I got a two or so friend groups though I never actually made the active effort to befriend most of their members. Just one or two people who in turn introduced me to everyone else.

Thing is: you have to know when to draw the line when "hanging out". I feel like being around people TOO often makes you venerable to whatever petite drama overcomes the average person or worse yet sabotages your own sense of self.

>>16177
this made me laugh uncontrollably

>>16174
got the job?

>>16189
My interview is tomorrow!

>>16191
Be confident and do your best!!

>>16191
Stay frosty, marine.

>>16063
Grass is green with red cherry trees,
Sun shines and birds sing through my glass window,
Though somber feelings fill my heart,
And summer has its stormy nights,
Life is a blessing I can endure,
Life goes on in summer light.

Do not go gentle into that good night

Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

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>>16063
Are psalms ok?

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.

>>15831
you're welcome fren <3

Hey hey hey people.

>>15898
hello fren

>>15614
The outside is nice place to be …. sometimes

>>15963
Sometimes!